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MY STRUGGLE

BATTLE 30
*A CRY FROM THE SOUL*

Trapped with nowhere to turn, 
Everything is changing, Life is changing beyond my control, 
causing this deep ache in the bottom of my soul.

Someone else is pulling the strings,
I want to dig myself out, 
filled with despair, filled with doubt and uncertainty.
I have been mute not able to express, 
this gnawing pain and feeling of relentless distress.

Tears that are not visible to the naked eye, 
Silent screams that no one can hear.
I try to speak but nothing can express, 
this feeling of sadness and worthlessness.
Emotional pain, 
Walks with me through the day, 
and sleeps with me through the night, 
leaving me depression with no strength to fight.

Anger for not having the courage to turn things around, 
keeping me anchored to this remorse, 
Not able to untie the chains and change my course.
Tempting words,
Always there to whisper in my ear.

Time wasted,
Lots of hurt, 
Lots to repent.
Solace, please come and calm my soul, 
for this is what I need to make me whole.
Empathy, not what I need What I need is for someone to see, 
Someone to see the real me.
Love with no strings, 
Just giving generously amongst other things.

Dear sisters,
Words, when not used properly is enough weapon and can cut like a knife, 
Capable of doing so much damage and take the joy out of life, 
but softly spoken and softly expressed 
can bring so much happiness. 

Always learn to speak good words to everyone you come across.
You don't know what they have been through or what they are going through.

I'm happy to announce the long awaiting will be out by June. I'm sorry it's taking time but God's time is the best. Thank you for always reading and following light Lamp writings and novels

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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