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FEAR


Getting left behind
Not being loved
No one understanding
No one caring
Are my fears,
I had a dream 
I was lost
No one tried to 
Find me
No one cared
No one listened
Or understood

Feeling left out
Feeling like no one 
Understands
Feeling like no one 
Can hear me
When I'm screaming 
To be heard
Wishing I could change
Wishing I could make it better
Wishing for another chance
Wishing for someone who 
Will come and save me
From myself.

My fears
Not being heard
Being left behind
Not being understood
How can I
Disappear and
Make people
understand?

My fears,
People laugh
People tease
People misjudge 
People misunderstand 
Me.
Behind my back,
They laugh,
Tease,
Hurt,
So I can't see
them. It hurts.
Now,
I hide this pain 
In my heart
Making sure no one sees
My hurt, pretending to be
Someone I'm not.

Trying so hard
To fit in,
To cover the Scars,
Trying so hard to be liked
The pain
I've caused, the hurt
The disappointments
The worries

Hoping now
People understand
People miss
People hear me
And others 
Forgetting all,
All the pain, and hurt
I learned to hide
Inside
Buried deep in
My heart
No way out
These are my fear, dolapo said

Dear sisters,
Don't ever force yourself to get people's validation because,
Even if you do not have anyone around

Also don't live your life judging with the fear of your past.
You need to focus on the present.
Believe God and believe yourself.
Know that you shall bounce back no matter what,
If you don't stop yourself 

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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