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STOP IT!


"Stop it, that was the words I heard within me. Wemimo said as she continued.... I am ashamed of myself. Who do I tell what I am going through and won't mock me? How did I even get to this stage? I can't even explain.

I am not okay, it is my sexual urge. It rises whenever I chat and talk with him, maybe its because I love him too much. I didn't even detect it on time, I thought it was those love feelings. Suddenly, I realise I am not myself anymore around him. I love him so much and as Christians, we made an agreement to stay pure till our wedding night but what can I do. I couldn't tell him how weak I am as i tried avoiding him but nothing changed.

Is the problem from me? What have I indulge myself into? I thought about it but I couldn't find any answer. That night, I tried telling him but it was to late as I have started watching ponography videos to satisfy myself since i know I cannot get any from him.

" I am weak, help me. I can't even pray" I wanted to scream out whenever he called but there wasn't even confidence to answer his calls. One day, I decided to let him go as I broke up with the guy that I love passionately and he also does. He begged me several times to tell him where he went wrong but I could not answer him because I know the fault wasn't from him. I cried and I would also go back to my sinful act. I will watch and download ponography videos even though I feel guilty, I  would want to stop but I couldn't.

Until this day, something strange happened. I was watching one of the movies when I heard a voice telling me to Stop. Stop it! And my phone fell on the ground...

Hmmmm
Stop it,
It's time to leave those sinful acts.
Stop it,
It's time to flee from those unduly sexual pleasures
Stop it,
It's time to leave those erotic novels that lead you to hardcore.
Stop it,
It's time to put an end in watching that ponography
Stop it,
Its time to stop being that boy sex doll
Stop it,
Its time to end those night chat and videos with that guy that stimulate your sexual urge
Stop it, 
Its time to end oral sex and sex chat
Stop it,
Its time to delete and leave those website that supplies you ponography videos
Stop it,
It's time to end masturbation
Stop it,
Now is the time to make the decision to end it all.

This is my heart cry to everyone struggling sexually. Its time to make a decision to help yours. All of these cannot make you satisfied, It will only make it an habit in your life. Your decision to stop it, can go far in helping you.

Stop it, don't say you can't. You can, if your mind is determined to let go. Your healing start from you, your mind and then with prayers but if you are praying without determination in your mind, it won't work out. Flee first and then, pray to God with total submission in your heart.

End everything with anything that arouse your sexually, be determined to let go and pray. It is also essential to speak out, don't hide it. Find someone who is matured that you can trust and tell him/her. Its also helps in the process of breakthrough.
2Corinthians 4:4

God bless you as you do so
I love you all!

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria.*
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MARIAM MOTUNRAYO AJANLEKOKO said…
Sister temi with love from mariam ajanlekoko
11 April 2020 at 13:00
Light lamp said…
Mariam...
You're loved!
21 March 2021 at 12:58
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