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Can you stop wallowing in self pity just because things are not going right? Just because your plans are not going well, doesn't mean it's over Just because you are not picked for that interview, admission, etc doesn't mean it's over You have been praying over a particular issue some people are giving testimony about, doesn't mean it's over You have been seeking for Admission for a long time and you are always rejected doesn't mean it's over You have been nursing some pains, wounds, etc and it seems not to heal yet, doesn't mean it's over Those challenges seems too high and you think you can't break through doesn't mean it's over Every of your friends are engaged but you are still praying 'God when' doesn't mean it's over You fell into sin and you think God can't have you back, doesn't mean it's over   You used to be invited for ministration but now, nothing is showing forth don't mean it's over You...

You know how bus driver carries different people going along his final busstop. I entered one bus, he was so keen on carrying the only busstop he has been calling and ignoring those busstop along the way. Everyone in the bus kept shouting at him because he saw some people going to the busstop he has been calling but he didn't agree with the price and he wasn't bothered with just few of us in the bus. Yet he was still looking for more people to fill up the bus.  When he got to the bridge he stopped calling and was driving. People in the bus was saying a lot like, "he is wasting fuel, instead of him to just carry people at lower price or those going along the way." Forgetting that they are also sitting comfortable. He didn't even utter a word. Then it occurred it's the same way most of us operate with God. Let's not be an indecisive christian always stand on/with the truth. People will only drag, insult you but they shouldn't make you change your plans w...

There are voices in my mind, Draining me and making me feel worthless  There are days, I ask myself can anything good come from me I'm really tired I just want to be left alone  Everything seems so dull and dry Relationship, friends, food, family, I'm tired No one to help me I feel stuck The struggles of life hit differently, I never thought I could find myself in this position  All I could just do, Is to cry all day and hoping, Everything will be fine  If there's any word I'm tired of hearing is,  Everything will be fine? Is it until I die or depression hit so hard? Dear Sisters Give yourself a break so you won't breakdown  Affliction, struggles, the pain will definitely be over It might take a long while or not but be rested assured that it won't remaining the same. I beesech you to stay strong. You are not the first and won't be the last to pass through this phase There's still light at the end of the funnel *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

"I sat down and asked myself, at what point did I lost it. Then I realized, it was at that point when my power failed and I couldn't go on anymore. At that point, where my strength failed in terms of prayers, worship and thanksgiving At that point, where my world was crumbling and I thought I could do it all by myself At that point, where I made some decisions and it affected my whole life. At that point, where I lost my desire and zeal for God just because of the situations of life At that point, where my decisions were made by peer group At that point, where I realized it all and I wanted to get up but Satan maliciously pulled me down and made me think I was doing right. At that point, where I was grieved and angry at the things I couldn't achieve At that point, where the sickness became so much and I needed prayers after relying on my strength At the point where I failed and my result aren't speaking of who I am. At that point, where I got empty of the Word and coul...

Many at times, the process seems long and you wonder if you can ever stay that long. Sometimes, you feel so disturbed and you want to do something to get yourself comfortable even at the detriment of your values. Hmm...most of the time, staying in the process doesn't means you are totally forgotten or you are weak. It doesn't means you have been abandoned or your vision doesn't mean anything.  Sometimes, it's a test. God is wondering how long you can stay with Him, till He mould you. He is wondering, if you can say Yes, to stay in the process and still keep the Fellowship with Him. To still keep adoring and worshipping Him.  Something, the process is to prevent you from what He has seen that is supposed/about to happen...Hmm, say yes to the Process and hold unto Him The process isn't there to bring you down but to make you a better person. To birth and spring up new things in you. Though, it might look frustrating, tiring and annoying but trust me, the result is alw...

Oh where is thy voice? In the depths of my soul, a storm rages on A silent pain that few have known A weight that presses down on my chest A burden I bear, and try to find rest The pain that is so loud within, The tears I cry, are tears of pain The screams I make, are silent refrains The wounds I bear, are deep and wide A heart that's broken, and a soul that's tried The world outside, is unaware of my strife They see a smile, but not the pain of life They hear my laughter, but not my cries They think I'm fine, but they're not looking inside The silence is deafening, it's a heavy weight A burden I carry, a constant debate To speak or not to speak, to share or not to share The fear of judgment, the fear of being bare I wish to write it out and let my words flow A cathartic release, a way to let go Of the pain and the hurt, of the tears and the strife A way to heal, and find a new life Dear Sisters, If you're going through silent pains, Know that you're not alo...

"Hmmm....what exactly was she talking about? Am I smelling? Because I don't understand why she looked at me and told me to clean up. Clean up for what exactly? Bee said as she was roaming round the room. She looked cranky as she couldn't get any answers to what Diane told her. "I always wear my perfume and I don't still understand why she will say something like that to me. It's so unfair and rude for her to say something like that" Bee said as she looked at herself again. Dear Sisters, The clean up there, most time doesn't mean the outward appearance. What about the inward appearance? Some lady care so much about their outward appearance and don't care about their inner appearance. Many who claim this and that is bad are only doing Eye-service. When you get close to some of them, you will realize that they don't actually mean what they say outward. They just say it because they feel it's right and they should just say it. Clean up Bee...

I always wish my name can be a representative of what people think about me but nothing like such, seems to be happening. I love to be of help to everyone but I got to realize some people don't worth the sacrifice. Instead, they end up blaming and complaining about the little help I offered. Sometimes, I just wish I could stop but I don't feel at ease yet, I keep regretting my actions. People can't really be trusted. Why can't people be satisfied? Why do they request for what they can't give? Why don't they appreciate the little effort I put together? Why does it have to end in regrets? Can someone answer me, I am confused or "Am I not doing it in the right way? To every LOVE, I understand your heart and the fact that you cherish to be of help to people but I want you to know that no matter how you extend the hands of care to some people, they can't be satisfied. They always request for more and make you think and regret why you helped them at first. To...