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SUICIDE MISSION


 *MOM AND DAD, I WANT TO DIE*

 *PART 5*

When I got to his house, he was still resting. He woke up when he heard a knock on his door 

"Who is that? He asked as he opened the door. He was so surprised to see me

"What are you doing here? He asked sharply. 

"You gave me your home address so why are you asking me what am I doing here. Would you let me in or should go? I asked. 

"No, it's not up to that. You can come in" he said as he ushered me in. I was a little bit scared as I entered inside and sat down. 

He noticed my actions and he asked "I thought you aren't scared at first?

"No I am not scared" I lied as he went inside to get water for me to drink. After some minutes of silence, I began to ask him some questions...

"What is your name? I asked. 

"Stephen Adebayo" he said. 

"I am sorry for this question I am about to ask, are you satisfied as a conductor? If you are not, why don't you find another job? Or didn't you go to school? I asked 

He smiled and said "I was a student of Obafemi Arowolo University, a second class upper graduate. I studied mass communication. I have searched all over for job but I couldn't find one and If I eventually get one, I have to pay a sum of money to work in the place. Everything is about connection and I don't have anyone" he said 

"Wow...i am sorry for misjuding you. I thought as much, you are different from others. You are a tush conductor. So what are now your plans concerning the job? Why don't you go for teaching? I asked 

"I have submitted my CV to some schools and I am still yet to get their reply" he said

"Alright that's better because that conductor of a thing does not fit your personality" I said. 

"Okay ma... Thank you. What are you going to eat now? He asked. 

"No I am okay..Thank you" I said as I was itching my body and making funny movements. 

He noticed my movements and said "Oh, I am sorry that's true you have to be on your way home" he said  

"No, I don't have to be on my way home. I came here to discuss about us" she said 

He laughed and said "There is  no us, can't you understand. I don't know what you told your parents but you need to be on your way home" he said 

"Please, don't push me away. I know we both love each other" I said as I stood up and sat down beside him

"No, you are too young for all these you are taking about or requesting for. I want you to go home" he said as he stood up angrily. 

"Please, let's talk about this amicably. I know you are older than me but I am matured to handle every situation. I love you" I said. He didn't listen to me as he tried pulling me to get out of his house but along the line of pushing me, something happened.... 

What could have happened? 

Stay with me as we journey together.. 

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria* 



 *PART 6*

I kept holding up myself so tight that he forcefully push me as I fell on the ground. He tried waking me up but I didn't respond. He rushed inside the kitchen to get water as I stood up and smiled as layed back immediately he was coming back. He was scared as he poured water on me and said "I told you to go back home but you didn't listen"

I didn't want to respond at first but after seeing all his cares and actions. I had to respond as I laughed out. He was surprised and angry as he said "I really don't expect you to act up this way, you see why I called you a little girl. Let me just tell you straight, you are not the right girl for me. I don't love you, I like you and see you as a younger sister I don't have. So, can you kindly leave my house or this would be the last time you would see and hear from me"

I quickly stood up as I knelt down and begged him.

"Don't worry, I would be responsible from now. Just give me another chance" I begged

"Okay... No problem, please you need to behave yourself. Don't go around flirting with older guys, they would just use you. I used the word flirting because that's exactly what you are doing to me now. You have a bright future ahead of you so, why not focus on education. Come out as the best with a lots of value attached to you and then, men would come after you both older and younger ones" he said 

"Alright sir. Thank you sir, I should be leaving now" I said soberly as he excorted me out. 

I walked home that night as I lifeless being. I got home around 8:00 as my mom was in the sitting room, worried about my whereabout.

"I have told you not to stay out late at night even if you went to your friends house, you should have stayed there instead of coming home" mom said 

"I am sorry mom, I planned of staying there but Priscilla was going for a vigil so, I just had to leave" I lied

"Then you should have followed her to the vigil ehn. Well, I am glad you are here. Let's pray so that you can go and sleep" We prayed together and went to sleep after prayers. The thought of the embarrassment, disappointment and shame I brought to myself did not allow me sleep. 

"I just sold myself so cheap. I am supposed to act more matured to win his heart. I have failed" I thought.

While thinking, the thought of my exams starting next week  came to my mind as I remembered everything my mom said. I picked up my Chemistry book as I tried to read some pages but it was not sticking in my head. Moreover, I was feeling sleepy. I closed the book and slept off because I need to prepare for tomorrow.

Early in the morning, I woke up and do all my house chores as I proceed to school. I didn't even plan of following the bus as I trekked to the school. I needed to cut every distractions to focus on my exams which is coming forth. Getting to the school, I saw Priscilla reading her book as I walked gently towards. She was surprised to see me so early as I was sweating. 

"What happened? Why are you sweating? Didn't you wait for your lover boy to come pick you?  She asked as she laughed. 

"See, let's forget about that. Well, it's not your fault. What subject are you reading? I asked her. 

"I am reading biology" she said as the bell rang for assembly. We both stepped out for the assembly. We didn't do anything much in school, it was revision week as we closed early.

I was on my way home when I heard someone screaming my name. I turned around and was surprised at who I saw. 

Stay with me as we journey together. Thanks and I appreciate you all.


 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

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