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MY STRUGGLE


*BATTLE 1*

How do you do it?
Tell me, how do you cope?
Yes, I know I am committed but,
Part of me is still struggling...

For God sake,
I'm a Minister,
An active member of the church but,
How many people do I tell?
How many will believe me?
How many will see my the way I am and not,
My struggle 

I want to do more but,
I am limited
I feel like I am in a cage
Who can I talk too?
I am even ashamed to talk ..
Nobody knows,
Nobody knows I am a sex addict.
Yes,
I taught I will be fine and maybe it's just my gene
It took me long to understand how addicted I am
I don't know what to do,
I don't feel the same...

I have lost count of committed relationships 
Just because, I couldn't hold myself 
I have forced myself into the hands of guys that doesn't worth it
I have lured guys to do things they don't want to do.
I am becoming a monster to my addiction.
Somebody, help me...
I want to be whole again,
I want to stop...

Hmmm
To every sex addict,
I want you know the first way to recovery is to speak out especially to a counsellor in the sexual aspect.

Yes, you can pray and fast but you still need someone who you can be committed to, to help you out of your addiction. You need help,
If you think you don't need help, then it's not an addiction.

In this year, you need to help yourself first before someone else can help you
You don't have to think you can do everything yourself.
You can only help yourself when you are willing to take a step to be helped.

Sex addiction,
Kills your dream, relationship (with people too) and lots more
So, take a step to break out.
Don't feel shy asking for help
You can get better with the right counsel and prayers too.

God bless you!

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
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