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Hidden from view, was her silent tears which flowed freely anytime she remembered home but no one cared to know as she held herself tight, and faced it alone. "Where did it go wrong?"  The question she asked herself daily. I know a lady, whose childhood does not look like her future. She was a child who grew up with the heart of an adult. She grew up in a kind of system, where everyone despised her and the pain grew extensively. She tried to forget everything as she hummed her song, and blocked her ears with her hands to avoid the sounds she heard. Sometimes, she closed her eyes and tried to forget her fears, but she was losing her strength. "What kind of home is this?" Questions kept popping into her mind as she watched her parents in another argument.  "I thought home is a place of peace but mine is a place of struggles, fear, tears, pains and noise" she kept saying to herself. The screams were getting louder and louder and she couldn't stand it anym...

"How did I allow you into my life, you stranger? Where did I go wrong? What was I thinking till I slept and woke up with a stranger who has refused to leave. I know due to my own carelessness, I opened the door for him to come in and now, I am living by his way.  My life is totally under his control and influence. What else is left of me daddy, I have lost it. Daddy please help me" Sis Gloria said as she knelt down in front of the pastor, crying as she held his legs. "Sis Gloria, all these you are doing, can't solve anything. You haven't explained what happened, you are only speaking in parables. Come out plain to me, who is the stranger? He asked "Daddy, I am sorry. I am ashamed of myself. The stranger is Satan. I allow him into my life due to my selfish interest, love of the temporary things,etc. Ever since he entered, I lost my zeal for the things of Christ. He made me satisfy him as I began to do the opposite. I have now become someone people would see a...

"Stop it, that was the words I heard within me. Wemimo said as she continued.... I am ashamed of myself. Who do I tell what I am going through and won't mock me? How did I even get to this stage? I can't even explain. I am not okay, it is my sexual urge. It rises whenever I chat and talk with him, maybe its because I love him too much. I didn't even detect it on time, I thought it was those love feelings. Suddenly, I realise I am not myself anymore around him. I love him so much and as Christians, we made an agreement to stay pure till our wedding night but what can I do. I couldn't tell him how weak I am as i tried avoiding him but nothing changed. Is the problem from me? What have I indulge myself into? I thought about it but I couldn't find any answer. That night, I tried telling him but it was to late as I have started watching ponography videos to satisfy myself since i know I cannot get any from him. " I am weak, help me. I can't even pray" ...

"Eeee e, wetin man no go see for this country o. I was jejely on my own and a bike man nearly hit me where I was standing, looking for cab o. I was angry and was about to slap him before he started begging. I said to myself " Demilade be gentle". I calmed down and asked what happened. He said some soldiers were running after him. After his explanations, I realized how wrong I judged him. My bad abi, yes I know and I pray God help me o ore" Demilade said but her friend, Olaide was lost in tears. She moved closer to her. "Olaide mi. Kilo tun de(My Olaide, what again this time? She asked as she placed her hands on her cheeks but instead of her to talk, tears kept running down like an open tap. " Olaide, please talk to me. I don't like the way you are behaving these days... "What do you want me say now? After how many years ehn! 5years of crushing and getting close to him. He introduced me to his friends, parents and siblings. He told me many things a...

My name is Comfort. I am in a stage, where I need your help. I am in a dilemma where I don't even know myself anymore. I wasn't like this before and I also can't explain what's going on with me. I feel like I am stagnant, I don't even feel like my life is progressing because its not visible. There are many things that have been revealed to me about myself and many things I want to do but I still feel stagnant while doing them.  I am living under the shadow of my reality when my reality is staring at me. I don't know what else to do, I study, read and pray. I am conscious of the Holy spirit living in me but I am still living in shadow of my reality. Please help me what do you think I can do? I need help? Hmm, who would you help our lovely sister comfort who is living in the shadow of her reality. This is caused by the mentality of what she has consumed in her mind and it is affecting the reality of her life. Her mind has been fixed that she is stagnant. Just beca...