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"How can one smile such sweet smiles, When one is so saddened by sorrows for years, How can I smile the same smiles, When life brings me nothing but tears, How can I smile when the weight of the world is on me When everything is crashing down, I wondered for so long, what reason i had to smile. To keep smiling even in the midst of pressure and still keep the sweet smile I obviously wear, I want to break down I want to let it out I want to stop acting like I'm fine because I'm NOT Behind my smile is pain. In my eyes is hurt and I hide it the best I can. Behind this daily mask because the world choose to see you smile I am a burden I was made only to help and not to stand in the way. It doesn't matter how I feel. Who should care about me? Why would someone? I am the one who helps everyone and deny myself the right. The problem with being selfless... You feel like you shouldn't be helped. So you sit in your pain. Behind you smile. That fake smile, everyone seems so g...

There are some situations that will come and it will cause you to ask the question... Can it ever be over? It seems like as one is leaving, another one is coming. Then the weight seems unbearable and you knock out. At that moment, you won't even remember you are a Christian and all you seek for is solution. In the search of solution, you begin to move away from the truth. Knowing fully well that the way isn't the right way but you just want to break out. Then, it looks like the more you are breaking out, the more nothing seems to change because more challenges keeps coming. Sometimes, you feel like God has forgotten you because you have confessed that you need His help yet, your heart want "Do it fast solution". Mostly, the problem is in our confession and mind. I remembered some times in my life. I found it difficult to trust God, even when people shout and say trust in God. I pray, worship and study but deeply within me I knew I was struggling to trust God. Yet, my ...

There are several moments in a man's life. Moments to laugh, Moments of pains, Moments to cry, etc. Some days ago, I was down because something's wasn't right and it wasn't fixed yet. I got tired and I didn't want to talk to anybody. I just wanted to be alone. I have not experienced such a moment in a long time but I just wanted to be alone. During the moments of being alone, several thoughts were flowing in my mind and I remembered the moments when things was glooming and fine. I told myself "Temilade, you need to pull yourself and gear up. Trust God and everything will be fine" It took me few minutes before I could get myself but I kept allowing those words to sink into me by repeating it and within a short time, I came out of the mood swings. During that period, I got to realize that even in the good and bad time, we need to be positive because God is still God. In the convenient and inconvenient time, he is still God. Even Jesus, had moments when he cr...

The world must become a much better place Where more people dwell with a smile on their face Living together in kinship and peace  A world full of hope where joys never cease. Wearing our heart on our sleeve everywhere  Will show all mankind that we really care Thus shining a light that's warming and bright Love is a splendid way to make the world right. Live for the moment, our time here won't last Life is too precious to live in the past The dawn of each day gives us all a fresh start To those whom you love, tell them straight from your heart. Today is a day that's made for Love Cast cares aside, let us all sing and dance To everyone that has been following up our novels, write ups. I love you appreciate you all. ADENIKE IS COMING!!! *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

How did I get here? I look at myself and I am not proud of where I am. I used to be very fervent in spirit but I don't know where I stand anymore. Somebody help me, I watch myself desiring progress I can't attain I watch myself claiming openly to be who I am not secretly  I watch myself leaking in the place of prayer yet I couldn't do anything I watch myself draining in the Word yet, i watch christian movies just to keep myself in the word. Please help me, I can't continue to be who I am not. I need the old way where I stay, pray and laugh in the secret place I miss the communication with My Father I miss Him sharing his thoughts with me I am only active in online programs but deactivated in the Secret place of communication with my Father. I need to go back to the old times, I need to find myself in track, Please, help me..."TEE SAID  To every TEE'S I know you are facing a lot now and it seems to weigh you down but I want you to know, no matter how far the jou...

Are you at any point of your life when you feel that your heart is so heavy and can't keep going on again? Do you feel that burden is too much for you and sometimes, you feel you don't have enough strength to speak out to someone. Not because they won't understand but because you don't fully understand what it is yet. Do you at any point feel sad, just because of things around you or with what is going on with you? Do you think your inconsistency with your Father, has made Him lost interest in you and can't approach Him? Do you feel like the greatest sinner and can't approach the throne of mercy? Do you feel you are getting used to the current situation in your life and you feel it will take a long while before getting better? In all you thinking, I want you to know there's more. There's more you can do than just sitting down and getting weigh down by the different thoughts in your mind. There's more to you and you won't know that if you keep dep...

Many at times, people keep asking, how do you do it? but the truth is, how many hold unto the answer given to them? Sorry, if you feel you are not celebrated the way, you ought to be celebrated Sorry, if you are not noticed the way you want to be noted Sorry, if you want more attention but you are not getting it Sorry, if you feel nobody wants to help or hear you out Sorry, if you feel you are not getting the result you want Sorry, if you feel you can't go on with that vision because it's not looking like it  Sorry, if you are not getting the public appraisal you think you deserve... Sorry, for whatsoever you think is holding you down. Making you feel jealous, unfocused, etc but the truth is, how far will this sorry go in changes things. Please, don't ever feel down. Appreciate every of your little progress either being seen or not. Life is beyond getting to be recognized publicly or in some platforms. Continue to build your secret place, build your vision and at the appoin...

Many at times,  We are overshadowed by the circumstances and sometimes, We just forget to pray Father, I am discouraged, disappointed, worried, overwhelmed, and burnt-out. I feel downright helpless when life seems to beat me down like this. I know You have not left us and that You are always with us. I ask that You would remind my heart of this beautiful truth: You are not a Father who would abandon us in our trials or in our pain. You are near to the broken-hearted and You have given us the Holy Spirit, the Comforter. You are the help we need when we face various storms in our life. I lift my eyes to the heavens and know that You hear my cries. I trust that even if my circumstances do not change, You are working in my life to use these hard times to change me to look more like Your Son, Jesus. In His name I pray. Amen. Don't be discouraged, Sometimes a moment of prayer not minding the duration but out of sincerity can change the atmosphere and cause peace. Happy new month Family ?...