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*HIDDEN* Hidden from a lot of people, Is the shame, embarrassment and pain Hidden from a lot of people, Is the secret heartfelt prayer Hidden from a lot of people, Is the secret sin and disgrace I bring to myself... Tola said as she continued " I struggled to have a meaning in this world. I tried all my best but yet I wonder, where I should go. Hidden in my soul is the life I try to hide before it ruins the life I have made, I release those dark secrets, and the memories will fade. Hidden in my lives are stories left untold of the things I didn't want people to know, but once i tell somebody, it makes my feelings known, the struggle will be over and I will finally be back to myself. Dear sisters, You can't continue to hide those feelings or secret act. You need to release them so that you can break the bondage I know some times, you really want to stop but you find yourself going back again your determination Some times, you want to back out but you don't know what peo...

*WHERE WERE YOU?* I do not want your counsel and advice. Where were you all when I was enduring hunger? You were not there when I was thirsty and searching for someone to quench my taste When I was having financial problems, You did not assist me in my hour of need. I thought I could depend on you, When I was in pain but, You were not around to sympathise with me. I needed the comforting words of a friend but, I did not see you... I felt that I was going to succumb to my illness. And I had nobody to call out to for help. You did not even try to find out about my condition. I knew that you could not cure my illness, But your presence would have lifted me. Now, I see you do not really care about my well-being and yet, you make me think you will always be there You led me on that, I should depend on you but you let me down This is not the right way to treat someone... Dear Sisters, I know how you feel and I understand you. I know you might feel disappointed because those you think you can...

*LET IT GO* Sometimes, it might not be easy Sometimes, it's hard to accept Sometimes, I regret my actions Sometimes, I feel I should have done better but.... The past is the past for a reason, That is where it is meant to stay, But some cannot let it go. In their heads it troubles them That you cannot change what happened, No matter how hard you try, No matter how much you think about it, No matter how much you cry. What happens in your lifetime Happens for reasons unknown, So you have to let it go Let your story be shown and your healing process Dear sisters, Don't get wrapped up in the negative thoughts. Be happy with what you have been given. Live each day prepared  Get up, get out, and start living, The past is the past for a reason. It's been, and now it is gone, So stop trying to think of ways to fix it. It's done, it's unchangeable; move on! Find Love Find Joy Find Happiness, Find Peace... All these is possible. I know it might not be easy but don't dwell...

*IS IT OKAY?* I don't know what's happening? I been crying since day one, I have tasted my tears to the extent that I don't know what it taste anymore  I been crying and fighting all these while But, I guess it’s okay to cry out loud  It’s okay to let people see me cry I been crying because it hurts I have been crying because, i never thought I will be stabbed at my back I been crying because I know I still have people to love me  I have been crying to forget away all my shame I have been crying because my trust has been chattered many times  I been crying to get stronger from now on and forever I have been crying to survive; I have been crying to train myself not to give up Dear sisters, I believe it’s okay to cry with pride I believe It’s okay, to cry at night I believe it’s okay, to cry away your pain I believe it’s okay, crying isn't a shame Nothing last forever and neither does crying makes you feel better  It’s okay to feel pain, crying sometimes might bre...

*I AM LONELY* Single ladies, Be happy for everyone and yourself, Singles are sometimes blessed because life's not so messed. Everything has a lesson Embrace it for some reason. Singles, Don't be mad and sad, Single life is somewhat not that bad, Be very happy because life is always so lovely and it doesn't mean you are lonely. Singles, being alone is not a hell, So cheer up and celebrate Single life means living alone, There are times we can't hold on Yes, a touch and a hug from someone can be a solution but, not for everyone. There are times, you feel you need to be alone even when you are in a relationship So, love your single life Dear sister Stop worrying and overthinking because you feel you are alone and lonely Single life is exciting, full of fun, adventure, and a learning stage. Yes, I know you have come across people who ask and say, Why are you still single? Smile may sometimes a reply because you can't even explain it. People may or will tell a lot of thi...

*PASSING THROUGH A LOT* I have done many bad things in my life. I have made poor choices and I have put myself down. I have never seeked help because I felt like if I did I would feel less. Friends come and go Right before you, You lose someone you love Yet through it all you still love your life. People leave you to fight alone You put on a fake smile to hide all your pain Yet someone still knows your hurt. You still try to satisfy those around you Thorough it all, you wouldn't change a thing Through it all, you wouldn't trade your life for fame and show. Struggles meet you in the face to watch you slip up Yet through it all you wouldn't change a thing. Through it all you wouldn't trade your life for fame. Dear sisters, There is someone who loves you and cares about you and also outside there. I promise you that. Don't fight what ever you are going through alone. It is hard and it might be frustrating and look miserable. Seek guidance and be happy. Jesus loves you ...

If you read the pages of THORIA'S DIARY. Trust me you wouldn't want to miss out on this ... My struggles is another part where we share friction stories and I believe it will help the those passing through the same story. Don't forget to read, share and drop your comments.. *CAN YOU HEAR ME?* "Can't you hear my silent screams? They are so loud and behind this face that carries a smile, Lies a mark that goes on mile after mile. My silent screams have been going on for years, But it always falls on so many deaf ears. How can they hear these silent screams in my mind? They can't hear my thoughts if I keep telling them I'm fine. What can I tell them? These silent screams has no words. It's just feelings of sadness and darkness. How can I explain, so people understand this? It's like walking around without any direction  I can't explain how this feels; it's so extreme, So I hold my mouth shut to cover my silent screams and let nobody know about i...

Some ladies are like a bird sitting on the ground and too afraid to fly. They have beautiful wings(talents and gifts) that could make them soar, but the pain of past failure is the cry of their hearts. Yet, God has said unto them, "Trust and have faith in me, for I will carry you in your flight. The miracle of life is waiting for you to see." After the assurance of God, there is still some doubts in them that says, "But I can't fly. I am weak, I am a failure! I will fall and feel pain. It's happened before when I tried to progress. I'm afraid of being hurt again." God said again, "I created you, and I will protect you. Your cry I have heard. Have faith in me. That's all you need to do. Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right h...

I remembered, I was telling some group of people that "I can't go to a place I wasn't invited to". Many people said several things, giving their opinion on what I said but I stood firm on what I said and I wasn't bothered. While I was brooding over some people opinions. I got to realize something's. Bible says, "Ask and it shall be given unto you. Knock and the door shall be open unto you" Asking Him, is inviting His presence into the situation. Dear Sister, You have been going through a lot, the Lord sees it all but have you invited Him for Help? You feel because He is God and He sees it all, He should be able to do something but the bible has asked you to "Ask" Ask,  Call upon Him and invite Him into that situation. If you don't grant Him access through the confession of your mouth and the sincerity of your heart, there is no how He can come in... God sees it all but He still want us to ask Him.  Just like I saw the invitation card bu...

Life is unpredictable... Don't live on past events or in regret. Never live your life trying to please anyone who isn't your creator. Live your life according to God's standard and plans for you. Life will push you over, kick you while you're down and even hit you when you try to get back up but remember, not everything can beat you or knock you down. We have victory in Christ Jesus. Things will come to change you but you have to choose which ones you let change you either the good or bad. Listen to your heart and follow your dreams. Let no one tell you what you're capable of. Push the limits and enjoy every minute of it. Smile all the time and Live for as long as you can. Love all, but trust God. Believe in yourself and never lose faith in others. Settle for nothing but only the best and give 100% in everything you do.Take risks, live on the edge yet stay safe and cherish every moment of it. Life is a gift from God. Appreciate all the rewards and pray and seize opp...

Does everything have to go this way.  I am trying and putting in my best everyday yet, nothing seems to be new about me. Would I ever be heard? Is my life meant to go on this way? I know there's something great in me, Sometimes,I struggle to find myself for days and months keep passing. As I lie here, stuck in my own mind. Always looking for ways to improve myself but I struggle to take that first step. I often wonder if this is it for me or if I'm stuck in my regret. Something I don't know, if that's the right thing and I can't still see the right thing. I try to hide my insecurities because the worry is just too much, But everything end up going by, without having to achieve anything. I don't even know what I live for. So today I am tired of this life routine because it seems I am at dead ends and I don't know where to go again. Any words of wisdom Could help my soul someway. I need to find myself" Doris voiced out. I know life can be challenging, cou...

I know you can be in a situation where you don't understand what is going on or don't know the right words to pray with. I know it can be overwhelming and sometimes, you just find yourself crying and telling God to help you, whispering the words "Help me lord", with tears dropping from your eyes and you feel sometimes, you can't go on Sometimes, the words feel heavy and you just wish that season can pass away but nothing changes. You can go further and tell Him, Jesus, some days my world seems to be spinning out of control. There are days where I long to just say, "Enough." Where can I turn? Who can I talk to? You're the only one I know who will truly listen, Lord and I know you have the answers but, i can't seem to find them. I long to see a little clearing in this tunnel. I need a little hope, Jesus. Your Word tells me I can come to you for that hope and you won't disappoint, that your load is easy and your burden light. Give me a new persp...

Welcome back to Thoria's diary.  Page 63  *OLOLADE'S STORY* Sometimes, I wish I could cry and scream loud but i can't because I am preventing my voice to be heard by others. Mostly, I don't really understand myself because I find myself crying for too many reasons. Reflection about my life in the past always bring tears to my face. Reflection about what I have been through. Reflection of not getting enough and walking yet in that vision I pictured.  Reflection of seeing the things I admire coming to fulfilment in the life of another. Yes, I am a Christian and i am trying my best to stop dwelling too much on many things because the outcome will only be tears that wouldn't change anything. It can be tears of regrets about something's. It can be tears of failure. It can be tears on not starting well like others and so on. I have also noticed my tears don't move anything. It only touches those things I admired for that moment but its determination, faith and act...