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MY STRUGGLE


*THIS IS NOT ME*

Sometimes
I wish that you could see the real me
The scared girl inside of me.
I'm not really who you think I am
I'm not tough, strong, or mean.
That isn't me.

This isn't the real me.
I fight every day just to reveal it,
Yet cry at night.
No one can see through
My false identity, isn't glaring.
Yet, I don't know what to do 

I've been hurt,
As you can see,
So I created
A fake me.
No one ever tries
To get through my shield.
All I want to be is me.

How do I show,
What I've kept hidden for years?
How do I show
All the silent fears?
What would you think
If I showed you me?
What would you say
Without my false identity? Remi said 

Dear Sisters,
Many people are like Remi, living a life that isn't for them. Living in fear.

Wearing a skin that isn't theirs. Yet, they don't know how to pull it off because people are use to their old skin.

There's no joy hiding behind your fear
*Psalm 56:3*. When you are afraid, put your trust in Him. 
Enough of hiding in shell, it can't make you progress.
You will keep struggling every day and yet, you wouldn't find any means to come out of it.

Whatever it is,
Run to God
Say it to Him
And seek for His help
Pray to God to help you overcome it
Pray to Him, to guide you through the recovery process.

Enough is Enough!
You can do better 
*Psalm 34:4*

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*

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