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BATTLE 12
*An Unpredictable Life*

I sit here now in darkness, living on my own,
A life of existence, and rooms that sometimes resonated with laughter
Saw also tears of much sadness, pain, suffering, and anger.

For death entered the lives of those now dearly lost,
Creating prison cells of emptiness, loneliness, and memories,
Casting shadows within those silent and empty rooms.
The tears I shed quietly, along path of darkness,
Following footsteps of abandonment and utter sadness.

For the pain of the past,
Which sometimes drown within my doubting soul
Burning with heat, painfully, and once more take control.
No words could ever express
I dare not see and are hidden from even me.
Some days are just too hard and weary to travel
And nights seemingly drown in darkness 
Depicted within my mind, endless, and too barren,
For I loved too much.

Life has not been that good which I grew to believe
Providing me with a future of smiles and love
The sadness which I now find to be so close to me
My road through life has been rough and lonely
Though I have tried so hard to find joy and peace.
Yet the faster I ran to catch up
They only blew harder, remaining just out of my reach.
I see families with smiles, holding hands with care
Reminding me yet again of my responsibilities 
Another day awakens, though my spirit remains quiet

I faithfully believed that with my truest given love
And commitment I gave to all of those in need
Would allow my life to be complete with joy and hug
I'm so very tired of the winds,
Running so hard to catch that which was not to be.

Hmmm
Dear sisters,
To anyone dedicated to feeding their family, providing love and all the needs.

Please about the needs and don't let go because if you do,
One day might be too late
In as much as you love and are kind to them,
You must also treat yourself right
Only then you can have the capacity to continue and don't give up.

God bless you all

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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