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*WHAT MORE CAN I DO?* I am going through a dark phase of my life I feel far away from God and his people Sometimes, I act like everything is fine And mostly, like I understand but, I remember all His promises to me but, None has come to pass How am I supposed to trust Him, When He feel so far away? He gave me so many promises, And none of them have come true. I am still knocking on the door And asking and seeking for Him  I thought it was His desire To fill me with living water, I am thirsting for You, my Father. It has been a whole year, Lord, And I still cannot hear Your Word. I have this terrible growing fear That I might have been forgotten  God, my faith is so low and, My spirit is completely dry. I don't know how all this fits in, And I don't understand the reason why. I hate feeling separated from You And this frustration in my heart. I do not know what to do Or where to even start. Is all my seeking in vain? Am I too confused to find You? The only thing I find is pain ...

BATTLE 25 *WORTHLESS* My name is Joel, I have been fighting this battle alone with no one  Feeling alone sometimes, Can mean different things but now, I feel worthless It's hard sometimes to say exactly what I worth. Sometimes even harder dealing with the hurt. To feel like no one's there during all my pain. I have nothing left to lose and nothing left to gain. I struggle through the days, with no one at my side, To find some sort of worth, to save a little pride. But all my days are dark, stormy, and cold And emptiness keeps growing as I slowly fade away. I have no effort left to put into this life, No helping hands behind me to pull me up the weight  So once again I ask, before I do something crazy Tell me, if you care, exactly what I'm worth? What else do you think it's left for me in this world I'm all alone.  Dear Joel, Lot's of things await you The generation God has placed on your shoulder Your purpose await your manifestation Others that are passing thro...

BATTLE 24 *LEFT ALONE** No one will ever know how I feel, For I cannot even explain it all. Nobody to love, Nobody to blame, Everyone always the same. Nothing to care about, No reason to lie, For I am me, myself, and I. No one sees what I see,  Nobody left to care for me. It's kind of sad knowing what's true,  'Becuse then you know who's there for you. Most of them just put on that act.  A lot of them talk bad about me behind my back. Thanks for making me feel this way,  There's nothing more I should have to say. All the times I was alone So, don't stop talking about me. No family for support, no friends to care.  People wonder why I don't go anywhere. Every night crying myself to sleep,  Sometimes I wish someone loved me. No hope,  No love,  No life,  No friends.  The pain never ends. Sometimes I ask what did I do to deserve this.  But nobody answers because they can't hear it. A voice in my head tells me to forget the bad and reme...

BATTLE 23 *THIS ISN'T ME* Sometimes I wish that you could see the real me The scared girl inside of me. I'm not really who you think I am I'm not tough, strong, or mean. That isn't me. This isn't the real me. I fight every day just to reveal it, Yet cry at night. No one can see through My false identity, isn't glaring. Yet, I don't know what to do  I've been hurt, As you can see, So I created A fake me. No one ever tries To get through my shield. All I want to be is me. How do I show, What I've kept hidden for years? How do I show All the silent fears? What would you think If I showed you me? What would you say Without my false identity? Remi said  Dear Sisters, Many people are like Remi, living a life that isn't for them. Living in fear. Wearing a skin that isn't theirs. Yet, they don't know how to pull it off because people are use to their old skin. There's no joy hiding behind your fear *Psalm 56:3*. When you are afraid, put your ...

Never compare yourself with everyone  Never compete with anyone Never compare your progress with your neighbors Never envy your friends growth Never wish to be  someone else Never stop praying Never stop singing melodies praises and worship Never stop believing and trusting God Never stop appreciating each other progress Never seize to seek knowledge about issues that aren't clear Never stop being obedient to God Never think you are alone in the journey of life Never think your problem is the biggest among all Never think there's a struggle without an end Never lie about your present state Never live a fake life Never stop giving Never stop appreciating other efforts Never criticize anyone because you don't know what they are passing through Never be the judge Never stop to rise after you fall Never stop believing in yourself Never hide those tears in the presence of God Never get tired of waiting on God Never stop growing in all areas of life Never live your life trying to...

BATTLE 22 *HIDDEN* Everyone has problems,  Some may be worse and some not as bad. But when it comes to hurting yourself, All you feel is sad Sometimes, you feel you can let it out Sometimes, you feel nobody understands Trying just to get away, Hiding yourself from the world. Trying to make it all better, When you are finally becoming another version of yourself  Looking for an escape, Just thinking If death is the next option Telling your parents what they want to hear, Knowing that it's all a lie... You hide it each day, everyday you live, Just hoping no one will find out. You didn't do it to die, you just do it let time pass And hoping someday you will finally breakout. Dear sisters, Breakout of your shell and reveal what has been going on, That secret that has forever been sealed Don't keep it all to yourself, To avoid break out Is it the wrong relationship you are in and you need to break out? Is it colleagues or friends those corrupts your mind everytime? Is it your en...

BATTLE 21 *THERE'S HOPE* Everyday of my life, I keep pushing Sometimes, I don't even know who i am anymore Everyday comes with A new struggle and Challenges It's making me give up On myself I don't think I am worthy? Life hasn't been fair to me I am gradually losing the sight of Who I am I don't know if I can still believe There's hope for me... Dear Sisters, Never give up and Never give in. Keep fighting that fight So the devil doesn't win. Through the hurt and the pain, The sorrow and the shame, The one thing you need to remember is that tomorrow is never the same. Hold unto your hopes and dreams, For your fears are less than they seem. You might feel, there is no hope in sight, Take a minute to look at the sky And remember that there's something Out there bigger than you and I. Just like today, The sun will shine again. Through the clouds and the rain, The sun still remains, And all the darkness will fade away. So hold your head high, Hold unto yo...

BATTLE 20 *NOBODY CARES* Why do you stand around and watch me cry? Don't you see me? I'm in so much pain, don't you see? Nobody knows me; I feel so alone. They don't see what talents I've shown. Why doesn't anyone truly understand? I just want to be part of something. Nobody cares that I always cry. It makes me feel like I want to die. I just ask one question of you. Why do you do the things that you do? I just want to make people smile, To stop the pain and sadness for a while. Nobody sees the things that I do... Nobody knows the real me I guess, I will have to stay forever hidden. Everyone says the real me is weird. It's like the true me has been shattered  Why do I feel the way that I feel? Because of those who make my nightmares real. My friends and family don't know at all Right now I just want to be alone. Dear Sisters, Always remember nobody can stop you, you can only stop yourself by allowing the words of others get into your mind. You don't ...

Nobody knows it's empty, The smile that I wear. The real one is left behind in the past  Because I left Him there... Nobody knows I am crying. They won't even see my tears. When they think I am laughing, I wish they understand... Nobody knows it's painful. They think that I am strong.  They say it won't kill me,  But I wonder if they are wrong. I miss him. They think I am all set free, But I feel like I am bound with chains,  Trapped in the mystery and pains of the past... Nobody knows how much, I need You  They think I can do it on my own,  But they don't know I am crying  When I am all alone.. I miss him I want to go back..."Adéníké said as she was crying Dear Sisters, So many lessons are embedded in the next novel. Pray with us and we await the book release God bless us! *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

BATTLE 19 *RESTORATION* "How do I explain this position I am? I guess, I'm just tired of my faith Nothing seems to work It's taking a lot of time but, How long do I keep waiting on the lord I don't think I can go on ... Nothing has changed in my life Pastor Keep saying I will be great but this time doesn't look good I don't even believe in myself. How much can I believe in God Everyone keep says, I have blackslided but, Nobody knows what is going on with me I don't even understand myself I think I need restoration.. Help me, I want to go back to who I am meant to be I was once spiritual but now, I'm not anymore I'm thinking Christianity isn't even meant for me Help me..." People are bringing me down I just can't get my balance I guess I need restoration" Tumininu said Dear sisters, This is a trying moments, A lot of people are going down the christian lane but, Trust me this is not a time to keep gossiping or talking about them Thi...

BATTLE 19 *RESTORATION* "How do I explain this position I am? I guess, I'm just tired of my faith Nothing seems to work It's taking a lot of time but, How long do I keep waiting on the lord I don't think I can go on ... Nothing has changed in my life Pastor Keep saying I will be great but this time doesn't look good I don't even believe in myself. How much can I believe in God Everyone keep says, I have blackslided but, Nobody knows what is going on with me I don't even understand myself I think I need restoration.. Help me, I want to go back to who I am meant to be I was once spiritual but now, I'm not anymore I'm thinking Christianity isn't even meant for me Help me..." People are bringing me down I just can't get my balance I guess I need restoration" Tumininu said Dear sisters, This is a trying moments, A lot of people are going down the christian lane but, Trust me this is not a time to keep gossiping or talking about them Thi...

When you're going through life's storm, And you think there's no way out, You're not the first to feel this way. There's hope, without a doubt. It was easier many years ago, But now you feel like a crap, Because of the situation of life And it seems it's here to stay. Your friends have tried to help, But you tell them it's no use, You think no one has the help for you, It seems you can't get loose. Set the problem aside today, Take a break. You have no idea until you try it. What a difference it can make. So your trouble didn't vanish, But it sometimes makes it easier And can help you through the day. If you feel like giving up, How will you ever know, If you had diverted your attention, Learned what God wants you to know? He wants you to be blessed, He does. He loves you even when its hurts. He's cared about you, Since you were a little You know the God you serve Jesus defeated him completely, On that day on the cross Whatever you are going thro...

Everyday of my life, I keep pushing Sometimes, I don't even know who i am anymore Everyday comes with A new struggle and Challenges It's making me give up On myself I don't think I am worthy? Life hasn't been fair to me I am gradually losing the sight of Who I am I don't know if I can still believe There's hope for me... Dear Sisters, Never give up and Never give in. Keep fighting that fight So the devil doesn't win. Through the hurt and the pain, The sorrow and the shame, The one thing you need to remember is that tomorrow is never the same. Hold unto your hopes and dreams, For your fears are less than they seem. You might feel, there is no hope in sight, Take a minute to look at the sky And remember that there's something Out there bigger than you and I. Just like today, The sun will shine again. Through the clouds and the rain, The sun still remains, And all the darkness will fade away. So hold your head high, Hold unto your dreams and visions  It may...