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 Welcome to Thoria's Diary PART 40    *VICTORIA* Strange but TRUE!!! We are fashioned in a world where we think no one will rise except we connect with people (Connection).  So we live in the mentality of I need to clinch, I connect with this person so that I can rise. Especially in the field you are being called into. It seems you have forgotten that only God can put it in the mind of people to help. No matter how good, consistent or diligent you are. If you don't learn how to connect with God in fellowship. How then can He put it in the mind of men to help you. Many channeled all their strength in seeking after men to help them. Instead of seeking God. If God can see how passionate you are in truth. There is no how God won't be moved to put it in the heart of men to help you. Stop the unnecessary stress of searching for men. What are you doing to help yourself grow? Place value on yourself. What will the men you are in search for "See In You" that will make them...

 Welcome to Thoria's Diary Page 39  *REMILEKUN'S STORY* "I will not give up on Him I will stay close I will not leave Him I believe in Him I know I am not alone I know I will not shrink in the journey I know I will not be struck in the journey of His leading I refuse to be small minded I rest on Him I rest in His strength Even though my friends mock me Even though my friends despite me His words is ever true He is a faithful God I believe He will never leave me I believe in Him I trust in Him And I will continue to trust Him, with or without His blessing I choose His way So, i refuse to settle less I refuse to be carried away I refuse to be small minded I refuse!! I know I am not alone I know He has gone before me I know He is with me Jesus, the Son of God I believe in You I believe in You" I prayed as tear were flowing down my eyes. Life hasn't been easy, it feels like the weight is on my shoulder. My friends are not even helpful, they make matter seems so big. I...

I remembered some moments in my life. I felt like I can't progress. I felt I was a failure and nothing good could come out of me.  I felt whatever I laid my hands on, can't spring out good seeds I felt I might not succeed It was a battle in my mind and I was struggling with it. I was also having mixed feelings because I wanted two things and i was chained by the words in my mind. I shared my thoughts and i got some advice's. Trust me, they were life impacting but they never solved my problem. Not because they couldn't but because my mind was chained to understand the words. The words fought against every words of my mind It fought every thought in my mind and I was confused. I couldn't fathom the truth in the words instead I was against it. I thought I could do it alone and the battle continued. Then I came across the truth and I got to realise, the mind is a powerful tool. I got to realise I was chained by the thoughts of my mind and I needed to break through. I wa...

I want you to think deeply within you as you read through. What do i want? What am I desperate for? What do I truly want? Confusion has taken the life of some believers. They don't know what they want.  A little challenge has taken off their mind about who they are and their reality in Christ Jesus.  *What exactly do you want?*  Today, you can't pray for more of God and tomorrow you will pray for things in the world.  *What exactly do you want?*  A lot of believer motives has been corrupted because they don't know what they want.  You can't desire to burn for God today and tomorrow be found in another way or sinful way. Most of the believers are the problem of themselves because they don't know what they want.  A lot of believers should have grown beyond who they are but they don't know what they want. Lots of motives has been corrupted because they don't know what they want.  *What exactly do you want?*  What you want, is what you will chase...

There are some situations that will come into the life of a man(woman) and it will cause you to ask the question... Can it ever be over? It seems like as one is leaving, another one is coming. Then the weight seems unbearable and you knock out. At that moment, you won't even remember you are a Christian and all you seek for is solution. In the search of solution, you begin to move away from the truth. Knowing fully well that the way isn't the right way but you just want to break out. Then, it looks like the more you are breaking out, the more nothing seems to change because more challenges keeps coming. Sometimes, you feel like God has forgotten you because you have confessed that you need His help yet, your heart want "Do it fast solution". Mostly, the problem is in our confession and mind. I remembered some times in my life. I found it difficult to trust God, even when people shout and say trust in God. I pray, worship and study but deeply within me I knew I was str...

I stayed in a particular spot for an hour looking for a bus to carry me to my destination. Trust me it was tiring and frustrating to stand for an hour. In fact, I was about to go back home because all the bus I waved at was not going to my destination. Then a thought came to my mind... " * Why don't you move forward * " Immediately, I carried my bag and moved forward. At that point, it wasn't making sense to me because the spot I stood before, is the place where any bus can easily locate any person but I just followed the words that came to my mind. Not up to 5 minutes, at that place i moved to. An empty fine cab not even bus o.. Lolz, came I was so glad as I entered. It was stress less because I didn't even have to struggle to enter and it came with a better offer as I paid less money The cab stopped right in front of me and i asked where the cab was going and it was exactly where I was going. Then others entered. In fact, I was happy and my journey was awe...

 DAY 39 Burning for God  *Leviticus 6:13*  AMP:The fire shall be burning continually upon the altar; it shall not go out.  *Romans 12:11* AMP:Never lag in zeal and in earnest endeavor; be aglow and burning with the Spirit, serving the Lord.  *2Corinthians 4:16-18*  16 AMP:Therefore we do not become discouraged (utterly spiritless, exhausted, and wearied out through fear). Though our outer man is [progressively] decaying and wasting away, yet our inner self is being [progressively] renewed day after day. 17 AMP:For our light, momentary affliction (this slight distress of the passing hour) is ever more and more abundantly preparing and producing and achieving for us an everlasting weight of glory [beyond all measure, excessively surpassing all comparisons and all calculations, a vast and transcendent glory and blessedness never to cease!], 18 AMP:Since we consider and look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that ...

DAY 38 Be Consistent  *1Corinthians 15:58* - Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.  *Galatians 6:9 -* And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.  *Philippians 1:27*  Only let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ, so that whether I come and see you or am absent, I may hear of you that you are standing firm in one spirit, with one mind striving side by side for the faith of the gospel. God does not like people who are not consistent, those who cannot hold onto Him. Even if we face challenges that can make us waver, we should focus on Jesus alone who is the author and the finisher of our faith. When God promise us something, He never fail to fulfill His promises, and that’s consistency. He doesn’t go back from His word. Job was tested with heavy challenges and still he was consist...

 Welcome to Thoria's Diary Page 38  *KIKI'S STORY* "Life they say is not balanced".  As much as I want to disagree to the statement, The situations around me is conforming to it. I am in a confused state of my life. And, I don't know what to do, It seems I want to give up. My dreams, My visions, My goals, Everything is about to go down because of one decision. The decision and advice of my parents which is about to terminate everything about me. Everything I have envisioned, Everything I love to do, Everything I want to achieve, It's all about to crumble. Somebody help me, I need help... I don't even know how to tell people because it doesn't make sense to me. I have tried to persuade my parents but it seems they have given up and made their final decision. I know they have tried their best but I am at the point where, I want to achieve more in my academics and all I need from them is their support. Instead, they feel the best way to achieve that is to...

 Welcome to Thoria's Diary Page 37  *YEMISOLA'S STORY* Why is everything always in favour to her? Why is she loved by everyone? Everyone who set their eyes on her are always eager to be of help to her. Why is that not happening to me? We are so close yet, she get more attention from people. I feel so jealous and I want what she is getting. I have tired all my best to be a better person than her but nothing seems to work. I can't even explain what is going on with me. I feel so bad about my reactions. Yet I can't stop being jealous of her. I need help because, I am beginning to fake things around her. I am tired yet, I can't stop being resentful towards her. Telling me of how she is being helped and loved by people, makes me more jealous and angry. For once, I wish I could be like her, even when I know I am also loved and helped by people but it feels like I wasn't satisfied and happy for her.  We are both Christian and she doesn't boast or deny being helped....

 DAY 37 Build Up  *Romans 15:5-7* 5 AMP:Now may the God Who gives the power of patient endurance (steadfastness) and Who supplies encouragement, grant you to live in such mutual harmony and such full sympathy with one another, in accord with Christ Jesus, 6 AMP:That together you may [unanimously] with united hearts and one voice, praise and glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah). 7 AMP:Welcome and receive [to your hearts] one another, then, even as Christ has welcomed and received you, for the glory of God.  *Prayers* *Grant unto me a united heart, to work together with my brethren in faith to build up the kingdom of God. *Help us to welcome and receive each other, as Christ as received us and not to work together in hatred, envy, etc AMEN!  *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

 DAY 36 Don't Limit God  *Isaiah 40:28-31* 28 AMP:Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, does not faint or grow weary; there is no searching of His understanding. 29 AMP:He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound]. 30 AMP:Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted; 31 AMP:But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired. Hallelujah Don't limit God in your life. Hold on to Him and embrace Him.  *Prayer*  Help me Jesus, not faint or grow weary. Amen!!!  *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

 Welcome to Thoria's Diary Page 36  *SARAH'S STORY* Only those who knows the way, knows the way. Nobody was there when I was pushing hard and things seems unbreakable. Now, I am out of the shell and people are asking me silly questions. Why can't people just ignore me and behave like they didn't see me. Especially this Christian sisters. Where were they when I look tattered and sick. Now, the so called Sister coordinator saw me with Banji in his car and she won't let me rest with several advice's and call. Telling me to put my faith in Jesus. I have done that for years but where has it gotten me to. In fact, heaven help those who help themselves. Why can't people just be happy for someone, when things are changing. After knowing the years I was suffering and now, someone has decided to help me but that's when the society decided to make me feel like a sinner. Banji has been helping me and I am glad to have him in my life. Yes, he might not be a believer ...

 Welcome to Thoria's Diary Page 35  *ARIKE'S STORY*  I feel sad whenever I tell my closest friend about how I feel but their reactions aren't encouraging. Sometimes, she makes me feel I am not normal. She believes, I think too much and that's how I get myself into what doesn't concern me. How i wish i can explain better but she can't still understands how I feel. How can I explain to her that the burden i feel about the people is so much and my eyes are being opened to see more. Sometimes, I tried to carry my mind off it but yet the burden hit deep and I always want to reach out to the people. My friend tried to shift my focus and I played along but I keep seeing things that needs to be attended to. I don't even know how to start, I don't know if I am the only seeing things, I don't know if I have the capacity to do it, I don't know why I keep seeing everything, I don't think I fit into the ministry... I just want to be behind the scene and b...

"How can one smile such sweet smiles, When one is so saddened by sorrows for years, How can I smile the same smiles, When life brings me nothing but tears, How can I smile when the weight of the world is on me When everything is crashing down, I wondered for so long, What reason i had to smile, To keep smiling even in the midst of pressure, And still keep the sweet smile  I obviously wear, I want to break down I want to let it out I want to stop acting like I'm fine Because I'm NOT Behind my smile is pain In my eyes is hurt and I hide it the best I can Behind this daily mask because the world choose to see you smile I am a burden I was made only to help Not to stand in the way It doesn't matter how I feel Who should care about me? Why would someone? I am the one who helps everyone And deny myself the right The problem with being selfless... You feel like you shouldn't be helped So you sit in your pain Behind you smile That fake smile Everyone seems so gullible It s...

 DAY 35 Rejoice  *Isaiah 54:1-10*  1 AMP:Sing, O barren one, you who did not bear; break forth into singing and cry aloud, you who did not travail with child! For the [spiritual] children of the desolate one will be more than the children of the married wife, says the Lord. 2 AMP:Enlarge the place of your tent, and let the curtains of your habitations be stretched out; spare not; lengthen your cords and strengthen your stakes, 3 AMP:For you will spread abroad to the right hand and to the left; and your offspring will possess the nations and make the desolate cities to be inhabited. 4 AMP:Fear not, for you shall not be ashamed; neither be confounded and depressed, for you shall not be put to shame. For you shall forget the shame of your youth, and you shall not [seriously] remember the reproach of your widowhood any more. 5 AMP:For your Maker is your Husband—the Lord of hosts is His name—and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; the God of the whole earth He is called. ...

 DAY 34  *Psalm 84*  1 AMP:How lovely are Your tabernacles, O Lord of hosts! 2 AMP:My soul yearns, yes, even pines and is homesick for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out and sing for joy to the living God. 3 AMP:Yes, the sparrow has found a house, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young—even Your altars, O Lord of hosts, my King and my God. 4 AMP:Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) are those who dwell in Your house and Your presence; they will be singing Your praises all the day long. Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]! 5 AMP:Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man whose strength is in You, in whose heart are the highways to Zion. 6 AMP:Passing through the Valley of Weeping (Baca), they make it a place of springs; the early rain also fills [the pools] with blessings. 7 AMP:They go from strength to strength [increasing in victorious power]; each of them appears before God in Zion. 8 AMP:O Lord God of hosts, h...

 Welcome to Thoria's Diary Page 34  *TEJUMOLA'S STORY* I always have the consciousness that I must try all my possible best to make it. So that I can live the luxurious life I have pictured. It has always been about making it in life and money,  ever since I started walking with Sogo and Ogooluwa. I got so interested in their expensive life and I always want to meet up. I didn't know I have destroyed my life until I realized nothing pleases me than the expensive lifestyle. I joined the clique and we began to cruise the world even though we all know how we get our money. I starved myself a lot just to fit in. I couldn't leave because I was enjoying the lifestyle and the standard of people I was meeting. So, I became interested to do more and reach up the standard.  I began by lying to get money from my parents. I started double dating and graduated to using my body to get what I want. Everything went well, I was getting the money but I couldn't still meet up Sogo...

 Welcome to Thoria's Diary Page 33  *PEMISIRE'S STORY*  I lived a life totally different from the life of every other beings.  For a while, I got so adapted to it and I continue to endure all the oppression, thoughts and pain. I thought everything was going to end soon but it didn't happen. I was just dreaming. I couldn't confide in anyone because it was a shameful experience and I didn't want anyone to think I was possessed by some spirit. I was a joyful person at day but another being at night as I couldn't understand what was going on with me. It was a sudden experience and I heard the testimonies of those who went through what I experienced. I tapped into it and I prayed to God daily to help me and draw me out of the pit of the devil. I didn't know how it happened but I found myself in a spiritual battle every night where my strength failed and the oppression become so intense and mostly, I woke up  feeling weak with wet pants.  I couldn't tell anyon...

 *DISTRACTION* Jemima,  The bright and talented lady. A Lady full of vibes and zeal for God. All the days of her life, she always wish to be a Voice but something's just seems too difficult for her to achieve. She spends most of her time listening and studying the voice of others. That got so deep into her that she begin to use the voice of others. Yet, she was surrounded with the noise of praises and appraisal from people around her but deeply within her. She knew that's not who she is but she loves the attention she was getting. She got carried away by the noise. Her motives and intentions got disrupted. Now, she is living the voice of others and not hers. Distraction.... Most of the sisters are in this angle. You are living the voice of someone else and the ministry of someone else. Yes, I know you desire to reach out to people. It's zeal and passion you can't deny. I know how you love relationship ministry, business ministry, etc and you also want to start yours but...

 DAY 33 Looking Unto Him  *Isaiah 45:22* AMP:Look to Me and be saved, all the ends of the earth! For I am God, and there is no other. I will lift up mine eyes to the hills From whence cometh my help My help cometh from the Lord, The Lord which made heaven and earth He said, He would not suffer thy foot, Thy foot to be moved The Lord that keepeth thee, He will not slumber nor sleep Oh the Lord is thy keeper the Lord is thy shade Upon thy right hand, upon thy right hand No the sun shall not smite thee by day, Nor the moon by night He shall preserve thy soul, even forevermore My help, my help, my help, All of my help cometh from the Lord Gonna keep my eyes on You Lord I won't look to the left, I won't look to right I'll stay focused on You Jesus All of my help cometh from the Lord ...Help me Lord to stay focused...  *Alokan Temilade Victoria*