Light lamp

"Growing up, I always struggled so much with things going on in my mind. My parents were not okay, I kept getting my heart broken, and started harming myself. Things wicked people had said to me, always find their ways back into my thoughts and it made me hate myself. I was so lost but when I turned 18, I met someone who made me see things differently and I was finally let go the war between my head and mind" Oyinade said as tears flow down from the ladies she was sharing her story with. Then she went forward and said... "Let your mind be at ease, if those toxic thoughts still ponder in your mind, then let out by speaking out Speak out until the pain is gone. Until you no longer feel afraid. Then, open your eyes to a new dawn and let the darkness fade. Don't ever compare yourself or your flaws to others' perfections. Take the negativity off your thoughts and focus on your direction. Close the door on self-hatred and never let it back in. For those lies coming thr...

My name is Gift, I am 14yrs. My family most especially my mom, never understands my feeling and I also find it very hard to understand what I am feeling.  Actually, it's a deep pain and whenever I try to communicate how I feel about it, my siblings just make fun of me and each time, I gather the courage to tell my mom, I still find myself getting hurt. Sometimes, they say I take everything personal and i am oversensitive. I was really hurt, and each day, I find it difficult to bring myself to express my true feeling because I think they don't care and I am only being silly to them. I cry myself to sleep almost twice a week and even think about suicide but when I recall the happy moments, I think that if I would have died that I won't be able to experience that.  As a teenager, they think I don't know what it is to have a struggle. I am just a child with imaginations, trying to get attention, right? Sometimes, I feel neglected, forgotten, alone and afraid. Sometimes, I f...

Does everything have to go this way.  I am trying and putting in my best everyday yet, nothing seems to be new about me. Would I ever be heard? Is my life meant to go on this way? I know there's something great in me, Sometimes,I struggle to find myself for days and months keep passing. As I lie here, stuck in my own mind. Always looking for ways to improve myself but I struggle to take that first step. I often wonder if this is it for me or if I'm stuck in my regret. Something I don't know, if that's the right thing and I can't still see the right thing. I try to hide my insecurities because the worry is just too much, But everything end up going by, without having to achieve anything. I don't even know what I live for. So today I am tired of this life routine because it seems I am at dead ends and I don't know where to go again. Any words of wisdom Could help my soul someway. I need to find myself" Doris voiced out. I know life can be challenging, cou...

"What happened to the light? Is it full or low? This was the question I asked my sister as I turned on my lamp few days ago. Unfortunately, the lamp was so low that it could hardly emit light for me to use and I needed it urgently but it wasn't the lamp' s fault. There was no light for some weeks now and there was no way to charge the lamp expect the generator is put on. That's the same way God gets angry when he sees the people He sent to light the world light going down. What happened? Why is the light not connected to the source? My dear sisters, Do not let's that sin or what you are going through make you disconnect from the source (God). When the lamp was charged, the light came on so bright. Do not let what you are passing through now make you disconnect from your maker. Go back to God and be charged Go back to the secret place and be charged Go back for retreats and be charged Attend that revival program and be charged. When you notice there's a disconne...

Life is unpredictable... Don't live on past events or in regret. Never live your life trying to please anyone who isn't your creator. Live your life according to God's standard and plans for you. Life will push you over, kick you while you're down and even hit you when you try to get back up but remember, not everything can beat you or knock you down. We have victory in Christ Jesus. Things will come to change you but you have to choose which ones you let change you either the good or bad. Listen to your heart and follow your dreams. Let no one tell you what you're capable of. Push the limits and enjoy every minute of it. Smile all the time and Live for as long as you can. Love all, but trust God. Believe in yourself and never lose faith in others. Settle for nothing but only the best and give 100% in everything you do.Take risks, live on the edge yet stay safe and cherish every moment of it. Life is a gift from God. Appreciate all the rewards and pray and seize opp...

"Tope, I am not who I used to be anymore. This is not me buuuttt I can't figure out what's going on" Busayo said as she looks worried "Busy (short form of Busayo) I also noticed and I have been trying to figure out what is going on with you, so tell me? Tope said as she drops her pen and concentrated on her "Toppy (another form of Tope), I think i am in a short of trap This isn't what I signed in for. I think I am about to be choked. I don't even have breathing space. I don't know who I am anymore. I am loosing myself. I am......Tope cut in... "Aunty, what is all this? Be clear with your points. I know you are all that but what exactly is wrong? Tope "I...don't know. All I know is I am not emotionally okay and I feel I can't go on anymore. All the things I planned for are not coming through. Plus, it seems God has forgotten me because everything is not how it ought to be. I think I am left alone now" Busayo said  "Busa...

I know I get angry, I know I rant but all I want to do is wake up from this dream. I try to stop being rude, I try to live a normal life but it's hard to do all these when I feel I'm not good enough I will never be Tope, who is beautiful, loving, and bright. I'll never be a Feyi, whose hard work is always showing. I will never be a Ore, who is organized and neat I'll never be any of them and i can't fill any of their space. I am just a teenage girl, who doesn't know what's going on with me because I don't understand. I am just another troublemaker who has a thousands of issues and not good at anything. I am not the prettiest so many things don't go my way. I am the one in the family who cries myself to sleep at night I am the one who for some odd reason and can't get anything right. I am the one who feels unwanted and hated by a lot. I am the one who takes the blame when someone else gets caught. I am the one who feels like my life can't cont...

I am all alone and that's why nobody else can see me... Nobody knows me; I feel so alone. They don't see what talents I've shown. Why doesn't anyone truly understand? I just want to be part of the society. Nobody cares that I always cry. It makes me feel like I wanna die. The me you see is not the real me. This isn't who I wish to be. I hide the pain, I hide the strife. Honestly, I just want to escape this life. You'll never know the pain I feel. I'm running from this world, still wondering when my voice will be heard. They keep saying that I'm selfish, dumb, and cruel but can't you see that I will never let you win this. Now there's just one more thing that I want them to know, and it is that I will never let my sorrow show. The true me stays forever hidden. My friends and family don't know at all. Right now, I just want to be gone" These were the words Tomike poured out to the counselor. Dear sisters, I know many things are happening i...

In life there are people that will hurt you and cause us pain but you must learn to forgive and forget and not hold grudges. Don't keep it in mind, sincerely forgive them and keep moving. In life there are mistakes you will make, but you must learn from our wrongs and grow from them. Make sure when you fall, you rise again. Also, learn from your mistakes.  In life there are regrets you will have to live with, but you must learn to leave the past behind and realize it is something you can't  change. Quit regretting your actions to avoid past pain. In life there are people you will lose forever and can't have back, but you must learn to let go and move on. Those memories with your friends or family, cherish them. Don't brood too much on it and move on In life there are going to be obstacles that will cause interference, but you must learn to overcome these challenges and grow stronger. Don't be consumed by challenges. There's a breakthrough at the end, only if you...

A wise person, looked into my face and told me " You are a BEACON. You a light and cannot be hidden. Wherever, you step into you shine and attracts men. Just hold unto Him(God) and keep being you" I was flattered and I remembered the bible verse "Matthew 5:14:- KJV:Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid" Last month, there were days I was feeling low because something's were not working for me. You know that feeling of when you use to be good at something and all of a sudden, it stops working for you and you kept wondering, how did you go wrong. That was the same feeling I had. I had people around me who motivated me and I also kept pushing. I was even at the verge of giving up but God had his plans and way.  The same lady that was once not getting it right in the field and was about to give up was the same lady that came out as one of the top's and people are coming to ask how did you do it. I was even getting recommendati...

I wish someone can hear me scream. You would never know it, The constant pain I feel, because in the light of day it doesn't seems real. Can't you hear my silent screams? They are so loud that they echo in my dreams. Behind this face that carries a smile. Lies a an unknown person with different issues. My silent screams have been going on for years but it always falls on so many deaf ears. How can they hear these silent screams when it only echoes in my mind? Sure, I'll play, I'll laugh, I'll sing some songs, But that pain is always alarming because it's been there all along. They can't hear my thoughts if I keep telling them I'm fine. What can I tell them? These silent screams carry no words. It's just feelings of sadness How can I explain so people understand this? It's like walking around with a choked mind I can't explain how this feels; it's so extreme, So I hold my mouth shut to cover my silent screams. The moment I tried to explain...

"Hmmm..Feranmi, it had been long? I feel attacked each time. I want to move on but I just feel tired about everything. I know there's more and I can do more but I just don't understand this kind of feelings" Victoria said "Ok ...ay but please can you break it down so that I can understand you. What exactly are you talking about? Feranmi asked "I am talking about my life. That's the summary of my life. I feel tired to do anything. Most especially my spiritually life. It has been the same. I haven't study and really had my personal prayers for so long now. I am tired of the normal routine. I know there's more that I can do but I just feel tired" Victoria said "Hmmm...Vickky. See, I understand you perfectly and there's one thing I want you to understand that if we keep depending on our strength, we will always get tired because we face a lot of things on different angle each time we step out and trust me, it can be tiring. We hear and ...

Some ladies are like a bird sitting on the ground and too afraid to fly. They have beautiful wings(talents and gifts) that could make them soar, but the pain of past failure is the cry of their hearts. Yet, God has said unto them, "Trust and have faith in me, for I will carry you in your flight. The miracle of life is waiting for you to see." After the assurance of God, there is still some doubts in them that says, "But I can't fly. I am weak, I am a failure! I will fall and feel pain. It's happened before when I tried to progress. I'm afraid of being hurt again." God said again, "I created you, and I will protect you. Your cry I have heard. Have faith in me. That's all you need to do. Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right h...