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Wait....Am I cursed? Can I still get over the past? What is wrong with me? When will I finally get to be me? I want to be free, free from the past, free from those guys I had slept with, free from the pain of men, free from the world of men, free from the touch of evil men, free from the pain of love, free from the men holding me from progressing, free from the fear of those voices in my head. I want to run, I want to hide, I want to tear down the walls that held me tight. I want to reach out and touch the flame of breakthrough, I want to live, I want to be heard. I am sorry for all the things I had done, I just want to be free from men. Though my past with men had led me on a journey of no return but I don't want to be a slave  anymore. I want to move on and become a better version of myself. Enough of the sexual pleasures that satisfy only my sexual desire. I think to myself am I even real? I am stuck in this deep, dark and awful state. I am sorry if I had hurt someone or woul...

Anu was 15years old, when she had been living with a wrong mindset because of her struggles, challenges and experience and it keeps depriving her of moving forward. “Each day kept coming and what she saw, was a broken girl that is not perfect and would never be. The girl that people want her to be” she said, as she was discussing with her interviewer. Then, she taught about her life and how she could not look at the mirror because, all she saw was a failure but was determined to change. “How was she going to change? Yes to some extent, she believed in God. How can she get over this wrong mindset of mine?” These are questions Anu asked herself. As she was flipping through the bible, she saw the scripture that talks about Royal Priesthood in 1Peter 2:9. Then, she asked herself “Does that means she was made for royality? Why would God see her as a royal person despite her filthiness, her stain, her rag, etc. She could not really consentrate on what she wa...