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BATTLE 9 *PUSH IT* Sometimes I see things that aren't meant to be seen. Sometimes things aren't always as they seem. Sometimes people just can't understand Why things get out of hand. Sometimes life just isn't fair, Especially when people just don't care. And sometimes it's hard to say Why things have to be this way Sometimes I just need to get away. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. I'm confused and at the bridge, Where I think I can't go on I have lack confidence in myself I don't even believe I can do it anymore Dear sisters, Yes, I know so many things have changed but, Be strong and brave. Calm your fears. Keep that chin up. Dry your tears. Just keep on pushing  Don't dare look back. Look straight ahead. Yes, love hurt And broke your heart. Keep your head and heart apart. Don't cry over what you have had. At least you had it. Don't be sad. Though it will be tough but, Time will heal. You gave your best. You...

*MY STRENGTH* Sometimes, all you just need, Is to put aside the dangling bomb  And totally depend on God's Mercy and Strength Yes, You have been trying by, Yourself but for how long Will you keep trying  Lord, at times i come to you because, My faith is not as strong. But in your loving arms i fall; you show me that I belong. You carry me when i think I can't go any longer. The love you have can only grow stronger and stronger. With you living in my daily lives,  You are the living God i praise. Thank you for the goodness and showing me along my way. At times I want to lay it all down to you, and at your feet i fall. You show me there is a way and help me to give it all. You give me the faith to be stronger, even though I may not know. The things that are not of you, you help me to let go. You are my strength, my deliverer, the rock that makes me unbroken. You lead me to be righteous with things I feel are all unspoken. I pray for understanding, because sometimes,  I...

BATTLE 8 *EMPTY* YES, I have tried my best, To feel normal and To do something unusual but, I still feel empty  Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn't care?  You could've sworn you were crying,  But, when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there?  Going through life and Just letting the world pass you by.  Just wishing you could die.  I feel like this daily most time.  So lost I don't know what to feel.  When in fact I do feel pain, I can't believe that it's real.  So as I lay my head down every night,  I close my eyes and pray.  I pray that God will give me guidance and to maybe feel better someday.  I know how it feels, To put your best into something and all you could feel, Is EMPTINESS. Sometimes, you think you are not enough and your best, Isn't good. Especially when you check the lives of others, Comparison starts to set in and just like that, You feel incapable again and again....

BATTLE 7 *BEYOND ME* I'm breaking; I can't be fixed. I'm missing, But I won't be missed. I guess you're right; I'm way too thin, And I'm fighting a battle That I'll never win. I have so many flaws; I don't know where to start From my messed up being To my messed up heart. So what's the point To continue to fight? When my restless days Turn into restless nights. This life hasn't been fair. I can finally tell That nobody cares, And it hurts a lot I still don't understand Why God put me on earth With all of my flaws? Was I born just to die? Am I part of a plan? Made to finally see That I won't die young I don't know how to live. I have nothing to gain, And all I want, Is to end all my pain. I'm losing sight  Of what I've already seen. I'm losing my grip, And I'm barely seventeen. I don't think I can be fixed again The foundation has been broken, Beyond repair  Hmmm, There are some situations we will pass through i...

BATTLE 6 *BULLIED* Hiding in a corner, All alone.. I look like a lost foreigner.  I don't belong in the crowd.  I am the odd one out. I have many names.  I don't have friends.  I hide my tears behind my smile.  I hide my fears behind my laugh.  I pray and cry to bed each night  Thinking by the day, i'll be alright.  I keep telling myself i will make it,  Through all the taunts and mocking laughs as I walk past.  Do you know I'm tired of needing to be strong,  Even when I've past my breaking point?  Day by day i live like this,  And now I'm numb from the pain.  The words they said to me, pierce my skin each day, The punch they threw bruise my face  You think I'm a loser? No, I am no longer weak.  You can say what you want;  I won't flinch one bit.  But, I guess I am still a loner.  To every Ladies passing through this, I sincerely understand how you feel... I remembered through my primary schoo...

BATTLE 5 *BEFORE* I tell myself that everything's going to be ok, that there is no reason for all this pain. The time it took to change, the time it took to see all those mistakes. The life I had, I can't have back.  The choices I made, affected me, The mistakes I made have not been forgotten. The tears I shed, the sounds I made, the feelings  that left me feeling in a different way. Yet I can't see why these tears feel so unreal. I'm not the same,... It hurts to know that I'll never be who I used to be. The one that would always laugh, the one that you knew would always be strong. The feeling is real, the truth is sealed. I cry in the dark, The scars are real, but the wounds in the heart are another mark. If you only knew what I've been through, or maybe you could take a walk in my shoes. I'm not faking it, I just don't think I'm the same in any way. So where did my soul go? What happened to me? The one that could make you laugh, the one that would ...

BATTLE 4 *DON'T FORCE IT* I need help, I'll post all my pictures of me having fun, Wearing my happiest smile  Add a few comments to enhance the effect, And impress all my great Facebook friends, Making them think that my life is fulfilling. I live like, I'm truly the best I can be. Fill up my page with all kinds of lies, So they all will be jealous of me. Or perhaps make a post that  Appear quite informed and so smart. Creating a page that can trigger debate, etc. Sometimes, I could post a poem of mine, And show them how deep I can be. They will be in such awe of the talent I have They'll wish they could all be like me. Yet, all I could think about, Is how many likes I will get, And maybe a comment or two. But what if they simply ignore me, I just don't know what I will do. I have lived my life, Comparing my page to all of my friend. It has caused me a lot of sleepless night, worry and pain. They have far more likes and a long list of friends, It makes me feel insec...

MY BATTLE 4 *BREAK UP* I thought it was a dream; I thought it wasn't real, But pain really hurts and it's really how I feel. Memories keep coming back, and so do all of the tears. I hear your voice, and as quick as the smile came, it quickly disappears. I don't know what is happening, because you always held my hand. I have gotten too attached to you that I can hardly do things myself  You said you would never let go; that is what I don't understand yet, you did. So many promises you made, and more of them broken. I'm lost and confused, it feels like I'm choking. A lot of things I did not say; Now I can't find my way because I am still trying to process it. I feel like a thrash but not only that. Every time you throw me, I always seem to come back. Yes, Back to you, back to pain. Nothing has changed, you're still the same. I cannot start over because I don't know where to start. I guess that is what happens when someone breaks your heart. Because now...

MY BATTLE *I AM STRESSED* I'm tired I'm depressed  Stress is eating at me every minute and second of the day. How do I cope with the horrible effects and make it go away? It's affecting me mentally and Draining my energy  I feel so tired and I don't sleep. I lie in bed at night and wonder why it runs so deep. Everyone asks why do you look so sad.  Do I tell them that my stress is eating me up and that I feel really bad? Sometimes, I wonder, Does everyone notice how I behavior  and that I have deep black bags under my eyes nowadays? I wake up every morning feeling so hopeless,  like nothing ever goes right and wondering why my life has to be such a mess. Stress is my one worst enemy. It's taken over my mind and my whole life in every single degree.  I'm fed up  I don't have the vibe, To do most of the things, I want to do because, I'm always tired and,  It's affecting me all round.."Labake confessed  Dear Labake, I want you to know a lot of th...

BATTLE 2 *UNSURE* What do you think? I'm so lost in this world, I was once driven but now, I have lost the zeal I have been in competition with people, Who don't even know I exist I'm trying my best to meet ends but, Nothing seems to work for me I have been struggling To get back to how I used to be I feel lifeless Sometimes, I don't know what to do next, I have no idea where to go. Do I follow my heart desire? Do I stay, or should i go?  I don't know where i belong. Do i work through the struggle, or should I move along? I don't know, if i will ever change. Dear Sisters, Failed attempts are mostly why, You don't know what to do next. We are trying our best to do better yet,  Most people know the solution but, They fail to make attempts  So many are lost in life, just trying to get by, wishing, hoping, wondering, waiting  for the time that they can fly but, If you don't know the time, You will keep struggling because, Sometimes, the time has passed... Ch...

*BATTLE 1* How do you do it? Tell me, how do you cope? Yes, I know I am committed but, Part of me is still struggling... For God sake, I'm a Minister, An active member of the church but, How many people do I tell? How many will believe me? How many will see my the way I am and not, My struggle  I want to do more but, I am limited I feel like I am in a cage Who can I talk too? I am even ashamed to talk .. Nobody knows, Nobody knows I am a sex addict. Yes, I taught I will be fine and maybe it's just my gene It took me long to understand how addicted I am I don't know what to do, I don't feel the same... I have lost count of committed relationships  Just because, I couldn't hold myself  I have forced myself into the hands of guys that doesn't worth it I have lured guys to do things they don't want to do. I am becoming a monster to my addiction. Somebody, help me... I want to be whole again, I want to stop... Hmmm To every sex addict, I want you know the first w...