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Lord, at times I come to you, when my faith is not  strong. But in your loving arms i fall and you have shown me that i belong. You carry me when i think i can't go any longer. The love you have can only grow stronger and stronger. With you living in my daily life, you are the living God I praise. Thank you for the goodness At times I want to lay it all down to you, and at your feet i fall. You have shown me there is a way and you help me to give it all. You give me the faith to be stronger, even though i may not know. The things that are not of you, you help me to let go. You are my strength, my deliverer, the rock that makes me unbroken. You lead me to be righteous with things I feel are all unspoken. I pray for understanding, but sometimes I may stumble. I look up to you for answers that my world may never crumble. I know at that time you will be there to carry me through it all. You are there to pick me up, even as i may fall. Father, my ever living God, i ask you for your pard...

BATTLE 18 *MY FEELINGS* How am I supposed to trust You When You feel so far away? How can I grow closer to You When it is here I am forced to stay? GOD, You gave me so many promises, And none of them have come true. I am still knocking on the door And asking and seeking for You. I thought it was Your desire To fill me with living water, Yet I am still stuck And thirst for You, my Father. It has been a whole year, Lord, And I still cannot hear Your Word. I have this terrible growing fear That You will leave me here. God, my faith is so, so thin. My spirit is completely dry. I don't know how all this fits in, And I don't understand the reason why. I hate feeling separated from You And this frustration in my heart. I do not know what to do Or where to even start. Its like all do is in vain? Am I too confused to find You? The only thing I find is pain And confusion over what I should do. "Ask and you will receive," You said. "Seek and you will find." Lord, all I...

BATTLE 17 *TEACH ME, LORD* When I don't know how to pray, Teach me, Lord, When I don't know which way to go, Show me which way and where to go. Alone I stumble, Alone I fall, But your gentle voice Leads through it all. When I don't know the path to take, Take my hand, When everything seems to dark, Light my way, Night and day. I am weak And sometimes so low, But you give me strength And make me whole. Teach me, Lord and Father. When I feel too proud, Empty me of myself So I can live for you Carry me lord, I run to You with my hurts and fears, Carry me, Lord, in Your unfailing love. When no one really understands or cares, I run to You with my hurts and fears. And my anxiety disappears, Carry me, Lord, in your unfailing love.  I want to live for you alone and for your will Help me Jesus, Amen!! *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

BATTLE 16 *LET IT ALL CHANGE* No one will ever know how I feel, For I cannot even explain it all. Nobody to love, Nobody to blame, Everyone always the same. Nothing to care about, For I am me, myself, and I. No one sees what I see,  Nobody left to care for me. It's kind of sad knowing what's true,  Because then you know who's there for you. Most of them just put on that act.  A lot of them talk bad about me behind my back. Thanks for making me feel this way,  There's nothing more I should have to say. All the times I was alone Makes me feel weird when someone's home. No family for support, no friends to care.  People wonder why I don't go anywhere. Every night crying myself to sleep,  Sometimes I wish someone loved me. No hope, no love, no life, no friends.  The pain never ends. Sometimes I ask what did I do to deserve this.  But nobody answers. A voice in my head tells me to forget the bad and remember good. But then I answer to myself saying the...

BATTLE 15 *NO ESCAPE*  Falling from Dullness  To a place I don't know, Everything's moving with no place to go. I feel so alone and scared. As I fall, I wonder, "Is anyone there? Can things be okay like before?" As the days and nights pass right by, I count the nights; I just lay and cry. Falling from faith, falling from love, Please, is there anyone up above? I can't find my place again Never did I want to feel like this My mind is racing to find another solution Before it's too late and I'm just an illusion. No one knows how I really feel. This moment is tough I just want God to hold me and help me heal. As I fall, I begin to think that maybe I can find peace anymore. Neither will my pain be eased.  Dear sister, This moment is challenging  I know but let's keep ourselves and Mental health in check Don't indulge into things that will never make you regret your actions. Keep trusting God Speak out to people, Don't keep silent Pray to God Study ...

BATTLE 14 *WHEN I LOOK AT THE MIRROR* What do you see when you look into a mirror? I see a face of grace/the belief of grief? I sometimes, see a blessing of success or a complete defeat? Tomiwa looks into a mirror,  she sees fat,  so she pays the bills for her diet pills. She sees hideous, so she touches up her make-up  and compares what she wears.  She sees undeserving,  so she reclaims the blame  and hides her connection to any affection. Tomide looks into a mirror,  She sees unloved,  so she goes through books on how she should look.  She sees weak,  so she hides, sealing her feelings  and turns into someone stern.  She sees disappointment,  so she confides in their lies,  and her fears become her tears.  Dear Sisters  Standing at a reflection now,  What do you see? When you look into the mirror,  you allow the face you see to speak:  You're not good enough, you're not smart enough, you're ...

BATTLE 13 *HOLD ME* Someone reach out to me, Hold me I'm losing myself I'm hurt all the time.  I don't want to cry for the way I feel inside. I just want someone to hold me. I'm alone in the dark; please try to find me. If no one cares, I don't see a point to go on. Anyone find me! Anyone care! I'm sorry, I just don't want to be alone anymore. I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.  No one cares, and yet I'm always the sorry one. Someone find me! I'm scared.  Please hold me until it all ends. Just hold me; that's all I want. I don't want to be alone in the dark. Just hold me as I start to cry. Just hold me so I won't be alone inside. Just hold me so I don't do something wrong. Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light....  Dear sisters, In situations like this you cant depend on men to hold you. You might have been depressed You might have been heartbroken You might have been disappointed. All in all, you...

BATTLE 12 *An Unpredictable Life* I sit here now in darkness, living on my own, A life of existence, and rooms that sometimes resonated with laughter Saw also tears of much sadness, pain, suffering, and anger. For death entered the lives of those now dearly lost, Creating prison cells of emptiness, loneliness, and memories, Casting shadows within those silent and empty rooms. The tears I shed quietly, along path of darkness, Following footsteps of abandonment and utter sadness. For the pain of the past, Which sometimes drown within my doubting soul Burning with heat, painfully, and once more take control. No words could ever express I dare not see and are hidden from even me. Some days are just too hard and weary to travel And nights seemingly drown in darkness  Depicted within my mind, endless, and too barren, For I loved too much. Life has not been that good which I grew to believe Providing me with a future of smiles and love The sadness which I now find to be so close to me My ...

 BATTLE 11 *What Would You Do?* What do you do  when everything you say turns out wrong? Especially when you thought you had an idea What do you do  when your family decides to call you useless? When you have no place to run to? What do you do  when love is just another burden in your small heart? When things like this rule your everyday life,  and there is nothing you can do about it? What do you do?  Hmmm..Many are stuck They don't know what to do,  Even when they want to do something Some don't have choice for what they are doing now because, They just need to survive.  So they just need to do anything that comes their way. What do you do? Firstly, hold unto your creater. No matter the challenges. Yes, it's a tougher level but God is there to help you. Yes, you get tired. Draw yourself to Him and pray for Him to help you. You can't do it all by yourself. STOP, relying on your ability. It won't take you far Also make sure you keep your mental he...

BATTLE 10 *I'M TIRED* I'm tired. Tired of the state I am and the judgment. Tired of hiding, Who I really am. Tired of trying to stay strong. I'm tired. Tired of pretending, To be happy when all I want to do is cry. Tired of not being able to let go, let go of all the pain and emotions that has consumed me. Tired of feeling worthless. Tired of being put down, By the people I felt closest to. Tired of dreaming, of a life I will never have. Tired of not being good enough. Tired of remembering, remembering how I used to be so happy. Tired of the blame, I put on myself daily. Tired of the anger. I'm tired. Tired of crying, in the shower so nobody can hear. Tired of the fear, of being judged, hurt, and alone. Tired of failing. Tired of holding on when all I want to do is give up. Tired of being tired. Tired of being me. Tired of where I am Tired of the unrealistic expectations Tired of waiting My dear sisters, We are in the season where everything seems to be tiring but in e...