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MY STRUGGLE

BATTLE 8
*EMPTY*

YES,
I have tried my best,
To feel normal and
To do something unusual but,
I still feel empty 

Have you ever held in pain to the point where it seemed like you didn't care? 
You could've sworn you were crying, 
But, when you went to wipe tears away there was nothing there? 
Going through life and
Just letting the world pass you by. 
Just wishing you could die. 

I feel like this daily most time. 
So lost I don't know what to feel. 
When in fact I do feel pain, I can't believe that it's real. 
So as I lay my head down every night, 
I close my eyes and pray. 
I pray that God will give me guidance and to maybe feel better someday. 

I know how it feels,
To put your best into something and all you could feel,
Is EMPTINESS.

Sometimes, you think you are not enough and your best,
Isn't good.
Especially when you check the lives of others,
Comparison starts to set in and just like that,
You feel incapable again and again...

Dear sisters,
You need to learn how to appreciate every of your progress
Don't wait till others celebrate you.
Sometimes, that's where the problem starts from
Learn to realize,
You are the only version of yourself.
Don't give in negative thoughts about yourself.
Even when you make mistakes, 
Learn from it and move it.

Don't sit down and start thinking.
You are born to rule and you can do much better
Study the word,
Pray to God even when you don't feel like and
Don't neglect the gathering of the brethren.
You can be occupied and still feel empty but in everything you do,
Set your mindset right!

Even when things aren't going as planned,
Be calm and keep pressing
It doesn't make you less
Get busy with the right things and be positive 

God bless us!

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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