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Nobody knows how I am different The outside of me is not afraid Not full of pain, or even ashamed The inside of me is hallow and empty I am tattered,broken and full of despair I smile and everyone believes Of course nothing could be wrong with me My eyes are dry, I do not shed tears For that gift was taken away from me I laugh,talk and play along I keep on existing as if nothing is wrong Nobody knows how different I am My world is falling, crumbling apart Life is meaningless and that is just the start My heart so sore, I can feel it breaking And it leaves me shaking For all they know I am happy and always smiling But deep inside my soul is dying I can feel it rotting It wants to scream,but I won't let it I can never tell them how I feel because the happiness I wear to them is real Nobody knows how different I am When all I feel is pain When all my loved one looks at me and all I feel is shame When I am tired of living and playing this game When my life is ...

I know you might be wondering what is all about the human chameleon Smiles, the important thing is not to focus on the title but the content.. I want you to have this in mind but before I proceed, I would love to give a brief introduction about what chameleon is.... Which I don't want to think or say everyone does Talking about chameleon, everyone obsessed with animals should know what a chameleon is. Chameleon is that animal that has the capability to change into different colors to disguise itself from predators. Okay now that you have an idea about the chameleon you may probably be thinking  “Why am I doing a blog post about them ”....Not exactly, but I am going to write about human chameleon just like the title says. Now, this is not about people who change colour, but people who change their PERSONALITY. People who change their personality in order to please other people. I am guilty as I was once one of them... smiles Having the chameleon personality would n...

Victoria a lover of God She is highly talented. An outspoken lady with a lot of values attached to her. Her dissection into God's words can create a passion to grow deeper. Her commitment towards God's work can motivate you to be committed. Her worship is a Floodgate of Heaven, it draws the presence of God and people don't even want to leave the atmosphere.. Victoria is a lady who gets a lot of praises from people because her result speaks. "Oh!... Sister Victoria, I thank God for your life and what he is doing through you.....You look elegant ....I love you dressing ...Nice hair and shoe MA..." She usually receive lots of compliments from people, with a warm smile to reply.. .."Thank you".... But there's one thing people fail to say..HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?.....Yes, they didn't ask because they believe she is surely doing fine.. They are only concerned about how they are getting blessed and how she is growing in Christ but failed to recogniz...

..... I feel like my life is a mess That for some reason keeps getting dropped, Why would I love and hate the person again? Why must I think relationship is not made for me? Why do I share feelings but don't have the capacity to love? Why do I share feelings but don't have the capacity to love? Why don't I know how to love? Why don't this madness end? Why don't this vicious cycle stop? Because I don't want to live a life that is shattered My heart finally healed but it's once again shattered I showed my true self but it didn't even matter When someone picks it up and drops it I thought I had found love But instead,I found sadness Why didn't it go right? Why did I give him a chance? Why does it have to fall back? Why did I try to love? Why must I trust him? Why must it be me again? It is shattered The butterflies are died Now my mind is all madness Can you see worry in my eyes? The bleeding of the life long scars has already ...

My tears were personate by the rain Unseen by all, alone with my pain I hid behind lies when things got tough Forced myself to think it was enough For every time that I broke down There was a fake smile to cover the frown Each night was a cover to hide my cries To keep showing all these lies If I could go back, I'd change it all Stop myself from starting to fall Captured by hatred, I lost everything I knew it was wrong but it felt so right I couldn't live without the pain Or the anger coming through my vein For every truth, a lie l learned to hold Watching each one start to unfold If I could go back, all that would change And all lies and time wouldn't seem so strange I'd undo my lies and make them true Hold on tightly to all that I do Forget the thoughts and think of his words And couldn't expect the best I'd forget that I cried those tears Remember only every one,one of my fears I'd try never to remember the memories It brings pai...

I was just a little girl trying to roll around with what life brings due to my inferiority complex, but the outcome was an ADDICT... I was living my life to please people, so I tend to flow with whatever that comes my way. I was influenced by my church member .It all started on a Sunday afternoon after the service outside the church, she came to meet me and she said “ TEMI ,come and see something on my phone ” and me, as a girl who has always been waiting for people to talk to me ,I was glad and looked at the phone to see what she was about to show and I was shocked at what my eyes met and I screamed then she covered my mouth asking why was I screaming?.,it's just for fun,nothing is there and she drew me closer and we started watching it but within me I knew it was bad but I just want to satisfy her, not thinking about myself. I kept on meditating on what I saw, I grew into it and I became a PORN ADDICT. Sometimes,she would come to my house, we would watch porn together an...

Many embrace a gospel that is not the same as Jesus and the disciples taught. We sometimes wonder, WHAT HAPPENED TO THE OLD TIME RELIGION -the religion in which the “full gospel ” was preached and taught (1 corinthians  15:1-4) which our ancestors believed, taught and walked in. We live in a time where some ministers have thousands of followers whom they do not want to offend with even the mention of sin. Some preach a gospel of how to be healthy, wealthy, wise..etc and omit how to stand victoriously and resist the devil. Some instead seem to focus on self -help and how to be successful in life. The successful Christian today is seen by some as one who drives the best car, has the biggest mansion and pays the most tithes into a church to help support a social type gospel. Yet, love for God first and others, helping,and walking in the spirit of the lord are birthmarks of a believer that is successful in Christ. God expects us to give as we have prospered,yet it is more than giving...

Have you ever wondered why some people are not getting it right in the aspect of friendship?. This is because they have not been enlightened on what friendship entails OR basically have not defined their stage of friendship One holiday,my younger sister came to tell me that one of my friends asked about me and I was like my friend? I have to ask her again and she said yes. I smiled and asked “Who”...Fortunately, it was one of my class mates in secondary school that have not seen for years. Then I sat her down and I told  her it is not everyone you relate to are your FRIENDS .I made her have that understanding,also I told her I choose my friends because the kind of friends you move with determines your FUTURE.Not because I am proud but I have learnt to identify who are my friends. *WHO IS A FRIEND* I know a lot of people have their own definition but I still want to share my own opinion *A friend is someone you create things together *A friend is a favored compani...

With so much tears,smile and love..I urge you to read this article. It is my true life story, I am not writing this to feel sorry but for you all to learn, gain and be blessed from it. I have been carrying this pain in me for years even though I was not able to identify on time and what is the pain? LOW SELF-ESTEEM I was worthless, not good at everything, have no self esteem, nothing to live for. I believed that other girls are perfect with flawless face, perfect eyebrows, perfect weight, they are perfect in everything. I always wish I was someone else, I ask myself why do I have to be who I am, can't I be like them..pretty,e.t.c but all I hear was my inner voice telling me “Stop!You can't do this ”.The only thing I do was to listen to that voice telling me what to do and how to react to situations. I was always shy in class, had stage fright, do not talk unless being talked to that's me and will forever be... I thought . I lost my confidence, I can't talk when ever...

I implore you to read through this article, it will enlighten you Tears rolled down my face as I listened to a young lady give her testimony.She had experienced tremendous abuse by pimps, by Jacobs, and even by police officers. She had been physically,emotionally,and verbally abused. She had been rejected and shamed. Basically, she had lived anyone's worst nightmare. Yet she now stood in front of a huge audience, resilient and strong in the lord.She stood there encouraging people to use their pain for God's glory. She encouraged people not to let their scars define them, but to spur them forward in love, forgiveness and humility. It must have been difficult for her to talk about her past. She could have pretended it never happened. But she did share her scars... Over the course of her lifetime  she would undoubtedly impact thousands of lives with the power of the gospel. We all have scars, and those scars have stories. It could be external or internal scars. External scars...