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MY STRUGGLE


BATTLE 29
*BEFORE*

I tell myself that everything's going to be ok,
that there is no reason for all this pain.
The time it took to change, the time it took to
see all those mistakes.
The life I had, I can't have back. 

The choices I made,
affected me,
The mistakes I made have not been forgotten.
The tears I shed, the sounds I made, the feelings 
that left me feeling in a different way.
Yet I can't see why these tears feel so unreal.
I'm not the same,...

It hurts to know that I'll never be who I used to be. The one that would always laugh,
the one that you knew would always be strong.
The feeling is real, the truth is sealed.
I cry in the dark,
The scars are real, but the wounds in the heart
are another mark.
If you only knew what I've been through,
or maybe you could take a walk in my shoes.

I'm not faking it,
I just don't think I'm the same in any way.
So where did my soul go?
What happened to me?
The one that could make you laugh,
the one that would always take you out?
I'm no longer me, the mistakes, 
If only I would know. 

Living in a world, where mistakes are bound to happen but,
Sometimes, there are some mistakes that can  change someone's life.

So, ladies,
In as much as we want to live our life to the fullest,
Let's be conscious of what we do.
So that, we won't end up living with regret and in pain.
Let's walk in the right path and whatever we do,
Let's be conscious of ourselves and don't live in the past.
If you have made any mistake,
Learn from it but don't let it weigh you down and
Hope for the best always
Trust God, to always help you.

I love you 

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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