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WONDERING WHY I'M HERE?


 
I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here.
I do so much for everyone. 
Why don't they show their care?

I met this guy who said he loved me, 
something I haven't heard in so long.
He used me for my money; 
What a ride he took me on.
There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside.

Sometimes I wish my dad were here, but to me he's not alive.
I have no one to talk to.
These drugs seem to be the only way.
Turns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and every day.
I know outside I'm smiling; it's the face I fake for you,
But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do.

I know my family loves me.
I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor.
I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing here.
Can I wake up from this dream?
Can I please just disappear? 

My dear sisters,
There are some situations in life we just need to learn from
Life is a training ground and there are many questions we will ask ourselves daily with no answers.

Does that mean we will give up on life?
Does that mean we can't overcome and control them?

My advice to you sister,
Don't be in an haste in life
For every challenges there's always a way out
It doesn't come to stay permanently which means you don't have to entertain it for too long
Be positive,
Don't fake anything about you.

Speak out when necessary to keep your mental health fit
Pray, study, go out
Don't overthink
There's a way out...

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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