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LOW SELF-ESTEEM

With so much tears,smile and love..I urge you to read this article. It is my true life story, I am not writing this to feel sorry but for you all to learn, gain and be blessed from it.

I have been carrying this pain in me for years even though I was not able to identify on time and what is the pain? LOW SELF-ESTEEM
I was worthless, not good at everything, have no self esteem, nothing to live for. I believed that other girls are perfect with flawless face, perfect eyebrows, perfect weight, they are perfect in everything. I always wish I was someone else, I ask myself why do I have to be who I am, can't I be like them..pretty,e.t.c but all I hear was my inner voice telling me “Stop!You can't do this ”.The only thing I do was to listen to that voice telling me what to do and how to react to situations.
I was always shy in class, had stage fright, do not talk unless being talked to that's me and will forever be... I thought .
I lost my confidence, I can't talk when everyone was talking because I think they are superior than I am, what do I want to say... I acted inferiorly.Having low self-esteem shaped me in ways that I can't even look at myself in the mirror..... It was a bad pain and experience. I can't go out alone, I can't even walk alone, being overly shy ruined me. So many times, I missed so many great opportunities because of it and as a result I developed social anxiety.....I'm always staying at home ( my corner) thinking that was where I should be.
It made me lose friends because I was shy, I believed I don't have the potentials needed in a friend.... I totally look down on myself, I had no one to talk to even my mum. I was all alone and I thought that was the best ever... Also in my Academic, no boldness to ask question .It affected me a lot, but deeply in me, I know there was a lot in me but it was hidden.
A lot to say,...
I put my worth in what others might say about me.
I put my worth in the people surrounding me.
I put my worth in the things I say and do.
I put my worth in what I can do for others,i would always want to satisfy others. because I had no believe in myself.
I had this believe that if people don't comment on my look that means I am not fine and also, if people don't appreciate my work, that means it was not good.I keep waiting for people's comment and if I didn't get any, I feel bad.

I don't want anyone to feel what I felt for myself
It was a terrible feeling and a bad pain
I can't accept myself
I doubted everything
I can't even trust myself, not to talk about trusting others
I can't love myself
I gave in to the voice that little me and I start to believe every word of it.
I do not wish this upon anyone but for some reason when I find someone who is going through this... It helps... I know I can talk to them because I truly understand them. I  understand what it's like to wish they could rip this skin of theirs and be a different skin because you just hate yourself so much.. Like I ripped off my old skin and behold a new skin

My advice to those with low self-esteem, and this was how I overcame it
STOP!You need to quit selling yourself, for each of you are worthy. Just lay down your low self-esteem and pick up Christ purpose
For one thing that God can't do and that is to make JUNK
He creates beauty and masterpiece,so quit calling yourself JUNK.
For you are worthy to be appreciated and loved by others for you are God's  masterpiece.

*DON'T LET PEOPLE'S WORD DEFINE WHO YOU ARE...*
*NEVER WAIT FOR PEOPLE'S WORD, YOU ARE WORTHY!!!*

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Unknown said…
I lost counts on walking you down on errands, because you were really shy of those in our street....But I bless God this day, because you know your identity in Christ Jesus...Keep the flame burning for Christ.
19 September 2018 at 17:35
Light lamp said…
Thanks
God bless you
19 October 2018 at 03:32
Awofodu Samuel said…
This is a really good one... amazing and helping... Thank you so much.
1 April 2020 at 05:03
Awofodu Samuel said…
This is a good one.... amazing and helping. Thank you God bless you.
1 April 2020 at 05:05
Light lamp said…
God bless you too
21 March 2021 at 12:54
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