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THORIA'S DIARY


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 *TEE'S STORY*

To whosever who is reading this page of my diary, my name is Temitope Oyelaja. Also known as Tee.

I need help,
I sat down and watch. Sometimes, I am dumbfounded as I continually, ask myself How did it happen? Because I don't understand.

How did I get here?
I look at myself and I am not proud of where I am.
I used to be very fervent in spirit but I don't know where I stand anymore.

Somebody help me,
I watch myself desiring progress I can't attain
I watch myself claiming openly to be who I am not secretly 
I watch myself leaking in the place of prayer yet I couldn't do anything
I watch myself draining in the Word yet, i watch christian movies just to keep myself in the word.

Please help me,
I can't continue to be who I am not.
I need the old way where I stay, pray and laugh in the secret place
I miss the communication with My Father

I miss Him sharing his thoughts with me
I am only active in online programs but deactivated in the Secret place of communication with my Father.

I need to go back to the old times,
I need to find myself in track,
Please, help me...

To every TEE'S
I know you are facing a lot now and it seems to weigh you down but I want you to know, no matter how far the journey is, you will get to your destination.

Also, no matter how you leave the source, you will always go back to it because that is your source.

Just like the prodigal son went back to his father after lavishing his money, is the same way you will have to go back to God. The prodigal son went back with the pain, shame, etc. So, will you carry all the burdens and lay it down at His feet.

I kept saying, when you know the root of the problem, it's a good start of breakthrough because you have an idea of things not going on and you know you need to rededicate your life to Him.

So, all you will do is go to God with the heaviness in your heart. It's okay to cry and then tell him everything like you do with your bestie. See God as your bestie and don't hide anything from Him and from then, He will begin to fill your mind. You can even get to the point where you will have to sing and cry. Whatever is happening at that moment, just flow in Spirit and don't disrupt the flow.

With time, you will get yourself back to prayers and word because at the moment of rededication is a starting point so, you will have to flow with the spirit as being led and God will always be with you.

Make sure, you don't jeopardize your relationship with God with anything.

I love you and God bless you

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria* 
 *Light Lamp*
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