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"Sometimes, you need to sit down and ask yourself, where did I go wrong? What happened? Rachel said as she was addressing the sisters at a conference. "Sister, where at thou? What happened along the way? What happened to those days of personal and consistent fellowship with God? What happened to those days, when you were so much in love with God and you put Him first? What happened to those time, when you can't do without evangelizing to someone? What happened to those  days of praying and reading of the word consistently? What happened to those days where you always have a question about the scripture? What happened to those days of personal retreat? What happened to those days, where all your heart desire is just to speak and bless the people when called to minister. Not minding, if you get more invite or not. You just want to bless lives? What happened to those days of sitting with Christ and involving Him in all you do? What happened to those days of giving? What happ...

Are you at any point of your life when you feel that your heart is so heavy and can't keep going on again? Do you feel that burden is too much for you and sometimes, you feel you don't have enough strength to speak out to someone. Not because they won't understand but because you don't fully understand what it is yet. Do you at any point feel sad, just because of things around you or with what is going on with you? Do you think your inconsistency with your Father, has made Him lost interest in you and can't approach Him? Do you feel like the greatest sinner and can't approach the throne of mercy? Do you feel you are getting used to the current situation in your life and you feel it will take a long while before getting better? In all you thinking, I want you to know there's more.  There's more you can do than just sitting down and getting weigh down by the different thoughts in your mind. There's more to you and you won't know that if you keep de...

"Tori, something is wrong with me. Back then, I usually get several invites to minister but now, things aren't the same.  I don't even understand what is going on. These days no invites yet I have never missed prayers and studying of the word. Everything is just silent. Oh, I miss those period back then" Bukola said as she was lamenting "Wow Bukky (short form of Bukola)..I expected more than this from you. Why will you say or even think like this? What's going on with you? Tori said as she was confused Hmmm.. What many have and are holding unto, is the memory of back then. You will hear words like, back then in school. I used to be on fire.  Back then, everyone around knew me that I am always hot and on fire Back then, I could read the scripture ten times a day Back then, I had several encounters and trance with God Back then, I had lots of Rhema Back then, Back then, Back then... Holding unto the memories of Back then but what is happening now? Just because ...

"Just like a twinkle of the eyes, everything around me began to change. I didn't know many things around was changing. Even my personal relationship with God. My new lover had captivated all of my heart and it was never dawn to me that I had lost my relationship with My Father. Hmmm.... What an experience. I replaced my long time intimacy with my Father just because of my new found partner who I devoured most of my time with... morning, afternoon and evening. I got so much influenced by my lover everyday as I began to sort out new tactics on how to enjoy and keep my lover but there is my Father (God) watching all of it and waiting for his daughter to come back to Him. I even knew how to handle my lover well than my Bible.  The day, light came was the day I realized I was so far from my First love and I began to reduce the way I get so entangle with my lover. I found out new tactics on how to handle my lover so as not to affect my relationship with my Father and I also looked f...

"Joke, this phrase is too much for me to bear. Everyone keeps telling me to hold on but for how long? I don't think I can hold on again"Busayo said "Hmmm..My sister, I understand you perfectly. I might not be feeling the pain but I have been there. Trust me, everything is going to be fine" Joke said "I hear this literally everything and I kept holding unto these words but nothing has changed. Why? Why is it taking too long for God to change this? I am tired and I can't even keep up again. I am tired of eyeservice, I am tired of acting up, I am tired of waiting for too long, I am tired of thinking all will be well. I just want everything to be well. I sincerely desire this and also, at the same time, I am tired of staying for too long" Busayo said as she sighed "Bussy [short form of Busayo], I know you might not understand now but God surely have a plan for you. Things might not come the way you expected it because God doesn't move in our t...

Many at times, people keep asking, how do you do it? but the truth is, how many hold unto the answer given to them? Sorry, if you feel you are not celebrated the way, you ought to be celebrated Sorry, if you are not noticed the way you want to be noted Sorry, if you want more attention but you are not getting it Sorry, if you feel nobody wants to help or hear you out Sorry, if you feel you are not getting the result you want Sorry, if you feel you can't go on with that vision because it's not looking like it  Sorry, if you are not getting the public appraisal you think you deserve... Sorry, for whatsoever you think is holding you down. Making you feel jealous, unfocused, etc but the truth is, how far will this sorry go in changes things. Please, don't ever feel down. Appreciate every of your little progress either being seen or not. Life is beyond getting to be recognized publicly or in some platforms. Continue to build your secret place, build your vision and at the appoin...