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SUICIDE MISSION


 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*

 *PART 15*

Very early in the morning, my mom woke me up as she had packed all my things and we went to Priscilla house. Priscilla was so happy as she took me to her room. 5 minutes later, mom called me as she was ready to leave. I cried and hugged her, I felt it was the last day I would see her.

My stay in Priscilla house was good. We quarreled, talk play, gist and read together. Priscilla has an elder brother, Pious who was through with school and seeking for admission. He is cool, handsome and friendly.

 *Hmmm, only if I had known.....* 

 I was happy I didn't have to see Mr Stephen regularly except when I have his class. I thought I was overcoming my emotional issues until Priscilla brother started disturbing me for a relationship. I told Priscilla about it and she told me to put my focus the exams which is coming in the next two weeks but I love him and I decided to give him a chance, if that would solve my emotional issues.

The time for the exams came as my parents called to pray for me. Also, thanks to Pious who also assisted in coaching us, he made me believe i wasn't alone as i was prepared for the exams. He made me forget about Mr Stephen and I was happy. We were still writing our exams when he got an admission into the university. I wasn't happy as I thought that was the end to our relationship but he made me realized he still loves me and there was no end.

After some days, he went to school and I continued with my exams. A week to the end of my exams we were still communicating and the love vapor was still there until I finished my exams. Immediately I was through with my exams, I  called my parents to inform them as I was so happy. After calling them, I decided to call Pious but he has already sent me a message and it says..
     
    "My darling, I have been calling your number. I am so happy that you are through with your exams and I wish you the best in your result. I am also sorry this is coming now but I think its high time I let you know, Ijeoma there can't be us anymore. I am not a long distance relationship person and I tried my best to keep us working but I can't just cope. I think its better, I allow you know now. Thank you for the amazing moment we shared together" 

I read it as my phone fell from my hand. Priscilla asked what was wrong but I couldn't say anything as I was crying. She picked up my phone to check what was going on....

"My God! I am so sorry Ijeoma" she said as she tried to pull me up but I was too weak to stand. I cried all through the day as Priscilla mom asked what was going on but I couldn't say anything. 

After spending 2 more days and I realise my parents aren't talking about picking me up, I texted them telling them i want to die. The next day, they came very early as Priscilla mom was surprised to see them. 

"You didn't inform us you were coming this morning" my mom said.

"Yes ma, its because of what Ijeoma texted o. Please where is she? My mom said. I was already awake as I came out with my swollen eyes.

" Thank God you came, I didn't know what is wrong her. I have asked her several times but she didn't say anything" Priscilla mom said.

"Good morning" I said forcefully and Priscilla also greeted them as we all started down. My mom was about to talk but my dad interrupted.

"Good morning everyone. Mummy Priscilla, I want to thank you for everything you have done for us. I appreciate it and God continue to bless you and your family. Yes, we didn't tell you we would coming today. Neither did we know we would be here today. We woke up and saw Ijeoma message, telling us she want to die and we have to rush down here"

"Jesus! Ijeoma. Why? Priscilla mom asked.

"My darling why? My mom asked as she was crying and my dad was patting her. At that moment, I couldn't say anything as I was crying. My dad asked again...

"Only if I have you both have showed me how much you love me like you did now, I wouldn't have placed my love on men or outsider. I was emotional down but none of you was sensitive to see it. I tried telling you both several times but you weren't available and anything we have the chance to talk, it's all about my education. I know you both are trying your best to give me what I want and need but I needed someone to show me love" I said as I cried.

"But darling, I usually tell you how much I love you" my mom said crying

"Telling me how much you love me is different from showing me. You only assured me of your love but I could not even feel it. You don't spend time with me, you made me feel unwanted. Thank God you both came earlier, I was planning to disappear so that I won't hurt myself anymore" I said as we were all crying..

"We are sorry. We are sorry for not been available to you. We are sorry if we caused any separation" they apologized as we all hugged each other.

Hmm, Suicide is not the answer. All you need to do is to SPEAK OUT. Its not an easy journey but you need to let those who hurt you, know how you are feeling. 

This is a lesson to every parents and children. I believe we have been blessed. Don't forget to always speak out. Even at the point of death, let someone know how you are feeling. Don't keep thing that hurt you to yourself, find a way of letting it out. If Ijeoma didn't sent that text to her parents, she might not have the chance to tell them how she felt. So, always speak out.

God bless you. I love you all.
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 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*


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