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MY STRUGGLE

BATTLE 10
*I'M TIRED*

I'm tired.
Tired of the state I am and the judgment.
Tired of hiding,
Who I really am.
Tired of trying to stay strong.

I'm tired.
Tired of pretending,
To be happy when all I want to do is cry.
Tired of not being able to let go,
let go of all the pain and emotions that has consumed me.
Tired of feeling worthless.

Tired of being put down,
By the people I felt closest to.
Tired of dreaming, of a life I will never have.
Tired of not being good enough.
Tired of remembering,
remembering how I used to be so happy.
Tired of the blame,
I put on myself daily.
Tired of the anger.

I'm tired.
Tired of crying, in the shower so nobody can hear.
Tired of the fear, of being judged, hurt, and alone.
Tired of failing.
Tired of holding on when all I want to do is give up.
Tired of being tired.
Tired of being me.
Tired of where I am
Tired of the unrealistic expectations
Tired of waiting

My dear sisters,
We are in the season where everything seems to be tiring but in everything we put our trust on God.

The book of Philippians has made us realized our strength is from God. I will advise you all to stay close to His word and trust Him in everything He is going to help you.

Don't be swayed by the things of the world.
Lots of temptation will be setting in but do not loose guard
Cherish your relationship with Him more than anything else.
Always, make sure you are connected to your source, God.
It will make you stay mentally fit amidst all the odds.

Talk to someone,
If you need counsel.
Don't keep things to yourself till it becomes unbearable.
Be strong!

I love you all

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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