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BATTLE 37 *TRYING MOMENTS* "How do I explain this position I am? I guess, I'm just tired of my faith Nothing seems to work It's taking a lot of time but, How long do I keep waiting on the lord I don't think I can go on ... Nothing has changed in my life Pastor Keep saying I will be great but this time doesn't look good I don't even believe in myself. How much can I believe in God Everyone keep says, I have blackslided but, Nobody knows what is going on with me I don't even understand myself I think I need restoration.. Help me, I want to go back to who I am meant to be I was once spiritual but now, I'm not anymore I'm thinking Christianity isn't even meant for me Help me..." People are bringing me down I just can't get my balance I guess I need restoration" Tumininu said Dear sisters, This is a trying moments, A lot of people are going down the christian lane but, Trust me this is not a time to keep gossiping or talking about them ...

BATTLE 36 *STRENGTH* Sometimes, all you just need, Is to put aside the dangling bomb  And totally depend on God's Mercy and Strength Yes, You have been trying by, Yourself but for how long Will you keep trying  Lord, at times i come to you because, My faith is not as strong. But in your loving arms i fall; you show me that I belong. You carry me when i think I can't go any longer. The love you have can only grow stronger and stronger. With you living in my daily lives,  You are the living God i praise. Thank you for the goodness and showing me along my way. At times I want to lay it all down to you, and at your feet i fall. You show me there is a way and help me to give it all. You give me the faith to be stronger, even though I may not know. The things that are not of you, you help me to let go. You are my strength, my deliverer, the rock that makes me unbroken. You lead me to be righteous with things I feel are all unspoken. I pray for understanding, because sometimes,...

"Growing up, I always struggled so much with things going on in my mind. My parents were not okay, I kept getting my heart broken, and started harming myself. Things wicked people had said to me, always find their ways back into my thoughts and it made me hate myself. I was so lost but when I turned 18, I met someone who made me see things differently and I was finally let go the war between my head and mind" Oyinade said as tears flow down from the ladies she was sharing her story with. Then she went forward and said... "Let your mind be at ease, if those toxic thoughts still ponder in your mind, then let out by speaking out Speak out until the pain is gone. Until you no longer feel afraid. Then, open your eyes to a new dawn and let the darkness fade. Don't ever compare yourself or your flaws to others' perfections. Take the negativity off your thoughts and focus on your direction. Close the door on self-hatred and never let it back in. For those lies coming thr...

I am all alone and that's why nobody else can see me... Nobody knows me; I feel so alone. They don't see what talents I've shown. Why doesn't anyone truly understand? I just want to be part of the society. Nobody cares that I always cry. It makes me feel like I wanna die. The me you see is not the real me. This isn't who I wish to be. I hide the pain, I hide the strife. Honestly, I just want to escape this life. You'll never know the pain I feel. I'm running from this world, still wondering when my voice will be heard. They keep saying that I'm selfish, dumb, and cruel but can't you see that I will never let you win this. Now there's just one more thing that I want them to know, and it is that I will never let my sorrow show. The true me stays forever hidden. My friends and family don't know at all. Right now, I just want to be gone" These were the words Tomike poured out to the counselor. Dear sisters, I know many things are happening i...

There are moments, Where all you just want to do, Is cry out your mind because,  Words are not enough to justify how you feel... There are moments, Where all you do doesn't seem right, Even the things you use to do before... There are moments, Where it seems you are all alone You don't even know how to pray and Nothing seems to work... There are moments, You don't know the answer or reason why life treats you in an unfriendly way Everything seems to be going well but, All of a sudden, things changed You lost so much interest and, All you want to do is to be alone. Alone with your emotions  Alone with the struggle Alone with the burdens Alone and away from people Alone and away from social media... Dear sisters, There are going to be moments in your life Even Jesus encountered some moments in His life but, How prepared are you? Do you wait for the moment to come? Or, Do you prepare and gather enough strength for the moment? Either you like it or not, There are going to be mo...

"What happened to the light? Is it full or low? This was the question I asked my sister as I turned on my lamp few days ago. Unfortunately, the lamp was so low that it could hardly emit light for me to use and I needed it urgently but it wasn't the lamp' s fault. There was no light for some weeks now and there was no way to charge the lamp expect the generator is on. That's the same way God gets angry when he sees the people He sent to light the world light going down. What happened? Why is the light not connected to the source? My dear sisters, Do not let's that sin or what you are going through make you disconnect from the source (God). When the lamp was charged, the light came on so bright. Do not let what you are passing through now make you disconnect from your maker. Go back to God and be charged Go back to the secret place and be charged Go back for retreats and be charged Attend that revival program and be charged. When you notice there's a disconnectio...

BATTLE 35 *HIDDEN* Hidden from a lot of people, Is the shame, embarrassment and pain... Hidden from a lot of people, Is the secret heartfelt prayer Hidden from a lot of people, Is the secret sin and disgrace I bring to myself... Tola said as she continued " I struggled to have a meaning in this world. I tried all my best but yet I wonder, where I should go. Hidden in my soul is the life I try to hide before it ruins the life I have made, I release those dark secrets, and the memories will fade. Hidden in my lives are stories left untold of the things I didn't want people to know, but once i tell somebody, it makes my feelings known, the struggle will be over and I will finally be back to myself. Dear sisters, You can't continue to hide those feelings or secret act. You need to release them so that you can break the bondage I know some times, you really want to stop but you find yourself going back again your determination Some times, you want to back out but you don't ...

This is for YOU, Who hide in the dark, For YOU who feel hopeless, For YOU with a broken heart. This is for every child and teen Who is trying to flee from their fears, For YOU who cry yourself to sleep, For YOU who drown in tears. This is for YOU who hide your scars Upon your wrists and thighs. I want to remind YOU There is a reason you're alive. You are here for a purpose; You are needed in this place. You are special, you are beautiful.  It doesn't matter what size, gender, or race. You are perfect just the way you are. You are priceless, a wonderful new. You are dearly treasured by many. There is no one more important than you. *ADÉNÍKÉ IS COMING SOON* *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

BATTLE 34 *I FEEL FAR AWAY* "I feel so empty and everything seems so dull. I can barely breathe on my own. The light is gone and dark is back which covers me in endless black, My heart broken on the floor. I cry sometimes and just wish I can feel His presence again.  I need you Him; can't you see? It's obvious, He completes me. I lay on my bed crying all night, praying for things to be all right. For everything, I'm to blame. Remember me forevermore, Please don't erase me from your agenda. My heart will never be the same. Don't remove me from your plans. I knew I loved you from the start but I accepted you" Louis wept "Who is that? And what's his name? Because I feel the love is surreal" Yemi the counsellor asked "My everything, His name is God. These days, I feel I have been so far from him. I have lost my way as Sin as dominated me. I miss His presence and His inspiration. I pray every day for the Spirit of restoration. I want Him back...

BATTLE 33 *FACE IT* "I've always viewed life from the side lines, Just watching it passing me by. Also, too afraid to just let go and live, And lately too tired to try something new. I have envied the people around me. Their progress and consistency So invested in living each day, While I spent my time hiding out from my world And searching for ways to escape my belittling thoughts. For most of my life I truly believed I was here to help somebody else, But now it's so clear it was just an excuse. To avoid living life for myself. It's sad that the pain we endure, Can weaken our strength to move on, But if we get lost in the scars of our past, Without knowing our lives will be gone. It's true, people are disappointing, But we can't avoid hurting each other, When we all want a chance at this life. But there's something I've learned, A truth about all of our lives, And that is no matter what path we take, In the end, we just want to survive and met needs...

Few weeks ago, Many things were not going as planned I was tired I was feeling week but I kept trusting God in all. Either it's going to take time or not, I decided to hold unto His words and claimed His promises Everything went well and I was glad I didn't doubted Him.   He sees it all, those silent tears and unending circumstances happening to you He sees it all, those struggles and pain you have been holding unto for a long time.  He sees those moments when things seem difficult, miserable and even life is turning away from you He knows how it feels, remembering those moment you had lost with your beloved ones. Thinking of how beautiful and caring they were and leaving without saying goodbye He knows about those lonely moments and how you wished you could find someone close to you. To understand you and to talk heart to heart matters with, without being misunderstood. He sees how you wonder life can really be unfair to honest and good people like you but all you have to do,...

BATTLE 31 *PUSHED AWAY* I'm always trying to please people around me That's because I feel alone but now, I want to do something for myself.. I want to create an inspiration for myself I have to find myself when everyone put obstacle in my life Now, is the time I'm tired of being fake I really want to be brave. I want to be smart. I want to be saved. I want a new start. I'm constantly being pushed, Pushed to the edge. It knocks me down and, now I'm crushed. People tell me it's going to be all right,  But how much longer do I have to fight? How much longer do I have to keep holding myself  I know I have a purpose in life, But how do I reach it when I'm trapped?  Nothing to do but wishes all day and night. When I ask, it's never too far from being denied. Save me or join me; just don't say no. I promise I won't let you go but, I really want to change Someone should help me" Tinuke said in tears  Dear sisters, You are not too far behind. Just b...