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SUICIDE MISSION



 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*

 *PART 12*

I was glad that my lies turned out positive and for the fact that I would be seeing my crush almost everyday, made me glad. 

I slept very late that day as the thought of Mr Stephen coming to my house the next day to teach me, gat me deep in thought. As I sat on the bed, thinking of the cloth to wear. I just want to look good and adorable to him. I was still on my thoughtful zone before I dozed off. It was the sound of my phone alarm that woke me up.

"Ooh.. Its 6:00am already" I grumbled as I tried to sleep back but I couldn't because it was environmental day. I had to start cleaning early so that I won't delay Mr Stephen from teaching me. At least, I was the one who caused everything so, I have to be responsible for all I caused. I know my parents especially my mom without doing all my house chores, I can't go on with my lesson. The least thing they would do is to beg him to be patient.

I stood up, prayed and went outside to start all my work. I finished everything before 9 o'clock and I had to join my parents for morning devotion. The morning devotion that day, was titled :-DISCIPLINE and it was talking to me. I know I have not been discipline in my behavior, I chase after things that are not even looking at me and I loose focus. Just like what my dad said :- a woman without discipline, is a bait to people. To be disciple, is not to be loosed. You must be discipline in out and it must reflect in your character.

After the devotion, I went straight to my room as I sat down to reflect on those words I heard. I was still mediating when I heard a knock on the door. 

"Who is that? I asked as my mom replied "Nne, your teacher is around o. Be fast and come out" She said and left. 

So fast, I said as I checked the time. It was 10 o'clock as I hurried to do the necessary things. I came outside by 10:45 as my parents were staring hard at me.

"I thought you won't be coming out again" my dad said as my mom was giving background voice.

"I am sorry" I said as I searched round for Mr Stephen but I could not see him. My mom noticed how confused I was as she said "He is outside with the place all set for lesson, he just waiting for you" she said as I walked out to meet him. 

By the time, I stepped out. I was wowed by what I saw....

Stay with me as we journey together 

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria* 



 *PART 13* 

He was looking so stunning with the ankara style he wore. Even when I planned to stay disciple, what I am seeing cant make me to be disciple. I am seriously in love with him, I cannot lie. 

I was still staring at him as he coughed... 

"I am sorry sir. It's just that this ankara style suit you well. Good morning sir" I said. 

He smiled and said "It's fine, thank you. Good morning and how was your night rest? 

"It was fine but short" I said

"Really, mine was long. Why was your short? He asked 

I smiled and said "I can't tell you about it, you can not understand. Moreover, if I  start you would tell me not to talk about it again"

"Hmm... Okay ma. So back to the reason why we are here which is for extra lessons. I would be given you a copy of the rules and regulations, which I want you to abide with in order not to lead you into punishment" he said wit a serious look. 

"Punishment!!!" I said being suprised

"Yes" he said. It was then, it occurred to me that I have to be serious and discipline. We started the lesson as my parents kept coming out time to time, to observe us and to greet him. The lesson was slated for two hours and thank God, he didn't exceed more than the two hours. 

Immediately he was through, he didn't wait for extra discussion as he went inside to greet my parents and I escorted him to the gate. On my way to the kitchen for my food, my dad called and asked me to sit down. I was trying to guess what was going on but i couldn't.

"Ijeoma! Ijeoma!! Ijeoma!!!. How many times did I call you? He asked 

"Three times sir" I replied calmly. 

"Okay, I want you to be focused and give your best in your education. I want you to plan and reach all the heights I have not attained. Be determined and don't let anything take away your determination" he said 

"Alright sir, thank you sir" I said and I was embarrassed as I thought he caught me as I was looking at Mr Stephen during the lesson period. 

"You would be starting your exam next week. What are your plans? How are you planning to execute them? It's a pity, I won't be here to see you start your exams because I am going to Abuja tomorrow but don't worry, my prayers are with you. You know daddy gat to work to provide for your needs but don't forget all we have discussed and please don't disturb your mom. A word is enough for the wise. It's left for you to use it or throw it away. You can go and eat now" he said

"Awwwn...Thank you sir. I  would miss you so much" We both smiled as I hugged him before going to my room.

I don't know why all his words for that day really touched me. I know it's all pointing to me as I cried.

I don't even understand myself anymore, I am emotionally disturbed but I don't know how to tell him as tears were flowing down.

 *Stay with me as we journey together* 

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*
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