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"I'm tired of listening to the sound of my tears, Tired of constantly battling my fears, Tired of pretense, Tired of struggling with challenges that continuously reappear. Tired of those cheap lies I am not proud of I'm tired of wasting my days in soberness, Tired of hurtful words, Tired of living a life that is not specific Tired of waiting for answers from those long request I'm tired of pretending while deep inside I care, Tired of being stuck in toxic relationships, Tired of hypocrisy and lies in a world full of fakes. I am tired! I'm tired of trying to believe, Tired of putting up a show, Tired of thinking all will be well, yet there is no sign Just tired of feeling this way, Am I alone in this situation? Omolade spoke out as she was tired of everything.. Dear Omolade's, I know there are times, we are natural tired even without doing anything because of the pressure of life, responsibilities, unachievable goals, instability, etc. It's okay to feel tire...

Sometimes you just have to push yourself just to get out of bed. You stay up 'til 2am just wishing and think of so many times about life. You ask yourself, different questions about life and you get tired of all the thoughts in your  head. Sometimes you can't find the right words and after thinking of everything, you might not still find the effort to smile or get out of your bed. The world just sometimes feels like you don't fit and don't belong anymore because you don't understand anymore. Even when you make the effort, a smile just doesn't last long. Sometimes, you lose sight of who you want to be. You blame yourself, screaming, "Why am I me?" You wish you could just be free. You could pretend with all my might that you are the happiest you can be yet thousand of words are running through your mind. Surrounded by the world desire yet killing yourself within. That life is what you make and sometimes it's hard. You get battered and bruised, mistre...

Banke jammed the door ignoring her friend who was in the room as she sat on the bed. Ronke was surprised as she watched her reactions. "Enough is enough. I don't think I can do it anymore" Banke screamed and cried At that moment, Ronke has to say something and she asked "What's going on? Talk to me" Banke ignored her and she said as if she was talking to someone else "I am done. I can't take it anymore. All you did was wear me out and cause me to know pains.  You came to me with pleasure but now look at the things you cost me and the things you destroyed. You ruined it all with one little tease.Now, look at the way you make me feel. I can't satisfy you anymore. Why can't you just go and hide somewhere far away where I'll never find? Or reach out to you. Everyone at home doesn't understand how much you rip me apart then draw me back again. Then I sit and wonder why? Why do you really want me to die? Some people came, hoping they will ...

My Lord, I bring my burdens to You, knowing You will take care of me. You will not permit me to slip and fall. I trust You to save me out of this hopeless predicament. O God, have mercy on me, for I feel like I’m being bounded all day long but I will put my trust in You. I praise You for Your promises of deliverance. I trust in You, so why should I be afraid? God, my Helper, I confess my inadequacy in the face of my circumstances. Come with great power and rescue me! Listen to my prayer, O God, pay attention to my plea.  With Your help, I will not only survive this but thrive through this! I will praise Your Name, O Lord, for You fulfill Your promises. Amen! Thank You for carrying my burdens. Amen.  *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

In life, there are people that will hurt us and cause us pain but, we must learn to forgive and forget and not hold grudges. In this life, there are mistakes we will make, but we must learn from our wrongs and grow from them. We must not stop growing and learning. In life, there are regrets we will have to live  and deal with but, we must learn to leave the past behind and realize it is something we can't change. In life there are people we will lose forever and can't have back but, we must learn to let go and move on. Losing them done mean you fought or hate each other. You just haven't been in touch with each other for a while. In life there are going to be obstacles that will cause interference, but we must learn to overcome these challenges and grow stronger. We don't stop or give up because of obstacles. There are fears that will hold us back from what we want but we must learn to fight them with the courage from within so as to do that which you have been called f...

"Bolanle...don't you have anything else to do than to sit down and start saying God when or following trends? Imisioluwa asked "Imisi....what exactly is wrong with you? Just say you were waiting for the opportunity to abuse me because, I don't understand why you are talking like this? Bolanle said confusedly "Well, Bola, I don't mean to sound harsh but whatever I am doing, it for you own good. I mean how can you be sitting all day without doing something. Even if you don't have a job" imisioluwa said "Can you imagine? You just said it with your mouth that I don't have a job so what else do you want me to do" Bolanle said "You don't have a job but having a job isn't the only means of doing something. What about the souls outside? What are you doing with your time in impacting the lives of people? I see you all day, staring at those Men and Women of God but staring isn't enough. Desiring the glory, anointing, power, etc i...

"What is life, when everything seems rough and hard... What is life, when everyone betays and kill his/her fellow being just because of money, Fame and position What is life, when the struggles and storms, seems not to end...." Feyisara said as she was lamenting Hmmm...have you ever sat down and asked yourself what life is to you? Many has different opinions to what life is and it's never anybody fault but just the way they see life. Life has several lessons to teach but how do you plan to deal with them and how determined are you to deal with what comes your way. It's high time to stop shifting the blames to someone else and brace up. Do not think someone is responsible for the way you are because they are not the anchor of your life. The point at which you are now, is because of the decisions you have made or you will make.  Don't be angry when that person can't help you Don't be a angry when people keep promising and failing Don't be angry when you ...

Arise, Woman Of God Arise, to the appetite of God and drop those fleshy appetite Arise, things are happening and the people to minister to them. Rise up, O woman of God In what He has given you, The things God has laid on your heart, Rise up, go forth, and do it. Don't wait till tomorrow, start something. Unlock what God has placed within you, The potential you have inside The world is waiting for your release To expand your wings and fly The generation placed on your shoulder is looking unto you. Don't let them down. Arise in your God-given gifts Arise in the God's might, Ignited, energized and empowered to carry out those assignments. For God is calling you to come forth To impact this world for Him, Don't hold back or limit yourself Let His power arise within Let's him lead you through the journey And take His message to the world For those that have lost  their way, you can surely make a difference If you'd hear and listen His voice and obey Believe who you ...

Welcome To Thoria's Diary Page 62 *TOMIKE'S STORY* "I thought it wasn't real, but pain really hurts and it's really how I feel. Memories keep flashing back, and so do all of the tears. I still hear the voice, and as quick as the smile came, it quickly disappears. I don't know what is happening... He said he would never let go. So many promises  he made, and more of them broken. I am lost and confused, feels like I'm choking. I hide a lot of things and now, I can't find my way. Every time, I always seem to come back to him and back to pain but nothing has changed, he is still the same. I cannot start over because I don't know were to start. I guess that is what happens when someone breaks your heart. If we are supposed to follow our dreams, why can't I follow him? Because now I am so lost, I wish he was lost without me too but it's not the same story" Tomike said to Tiwa in pains Dear Tomike, I know it's not easy experiencing heartbr...

"Growing up, I always struggled so much with things going on in my mind. My parents were not okay, I kept getting my heart broken, and started harming myself. Things wicked people had said to me, always find their ways back into my thoughts and it made me hate myself. I was so lost but when I turned 18, I met someone who made me see things differently and I was finally let go the war between my head and mind" Oyinade said as tears flow down from the ladies she was sharing her story with. Then she went forward and said... "Let your mind be at ease, if those toxic thoughts still ponder in your mind, then let out by speaking out Speak out until the pain is gone. Until you no longer feel afraid. Then, open your eyes to a new dawn and let the darkness fade. Don't ever compare yourself or your flaws to others' perfections. Take the negativity off your thoughts and focus on your direction. Close the door on self-hatred and never let it back in. For those lies coming thr...

Welcome To Thoria's Diary Page 61  *LUCY'S STORY*  "I've always viewed life from the side lines. Just watching it passing me by. In the past, I was too afraid to just let go and live and lately too tired to try to end the memory of the past. I've envied the people around me and so invested in living each day, while I spent my time hiding out from the world and searching for ways to escape. For most of my life I truly believed I was here to help somebody else but now, it's so clear it was just an excuse to avoid living life for myself. It's sad that the pain i endure had weaken my strength to move on but, if i get lost in the scars of my past, without knowing, my lives will be gone. It's true, people are disappointing. They can turn in the blink of an eye but, we can't avoid hurting each other. There's something I've learned through the journey of life and that is, no matter what path we each take, in the end, we just want to survive. So the ...

To my beautiful and lovely dear sisters, bible has instructed us in Proverbs 12:2 which says "Anxiety in a man's heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad". I want you to be positive in whatever you do sister and always remember, To relax, not get angry over small things and to stay calm. This is a daily reminder To be yourself, not care what people think and know you can be anything. This is a daily reminder To love yourself, not hurt yourself and not work yourself up when you can trust God about it. This is a daily reminder That you are beautiful. You are amazing and you will succeed. This is a daily reminder To always have hope, faith, and know everything will be okay. This is a daily reminder That you have made it so far already and you haven't given up, That whatever you're doing is right in as much as it's God will and you are going to be amazing So, don't give up. Keep holding on and believing. I love you! Yes, you! *Alokan Temilade Vict...

It's alright to cry.... You get negative vibes from people around you, You feel the weight of anxiety is much over you,  You feel the wall are closing in on you and the roof is caving in. Just be calm and know it's okay to cry. You have been bottling up those emotions, You have been strong enough and nobody seems to notice you need consolation, You have been neglected by those you called friends and it all seems you are all alone and know one cares. It's alright to cry.... When that situation looks tight and it seems you have lost your voice, It's alright to cry.... When you don't get results, even after putting in so much strength into it, It's alright to cry... When your back is against the wall and it looks like it's all over, It's alright to cry... Dear sisters, Crying is not only a sign of weakness. It also helps you release emotions you have been covering up. There are times you don't have the right words to say and all you can do is to release...