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I don't understand why there's pressure inside,  but the pain that comes from it brings a tear to my eye. I haven't talked about it but, I still feel pain inside of me. Is it a heart attack, or is my heart trying to put itself back from the years of being used, broken in pieces, quarters, and even halves When I finally have the courage to look at myself well at the mirror, I see I growth but I have aged. You're so beautiful; you look like an angel to me,  but by now I know wouldn't be receiving such compliments  Who am I to blame? But I guess,  I have a lot of work and time put in,  but for some reason all my attention were about the point  At this point I feel lost. I had inspiration to sing and write,  but now, I can't do anything  I know I must learn to forget,  practice ignorance, pretend to not exist,  I want to forget everything  Before I push the reset button for my heart,  there still a chance for a start. I miss myself...

There are moments, Where all you just want to do, Is cry out your mind because,  Words are not enough to justify how you feel... There are moments, Where all you do doesn't seem right, Even the things you use to do before... There are moments, Where it seems you are all alone You don't even know how to pray and Nothing seems to work... There are moments, You don't know the answer or reason why life treats you in an unfriendly way Everything seems to be going well but, All of a sudden, things changed You lost so much interest and, All you want to do is to be alone. Alone with your emotions  Alone with the struggle Alone with the burdens Alone and away from people Alone and away from social media... Dear sisters, There are going to be moments in your life Even Jesus encountered some moments in His life but, How prepared are you? Do you wait for the moment to come? Or, Do you prepare and gather enough strength for the moment? Either you like it or not, There are going to be mo...

I have an invisible friend Who guides me through dark and pain. He always tells me not to give up As he believes in me when I don't believe in myself  When my paths are not clear And I am surrounded by fear, He holds my trembling hands and says, "Oh dear, don't you worry, good days are near!" Even though all I see are my struggles One day I finally asked Him, "How can you be so positive about everything?" "Just like after dark night comes bright day, Just like after every storm comes the calm, Through ups and downs, life always goes on." He said  He made me believe in miracles, Gave strength to my wings. No matters how impossible things may seem, He always make me see positivity  He is the reason I always smile. I never give up, I never blame  Because I have an invisible friend, And Hope is His name! Do you feel down, Do you feel lost Do you think nobody love or want you There's a friend that sticker closer than everyone. His name is Jesus and ...

Sometimes, I feel left out in everything I go to places and I feel I don't belong there I just feel I'm not needed or people pretend like they need me.... Are they just assumptions? I think I deserve better, I definitely do, I'm trying all my best to feel okay. I'm trying all my best to please them but it's not working I keep hurting myself again and again I feel left out I think after all, I don't matter and nobody cares too Yet, I Keep hurting myself and I just think the only way to be free is to run away from everyone around me who doesn't need me and just stay low. Dear sisters, You need to be strong first, Believe and love yourself Don't live your life like a nobody or like someone who has to please everyone When you came to the world, you came alone and wasn't escorted so, live your life in accordance to God purpose and not according to pleasing people. *Light Lamp* *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

BATTLE 43 *GET YOURSELF BACK* Some days ago, I was feeling bad about me not attaining a certain goal because I had been occupied with many things I guess I have been feeling lazy or No, Laziness isn't the right word... I have been feeling tired about taking the next step But, just when I opened  an app and I saw the opportunity I missed out on, I had a reset and I realized I had opportunities but I didn't make use of them. I was focused on one thing and I forgot the main aspect of me  But guess what, The girl is back Revival is back Dear sisters, Whenever you realize you  have been doing something but you stopped That moment is not to wallow in self pity but, Get yourself back in order. I know sometimes it might take time to realize but, The moment you realize, Don't just feel bad. Sit up Dust yourself Pray to God for strength And focus on it. Ensure a day don't pass before doing something related to that which you have once abandoned Have you stopped writing? Get back ...

Some many times, I feel cursed I feel prisoned I feel I'm in a bondage Why? Nothing works for me? Even when I see people that doesn't worth it and I see how things go with you, I wonder why is mine different? Why do I have to live the blame of someone else I don't even think I have the right to myself anymore" Romoke said hurtfully  Breathe in the fresh air,  Put your mind at ease.  Let your eyes wander To all the beauty to be seen.  If those toxic thoughts you still do ponder, Then let out a scream.  Scream until the pain is gone, Until you no longer feel afraid.  Open your eyes to a new dawn, Let the darkness fade.  No longer compare yourself Or your flaws to others' perfections.  Take the negativity off the shelf. Focus on your direction.  Close the door on self-hatred. Never let it back in.  For the lies it would often tell you, You will no longer agree.  Happiness and love are what you should hold onto. They are whom you should...

BATTLE 42 *HOW?* Tell me how do you do it? How do you stay happy even in the midst of it all? Tell me how to respect someone who doesn't deserve my respect. Tell me how to trust someone who betrayed me so badly. Tell me how to care for someone who never cared about me. Tell me how to speak nicely to someone who only spoke down to me with bad words. Tell me how to get along with someone who brought me nothing but endless tears. Tell me how to get close to someone who caused me so much pain. Tell me how to forgive someone who hurt me so severely. Tell me how to open my heart to someone who broke it to pieces too many times Tell me how to deal with pressure  From everything Teach me how to stay happy How do I so hopeful in This hopeless situation" Boriola said as she cried Dear sisters, Nobody can teach you how to stay happy or overcome hard situations.  They can only tell you how to deal with it and Not to affect your day to day activities. You can't fully depend on Men Only...

Single ladies, Be happy for everyone and yourself, Singles are sometimes blessed because life's not so messed. Everything has a lesson Embrace it for some reason. Singles, Don't be mad and sad, Single life is somewhat not that bad, Be very happy because life is always so lovely and it doesn't mean you are lonely. Singles, being alone is not a hell, So cheer up and celebrate Single life means living alone, There are times we can't hold on Yes, a touch and a hug from someone can be a solution but, not for everyone. There are times, you feel you need to be alone even when you are in a relationship So, love your single life Dear sister Stop worrying and overthinking because you feel you are alone and lonely Single life is exciting, full of fun, adventure, and a learning stage. Yes, I know you have come across people who ask and say, Why are you still single? Smile may sometimes a reply because you can't even explain it. People may or will tell a lot of things  You may o...