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"How can one smile such sweet smiles,
When one is so saddened by sorrows for years,

How can I smile the same smiles,
When life brings me nothing but tears,

How can I smile when the weight of the world is on me
When everything is crashing down,

I wondered for so long, what reason i had to smile. To keep smiling even in the midst of pressure and still keep the sweet smile I obviously wear,

I want to break down
I want to let it out
I want to stop acting like I'm fine because I'm NOT.

Behind my smile is pain. In my eyes is hurt and I hide it the best I can.
Behind this daily mask because the world choose to see you smile

I am a burden
I was made only to help and not to stand in the way. It doesn't matter how I feel. Who should care about me?
Why would someone? I am the one who helps everyone and deny myself the right. The problem with being selfless...

You feel like you shouldn't be helped. So you sit in your pain.
Behind you smile. That fake smile, everyone seems so gullible. It seems to convince everyone except for the very very few. I sometimes want someone to notice, to ask if I'm all right but, the problem is...I would say yes.

I don't know why? Because behind my answer...I am screaming. Screaming for help

I want someone inside my head. Who can tell exactly what I need. How to make me feel better yet I don't want to speak out. This pain that is so hard to cover up and yet I manage day to day.

I will sometimes try to hint but no one gets. I don't know why? Am I the only one that feels this pain? Pain that makes you shake. Pain that hurts so much you cannot cry. I just want to be happy all of the time. God, why can't I be happy?

I'm tired of acting
I'm tired of saying I'm fine" Tomike said as she was crying and discussing with Busayo.

"At least, I found the real you. God helped me find you, even in the midst of pretense and that's is a sign that you are not forgotten. 

Tomike i cant believe you are passing through all these yet, you take up the microphone and lead the congregation. How come? Where is your joy?
When the world gives you 1,000 reason not to smile, you give it 10,000 reason to keep smiling genuinely. Find your joy from within and it stirs up your smile.

I also have what I am facing presently but my smile is genuine because I know it's a phase I will overcome. The joy of knowing that I am not alone in this battle, is enough to make me smile joyful. That doesn't make me a fool, it's just that i realized, Christ in me, the hope of glory.

Don't be too quick to forget the promises of God, just because of what you are going through.

That unemployment, should not steal your joy. 

That unfruitfulness, should not steal you Joy, and so on.

Believe, study the word, pray, and stir up your Joy and let it brighten your smile genuinely. When you get this, you will begin to dance and smile even in the midst of your struggles, challenge, pain and so on because GOD IS WITH YOU" Busayo said

"Wow... I feel light. Thank you so much sister" Tomike said as they hug each other

If you believe, I want to say GOD IS WITH ME....

HAPPY NEW MONTH FAM
God bless you

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*
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