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 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 15* Very early in the morning, my mom woke me up as she had packed all my things and we went to Priscilla house. Priscilla was so happy as she took me to her room. 5 minutes later, mom called me as she was ready to leave. I cried and hugged her, I felt it was the last day I would see her. My stay in Priscilla house was good. We quarreled, talk play, gist and read together. Priscilla has an elder brother, Pious who was through with school and seeking for admission. He is cool, handsome and friendly.  *Hmmm, only if I had known.....*   I was happy I didn't have to see Mr Stephen regularly except when I have his class. I thought I was overcoming my emotional issues until Priscilla brother started disturbing me for a relationship. I told Priscilla about it and she told me to put my focus the exams which is coming in the next two weeks but I love him and I decided to give him a chance, if that would solve my emotional issues. The ...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 14* Daddy travelled back to Abuja's and I also started my  exams. I took the exams very serious as my life because i wanted to make my parent happy. When my dad left, it felt as if my life was about to crash. It was then it occurred to me, how closer I am to him than my mom.                     I am heading towards the reason for my suicide mission. Mr Stephen did not stop teaching me even during the exams period. My result came out and I moved from average to the top. My dad was the happiest man on earth that day I told him about my result as he prayed for me. Mr Stephen noticed the changes in me and he was happy even though I began to learn how to set him free in my heart. In my Ss3, Mr Stephen became my English teacher and also continued as my lesson teacher at home. I became more emotionally disturbed, I was still trying to let him go in my life but it doesn't look like an easy thin...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 12* I was glad that my lies turned out positive and for the fact that I would be seeing my crush almost everyday, made me glad.  I slept very late that day as the thought of Mr Stephen coming to my house the next day to teach me, gat me deep in thought. As I sat on the bed, thinking of the cloth to wear. I just want to look good and adorable to him. I was still on my thoughtful zone before I dozed off. It was the sound of my phone alarm that woke me up. "Ooh.. Its 6:00am already" I grumbled as I tried to sleep back but I couldn't because it was environmental day. I had to start cleaning early so that I won't delay Mr Stephen from teaching me. At least, I was the one who caused everything so, I have to be responsible for all I caused. I know my parents especially my mom without doing all my house chores, I can't go on with my lesson. The least thing they would do is to beg him to be patient. I stood up, prayed and went outside t...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 10 & 11* The deal day has come as I thought of how to convince Mr Stephen to come to my house. I was still on my bed praying when I heard a knock on my door. I knew it was my mom as I stood up immediately from my bed because I was already late for school.  "God saved you, I thought you are still sleeping and why are you not dressed up for school? She asked  "I just woke up ma" I said truthfully because I don't know what another lie can cause.  "Okay no problem. Just be fast and eat your food before going to school because I don't really have money to give you for breakfast and lunch. I know you understand dear" she said  "Yes I do, thank you ma. Aren't you going to work? I asked "I am going my dear. Thank you for understanding. You know your dad is coming today so be of good character. I love you dearly" "Yes mom, I love you too" I said  "Alright, I am going to the office. See yo...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 9*  Getting to my house, I was angry and I didn't even notice my mom who was sitting at a corner in the dinning room. I was about to cross the dinner table when I heard my name.  "Ijeoma come back here.....she said as I gently stepped back and she continued. So, I have turned so little that you can't see me abi?  "Mba (No) mama, it's not like that. I am so angry that I reacted so bad, I am sorry ma" I said "So, it's angry that made me so small to you. What if what happened is more than anger nko? I have told you severally, you need to caution the way you react when angry. You don't just have to be rational about everything and never allow that reapet itself. Do you hear me? She asked  "Yes ma" I said even though I was still angry. "By the way, where are you coming from? I noticed these days, I don't usually meet you at home. Where are you coming from? She asked harshly. I didn't know wha...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 7* I couldn't talk, I stood still as Stephen (my crush) approached me. I was surprised and wondered what he was doing because he was not with the bus.  "So.... It's you. Hello, how are you doing sir? I asked.  "I am doing fine oooo. How's everything going ma? He asked "Everything is going good o. What are you doing here and why are you not with the bus?I asked and smiled.  "I came here to see one of the school I submitted my CV to and concerning the bus, I am not working with it anymore" He said as we were walking together.  "Ahhhh....What happened? Hope no problem? How are you now going to be feeding yourself? What job are you going to do now? I screamed as I asked.  "You ask too much questions. How do you expect me to answer everything ?  He said as I was smiling.  "Well you have to start from somewhere" I said.  "Well, I am sorry I can't answer all your questions today because I am...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 5* When I got to his house, he was still resting. He woke up when he heard a knock on his door  "Who is that? He asked as he opened the door. He was so surprised to see me "What are you doing here? He asked sharply.  "You gave me your home address so why are you asking me what am I doing here. Would you let me in or should go? I asked.  "No, it's not up to that. You can come in" he said as he ushered me in. I was a little bit scared as I entered inside and sat down.  He noticed my actions and he asked "I thought you aren't scared at first? "No I am not scared" I lied as he went inside to get water for me to drink. After some minutes of silence, I began to ask him some questions... "What is your name? I asked.  "Stephen Adebayo" he said.  "I am sorry for this question I am about to ask, are you satisfied as a conductor? If you are not, why don't you find another job? Or didn'...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 3* It was a letter. I was confused and was also eager to know what was in the letter as I picked up the letter. It goes thus:-          Hello little girl, why were you staring at me???  I was angry and at the same time, I was happy that I received a letter from him. It showed that I was noticed. I was angry because he saw me as a little girl. I wanted to be more than a little girl in his sight. I was disappointed as I picked my pen and biro to reply his letter..  It goes thus :-     I might be small in age but I am more matured. I always spend my breakfast and lunch money just to see you ever since the day I saw you in the bus, I know we both understand there's a chemistry between us. Your smile brightens my day and also put a smile on my face. I love you and I know you love me too. Thank you as I expect your favorable response.   I dipped the letter inside my school bag. Like every day, I s...

 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*   *PART 2* Through out the school activities , I was acting weird and smiling everywhere. Priscilla noticed the unusual part of me and decided to ask what were going on as we were going home   "What happened, you have been smiling since morning. Did you win anything or have you gotten a visa to travel out?  She asked  "No, I replied as I blushed.  "I don't believe that, then why are you are blushing? Priscilla said and stared at me.  "Nothing, I just remembered something "I said "Hmm something? Or you are thinking about someone?Priscilla asked frankly  "Well actually, I met someone today in the bus and I like him. Please, can we talk about this tomorrow?  She asked seriously  "Did I tell you I wanted us to talk about anything? Just be careful, remember you are still in secondary school" Priscilla said. "Yes ma, I know before you start talking like my mom. I would see you tomorrow " I said and was a...

 *MUM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*  *PART 1*  This is a fictional story, let nobody assume it happened to somebody. I pray God breathe on you as you read through. Stay blessed.  My name is Ijeoma Adefarakola, I am 18years old and as my name implies, I belong to two tribes. My dad is Yoruba and my mum from Enugu state....Well, now you know a bit about me but I would like to tell how it all started because along the story, I would be telling more about myself and I know some are anxious to know what was wrong. Let me start from the beginning ...                *How It Started* It all started at the age of 15, when I was in ss1. I attended a public school, GLORIOUS CHILD COLLEGE. It is one of the best and recognised public school ever. I was not just the usual public school student, I was a neat, average and beautiful student.           Can you imagine how that was the beginning of my suicide mission???...

Anu was 15years old, when she had been living with a wrong mindset because of her struggles, challenges and experience and it keeps depriving her of moving forward.  “Each day kept coming and what she saw, was a broken girl that is not perfect and would never be. The girl that people want her to be” she said, as she was discussing with her interviewer. Then, she taught about her life and how she could not look at the mirror because, all she saw was failure but was determined to change. “How was she going to change? Yes to some extent, she believed in God. How can she get over this wrong mindset of mine?” These are questions Anu asked herself. As she was flipping through the bible, she saw the scripture that talks about Royal Priesthood in 1Peter 2:9. Then, she asked herself “Does that means she was made for royality? Why would God see her as a royal person despite her filthiness, her stain, her rag, etc. She could not really consentrate on what she was doing as she prayed to God to...