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SUICIDE MISSION


 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*

 *PART 14*

Daddy travelled back to Abuja's and I also started my  exams. I took the exams very serious as my life because i wanted to make my parent happy. When my dad left, it felt as if my life was about to crash. It was then it occurred to me, how closer I am to him than my mom.
     
              I am heading towards the reason for my suicide mission.

Mr Stephen did not stop teaching me even during the exams period. My result came out and I moved from average to the top. My dad was the happiest man on earth that day I told him about my result as he prayed for me. Mr Stephen noticed the changes in me and he was happy even though I began to learn how to set him free in my heart.

In my Ss3, Mr Stephen became my English teacher and also continued as my lesson teacher at home. I became more emotionally disturbed, I was still trying to let him go in my life but it doesn't look like an easy thing because the girls in my class reminds me of my love for him as they stick around him. Only if he wasn't my teacher in school.

My mom was extremely busy with her work and we didn't really have time for each other in the house. Whenever i wake up, she was already gone with a note on the table for me and when she comes back, I was already asleep. Even her Saturday's and Sunday's were already fixed up as there was no time for much discussion. It was as if everyone was busy with their life and I was so lonely with nobody to share my emotions. I thought of telling Mr Stephen during one of our lesson period but I remembered he said he would always respect my decision when I told him I would like to keep distance so as to overcome my emotions about him.

In school, during one of the classes Priscilla passed a letter to me as I opened it. It says "We have to discuss". At first, I was confused as I thought of what she wanted to discuss with me and at the same time, I was happy my long time bestie saw the need for a discussion. I could not wait for the long break bell because that's when we usually discuss. Few minutes later, the bell rang as we both went to the school hall.

I was ashamed to look at her face as I faced down. She noticed everything as she said " Its fine, I know you haven't been a faithful friend all this while but I have forgiven you" 

"I am sorry" I said as I was crying. 

She drew me closer and said "Its okay my love. You know I always love you big head". Only if Priscilla knew how those words she said awaken me, I felt loved again as I cleaned my tears.

"I didn't bring you hear to cry, like I said we have to discuss. What is going on? She asked calmly. I didn't have any choice as I explained everything to her. She felt sorry for me even though she has warned me but I was too adamant. 

"Well, that's just one of the reason why I called you. What I am about to say might sound somehow but I want you to be strong and don't act weakly. Your mom came to our house and I overheard her telling my mom to allow you stay with us for the days remaining till your exams are over"

"What! I shouted as I fell on the ground. It's not possible, I said and the bell rang. I was surprised as Priscilla managed to take me to the class. I wasn't myself until the closing bell rang and I ran home. 

Getting home, I was suprised by what I saw...

"Mum...I shouted as I met her in the sitting room with boxes.

"Oh my darling, you are back. Come and sit down" She said as she dragged me to the chair.

"My darling I know I hurt you because I have been busy and it hurts me to say this, I have a business to attend to in Abuja's and I would be leaving tomorrow, very early in the morning. I know I should have told you this earlier but I have not been available. I am so sorry" she said

"Does daddy knows about this? I asked.

"Yes my darling. I would be staying with him" she said

"So what about me? Did you guys ever thought of me? Where will I be? You are leaving me all alone..." I said as I cried

"Oh no, don't cry my baby girl. You know we can't leave you alone. We ought to be going together but because of your WAEC exams. When you are through with your exams, we would come back for you. You would be staying in your friends house, Priscilla so that you won't miss us too much" she said

"Do you think I am okay with that idea? I asked

"Common my darling. I know its because you are still angry with us. We both know Priscilla house is the best for you or would you like to go to uncle Okoro's house? She asked and smiled.

" God forbid. I have forgiven you and I would miss you mum" I said as we hugged each other.

Stay with me as we journey together.

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*
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