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Last year was a phase, A rough one, A smooth one with Lot's of lesson Lot's of tears Lot's of regret Lot's of Struggle(Physically, spiritually and emotionally) Lot's of Pain Lot's of unfulfilled vision Lot's of unfulfilled plans Lot's more... What are you going to hold unto and pass on to this year? Many of us couldn't do so much because we didn't carry God so much along with your plans? Yes, it was told to write down your vision but did it just end there? Have you thought about it, if that's also God's will for you? Dear Sisters Don't run the race of 2024 with a canal mind. Don't be in an hesitate to write that plans, Seek His will in accordance to your plans Intentionally pray and wait for His plans too Most times we are scared that His plans might not be exactly what we want at that moment but He is God He knows what's best for you, So why not depend on Him Trust in the lord and lean not on your own understanding I wish a s...

I have an invisible friend Who guides me through dark and pain. He always tells me not to give up As he believes in me when I don't believe in myself  When my paths are not clear And I am surrounded by fear, He holds my trembling hands and says, "Oh dear, don't you worry, good days are near!" Even though all I see are my struggles One day I finally asked Him, "How can you be so positive about everything?" "Just like after dark night comes bright day, Just like after every storm comes the calm, Through ups and downs, life always goes on." He said  He made me believe in miracles, Gave strength to my wings. No matters how impossible things may seem, He always make me see positivity  He is the reason I always smile. I never give up, I never blame  Because I have an invisible friend, And Hope is His name! Do you feel down, Do you feel lost Do you think nobody love or want you There's a friend that sticker closer than everyone. His name is Jesus and ...

  I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here. I do so much for everyone.  Why don't they show their care? I met this guy who said he loved me,  something I haven't heard in so long. He used me for my money;  What a ride he took me on. There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside. Sometimes I wish my dad were here, but to me he's not alive. I have no one to talk to. These drugs seem to be the only way. Turns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and every day. I know outside I'm smiling; it's the face I fake for you, But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do. I know my family loves me. I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor. I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing here. Can I wake up from this dream? Can I please just disappear?  My dear sisters, There are some situations in life we just need to learn from Life is a training ground and there are many questions we wil...

Where did it go? The question I asked myself, I don't understand, How did I lost it? How did I lost that passion for God? How did I lost that hunger for God? My God! Yes, I still speak in tongues But, there's no vibe That zeal like I use to have while I was in campus, That zeal like the first encounter with Him My God! Where did it go? That Hunger and drive, I can't find it anymore... How did I get here? How did I get back? Someone help me... She screamed before realizing everything was in her thought  Dear Sisters, Don't get trapped in this world and forget the Word The word of God is essential to us as Christians Study the word for renewal of the mind Don't forsake the gathering of believers Pray, listen to edifying songs Watch who you follow on social media and the time you spend on it Don't be carried away, always ensure you go back to the SOURCE  *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

I am all alone and that's why nobody else can see me... Nobody knows me; I feel so alone. They don't see what talents I've shown. Why doesn't anyone truly understand? I just want to be part of the society. Nobody cares that I always cry. It makes me feel like I wanna die. The me you see is not the real me. This isn't who I wish to be. I hide the pain, I hide the strife. Honestly, I just want to escape this life. You'll never know the pain I feel. I'm running from this world, still wondering when my voice will be heard. They keep saying that I'm selfish, dumb, and cruel but can't you see that I will never let you win this. Now there's just one more thing that I want them to know, and it is that I will never let my sorrow show. The true me stays forever hidden. My friends and family don't know at all. Right now, I just want to be gone" These were the words Tomike poured out to the counselor. Dear sisters, I know many things are happening i...

There are moments, Where all you just want to do, Is cry out your mind because,  Words are not enough to justify how you feel... There are moments, Where all you do doesn't seem right, Even the things you use to do before... There are moments, Where it seems you are all alone You don't even know how to pray and Nothing seems to work... There are moments, You don't know the answer or reason why life treats you in an unfriendly way Everything seems to be going well but, All of a sudden, things changed You lost so much interest and, All you want to do is to be alone. Alone with your emotions  Alone with the struggle Alone with the burdens Alone and away from people Alone and away from social media... Dear sisters, There are going to be moments in your life Even Jesus encountered some moments in His life but, How prepared are you? Do you wait for the moment to come? Or, Do you prepare and gather enough strength for the moment? Either you like it or not, There are going to be mo...

BATTLE 51 *I FEEL FAR AWAY* "I feel so empty and everything seems so dull. I can barely breathe on my own. The light is gone and dark is back which covers me in endless black, My heart broken on the floor. I cry sometimes and just wish I can feel His presence again.  I need you Him; can't you see? It's obvious, He completes me. I lay on my bed crying all night, praying for things to be all right. For everything, I'm to blame. Remember me forevermore, Please don't erase me from your agenda. My heart will never be the same. Don't remove me from your plans. I knew I loved you from the start but I accepted you" Louis wept "Who is that? And what's his name? Because I feel the love is surreal" Yemi the counsellor asked "My everything, His name is God. These days, I feel I have been so far from him. I have lost my way as Sin as dominated me. I miss His presence and His inspiration. I pray every day for the Spirit of restoration. I want Him back...

How do I say it out? How do I not feel ashamed? I'm weak because I'm dying in my addictions I'm really confused on what to do because, We make it look like it's normal I really wish I can speak out, Who do I even tell and do not make a fool of me? I really wish I can lay off this mask I'm tired of making people see me as who I am The life I am living now isn't what I planned for How can I stop dying? I really need to do something about this" Shayo broke down Dear sister, So that you don't lose your reward,  So that you don't break down, You need to lay down your burden Some of you,  Have left the right way in search of Money Some of you, Feel like a sinner and can't go back to their right way  It's been a rough way but you need to put in your determination to move out Don't be stuck on the same spot Reach out to your father He is waiting for you in prayer Open your mouth to Him, He is ready to listen Don't feel bad about what your pa...

Some ladies are like a bird sitting on the ground and too afraid to fly. They have beautiful wings(talents and gifts) that could make them soar, but the pain of past failure is the cry of their hearts. Yet, God has said unto them, "Trust and have faith in me, for I will carry you in your flight. The miracle of life is waiting for you to see." After the assurance of God, there is still some doubts in them that says, "But I can't fly. I am weak, I am a failure! I will fall and feel pain. It's happened before when I tried to progress. I'm afraid of being hurt again." God said again, "I created you, and I will protect you. Your cry I have heard. Have faith in me. That's all you need to do. Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right h...

BATTLE 50 *IS IT A CRIME?* "What have I done wrong, Why do I keep getting heartbreaks, You know what Sandra, I'm done with relationship I'm done with any guy fooling me and thinking, He is more better than me. I'm just going to sit here and Enjoy my singlehood" Olaide said as she wipe off her tears with the back of her hands "You know I have been saying it all these while, It's not a crime to be single, The thing is that you haven't healed the previous wound before having another one now Then you will assume love isn't meant for you, Meanwhile you are the one abusing it There's nothing bad about being single and giving yourself time It's just a phase and it will pass" Sandra said  Single ladies, Be happy for everyone and yourself, Singles are sometimes blessed because life's not so messed. Everything has a lesson Embrace it for some reason. Don't be mad and sad, Single life is somewhat not that bad, Be very happy because life ...

BATTLE 49 *WHY STRUGGLE?* "Why do I find it this hard? I struggle so much yet, I can't do anything to help it I have tried so many times but, It just don't work, I'm tired, what can I do?" So many times I hear people say "We are so busy, And have no time to pray." Yet they can sit, In front of the screen, Texting or playing, You know what I mean. Why is it so hard To set aside time, To find solitude And pray... Why do we struggle With boredom each day? Yet, not bother taking Ten minutes to pray? So many hours Are wasted each week, When we could be praying For the answers we seek. Dear Sisters, Let's make a plan At the start of each day, To make time for God And in that time -Pray You don't have to start in a way you can't end Just make sure you are aligned. Don't force yourself to pray for hour when you can't Start gradually till you find your feet back but, Don't stop praying Prayer works!.  *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp...

BATTLE 48 *NO ONE?* I do not want your counsel and advice. Where were you all when I was enduring hunger? You were not there when I was thirsty and searching for someone to quench my taste When I was having financial problems, You did not assist me in my hour of need. I thought I could depend on you, When I was in pain but, You were not around to sympathise with me. I needed the comforting words of a friend but, I did not see you... I felt that I was going to succumb to my illness. And I had nobody to call out to for help. You did not even try to find out about my condition. I knew that you could not cure my illness, But your presence would have lifted me. Now, I see you do not really care about my well-being and yet, you make me think you will always be there You led me on that, I should depend on you but you let me down This is not the right way to treat someone... Dear Sisters, I know how you feel and I understand you. I know you might feel disappointed because those you think you c...

"How do you expect me to wear the crown when it hurts? Aren't you seeing what is attached to it? This crown is of thorns... I can't do this, I can't bear it alone, At least it's not compulsory... I don't have to do it,  If I'm not comfortable with it" Adebola said "Really but you didn't know this will be the repercussion, When you were enjoying the pleasure of the thorns Now, you don't want to wear it crown, You have to wear it because you attracted it"..Mind The battle of the mind has now been a serious battle Many of us are in conflict with our minds because we do things against it, As christians, Don't be carried away by the current situation of the country Don't let it push you to do things you ought not to, Dear Sisters The pleasure of sins, Come with its thorn and either you like it or not, It will come to test you and you will have it's taste  But, Most of you can't stand the thorn of the crown The desire of mon...

BATTLE 47 *ARE YOU STILL WITH HIM?* "How do I explain this position I am? I guess, I'm just tired of my faith Nothing seems to work It's taking a lot of time but, How long do I keep waiting on the lord I don't think I can go on ... Nothing has changed in my life Pastor Keep saying I will be great but this time doesn't look good I don't even believe in myself. How much can I believe in God Everyone keep says, I have blackslided but, Nobody knows what is going on with me I don't even understand myself I think I need restoration.. Help me, I want to go back to who I am meant to be I was once spiritual but now, I'm not anymore I'm thinking Christianity isn't even meant for me Help me..." People are bringing me down I just can't get my balance I guess I need restoration" Tumininu said Dear sisters, This is a trying moments, A lot of people are going down the christian lane but, Trust me this is not a time to keep gossiping or talking ab...

BATTLE 46 *A LOT...* People are going through a lot and, A lot are going through some people, Are battling with so much fear? Fear of the next step Fear of unknown Fear of spiritual, physical and emotional battles Among all these,  The worst fear is, Fear of comparison, This moment isn't the time to compare yourself to anybody, That's the reason you bear different names even twins are being called differently  Live your life to please God Take your time to pray, Study, Go out, Have retreats, Attend meetings when needed but never you compare yourself to anyone It affects your self confidence and your general system Don't be lazy and sloughful in your doings. Believe in yourself, Work on improving yourself daily Apply for that which you have always desire and Pray for God's leading on each steps and He will surely led you right! Comparison weakens the spirit, Don't entertain it *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

Few weeks ago, Many things were not going as planned I was tired I was feeling week but I kept trusting God in all. Either it's going to take time or not, I decided to hold unto His words and claimed His promises Everything went well and I was glad I didn't doubted Him.   He sees it all, those silent tears and unending circumstances happening to you He sees it all, those struggles and pain you have been holding unto for a long time.  He sees those moments when things seem difficult, miserable and even life is turning away from you He knows how it feels, remembering those moment you had lost with your beloved ones. Thinking of how beautiful and caring they were and leaving without saying goodbye He knows about those lonely moments and how you wished you could find someone close to you. To understand you and to talk heart to heart matters with, without being misunderstood. He sees how you wonder life can really be unfair to honest and good people like you but all you have to do,...

Some many times, I feel cursed I feel prisoned I feel I'm in a bondage Why? Nothing works for me? Even when I see people that doesn't worth it and I see how things go with you, I wonder why is mine different? Why do I have to live the blame of someone else I don't even think I have the right to myself anymore" Romoke said hurtfully  Breathe in the fresh air,  Put your mind at ease.  Let your eyes wander To all the beauty to be seen.  If those toxic thoughts you still do ponder, Then let out a scream.  Scream until the pain is gone, Until you no longer feel afraid.  Open your eyes to a new dawn, Let the darkness fade.  No longer compare yourself Or your flaws to others' perfections.  Take the negativity off the shelf. Focus on your direction.  Close the door on self-hatred. Never let it back in.  For the lies it would often tell you, You will no longer agree.  Happiness and love are what you should hold onto. They are whom you should...

Lord, at times I come to you, when my faith is not strong. But in your loving arms i fall and you have shown me that i belong. You carry me when i think i can't go any longer. The love you have can only grow stronger and stronger. With you living in my daily life, you are the living God I praise. Thank you for the goodness At times I want to lay it all down to you, and at your feet i fall. You have shown me there is a way and you help me to give it all. You give me the faith to be stronger, even though i may not know. The things that are not of you, you help me to let go. You are my strength, my deliverer, the rock that makes me unbroken. You lead me to be righteous with things I feel are all unspoken. I pray for understanding, but sometimes I may stumble. I look up to you for answers that my world may never crumble. I know at that time you will be there to carry me through it all. You are there to pick me up, even as i may fall. Father, my ever living God, i ask you for your pard...

BATTLE 45 *DEPEND ON HIM* I do not want your counsel and advice. Where were you all when I was enduring hunger? You were not there when I was thirsty and searching for someone to quench my taste When I was having financial problems, You did not assist me in my hour of need. I thought I could depend on you, When I was in pain but, You were not around to sympathise with me. I needed the comforting words of a friend but, I did not see you... I felt that I was going to succumb to my illness. And I had nobody to call out to for help. You did not even try to find out about my condition. I knew that you could not cure my illness, But your presence would have lifted me. Now, I see you do not really care about my well-being and yet, you make me think you will always be there You led me on that, I should depend on you but you let me down This is not the right way to treat someone... Dear Sisters, I know how you feel and I understand you. I know you might feel disappointed because those you think...

"How do I explain this position I am? I guess, I'm just tired of my faith Nothing seems to work It's taking a lot of time but, How long do I keep waiting on the lord I don't think I can go on ... Nothing has changed in my life Pastor Keep saying I will be great but this time doesn't look good I don't even believe in myself. How much can I believe in God Everyone keep says, I have blackslided but, Nobody knows what is going on with me I don't even understand myself I think I need restoration.. Help me, I want to go back to who I am meant to be I was once spiritual but now, I'm not anymore I'm thinking Christianity isn't even meant for me Help me..." People are bringing me down I just can't get my balance I guess I need restoration" Tumininu said Dear sisters, This is a trying moments, A lot of people are going down the christian lane but, Trust me this is not a time to keep gossiping or talking about them This is the time we need to...

I have an invisible friend Who guides me through dark and pain. He always tells me not to give up As he believes in me when I don't believe in myself  When my paths are not clear And I am surrounded by fear, He holds my trembling hands and says, "Oh dear, don't you worry, good days are near!" Even though all I see are my struggles One day I finally asked Him, "How can you be so positive about everything?" "Just like after dark night comes bright day, Just like after every storm comes the calm, Through ups and downs, life always goes on." He said  He made me believe in miracles, Gave strength to my wings. No matters how impossible things may seem, He always make me see positivity  He is the reason I always smile. I never give up, I never blame  Because I have an invisible friend, And Hope is His name! Do you feel down, Do you feel lost Do you think nobody love or want you There's a friend that sticker closer than everyone. His name is Jesus and ...

Sometimes, I feel left out in everything I go to places and I feel I don't belong there I just feel I'm not needed or people pretend like they need me.... Sometimes, I feel betrayed By the one person you think should be of help mostly to you Especially those you dedicate your time and attention to and you think they should help you but later betray you Are they just assumptions? I think I deserve better, I definitely do, I'm trying all my best to feel okay. I'm trying all my best to please them but it's not working I keep hurting myself again and again I feel left out I think after all, I don't matter and nobody cares too Yet, I Keep hurting myself and I just think the only way to be free is to run away from everyone around me who doesn't need me and just stay low. Dear sisters, You need to be strong first,  That should be your weapon  Believe and love yourself Don't live your life like a nobody or like someone who has to please everyone When you came to...

Where did it go? The question I ask myself, I don't understand, How did I lost it? How did I lost that passion for God How did I lost that hunger for God? My God! Yes, I still speak in tongues But, there's no vibe That zeal like I use to have while I was in campus That zeal like the first encounter with Him My God! Where did it go? That Hunger and drive, I can't find it anymore... How did I get here? How did I get back? Someone help me..."NIKE said as she cried... Dear Sisters, In this noisy world, don't lose your voice If there's one thing you should do, is to help yourself become a better person each and every day Remember, our standard is not measured by what we have in this world but how far we have gone in touching lives, helping soul and fulfilling God's assignment. I pray God grants us the grace. ADENIKE is on hold, but we shall continue soon *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

A world of peace, a world of hope. Not full of violence, crime and dope. I want all that's bad to be stopped in its tracks. I want all that's good and filled with all that it lacks. I need this world to become calm. I need all the innocent kept safe from harm. I pray that the day will soon be here. I pray all will be protected, all we hold dear. No more starving, illness or war. Let's step on through, open the door, To a fresh beginning, a place of joy, A wish for every girl and every boy. May the earth heal and feel safe once more. May it start afresh and forget all the horror and bad doings Let it begin, step by step, let the change commence. Let's wake up and use our wisdoms  Many are in pain and struggles each day. Let's all start to help heal, take the hurt away. I wish my dreams would come true, That we can start to save this world, make it good, for me and for you." Elizabeth said  Dear sisters  Let us learn from all our mess, Show more care and kindness...

Hiding the hurt, Hiding the pain,  Hiding the tears that fall like rain. Saying I'm fine when I'm anything but. This ache in my soul rips me so much  I burn from within. The calm on my face is an ongoing deceive, The world must stay out; I've built up a wall. Loneliness consumes me; it eats away the years Until my life is swallowed by unending fears. Waiting for someone to see I wear a mask And care enough to remove it; is that too much to ask? Deborah said as looked at the counselor Dear sisters, I understand the situation of the country but that doesn't give us the privilege to be victims of it I know many are passing through lots of shege even when you try to help others but only a healed person can heal another. If you wait till others sees you, You might not be noticed and before you know it you begin to lose yourself Bible says, come to me you that are heavy laden. Not wait for me. You need to go to God in prayers. Seek Him and invite Him Read books Go out Study t...

"I tell myself that everything's going to be ok, that there is no reason for all this pain. The time it took to change, the time it took to see all those mistakes. The life I had, I can't have back. The choices I made, affected me in all those ways. The mistakes I made have not been forgotten. The tears I shed, the sounds I made, the feelings  that left me feeling in a different way. Yet I can't see why these tears feel so unreal. I'm not the same, my words are unsaid. What I hide is buried deep inside" Funto said as she spoke out to the counselor Dear sisters, To know, to love, to breathe. It hurts to know that you might never be the girl you used to be. What matter most is that you have/will always be strong The feeling is real, the truth is sealed. You cry in the dark because you know its hurt too deep. The scars are real, but the wounds in the heart are another mark. If people only knew what you have been through, or maybe they could take a walk in your sh...

"Hmmm. What's going to happen now" Zoe said as she keeps scrolling through her phone forgetting she has a roommate. Tade coughed down to make her realize someone is in the room "What do you mean by what's going to happen? "Ooh no, I wasn't talking to you. I was talking to myself" Zoe said "We both know that's not true Zoe. Spill it out, what's bothering you?" Tade insisted "Why is it that everyone is doing something? It's making it look as if we that are not doing anything, are not serious with our lives" Zoe said "What do you mean you that is not doing anything, if I may ask? Tade asked "I mean posting something's, having ministry. At least something for people to see that you are moving " Zoe said "I sincerely don't get. What about your evangelism unit? The teens children department you are handling, what are you doing about it? Or what do you call that? Ehn answer me Zoe" Tade said ...

"Tola, I don't think things can be like that? Do you know what people will be saying about me. Some will even say, I have given up on the assignment given to me. Some are even waiting to see the end result but how will I show that, I haven't stopped and just passing through some challenges and need a quiet time" Bibi said as she was seriously worried. "I sincerely don't understand you. Whose approval are you waiting for? If you keep waiting for the praises of men, you will keep pushing and trying to make things right and at the end of the day get choked up. Why care so much about what people will say? You don't need explanation on why to take a break. You can't just keep going without a break except you want to break down and taking a break doesn't mean you have backslided. How do you expect to deliver when you aren't in a good position, it shows you are an HYPOCRITE. Not everyone will understand your break season and that's life for you...

Many at times, especially during the time when you think that you are almost at the point of doing something great for once and you felt so sure that this is it but, something's just happened and the whole desire, zeal and passion you have for such thing just goes down At that point, many thoughts will keep running through your mind... Am I cursed? Are the village people really with me? Can I ever do something great with my life? Can anything good come out of me this year? Why do I feel like such a loser? Yes, you were almost at the peak of getting it right, but it didn't happen . Especially when you think that will be your breakthrough starting point. Dear Sisters, Jesus felt the same way at the time to be crucified but He said "Not my will but yours be done".  This is from someone that knew it before it happened "Let this cup run over me". Sometimes, it will be hard accepting whatever it's going on. At some point, you might think, Yes, I know it's ...

EPISODE 12 "Adenike, what's going on with you? Have you forgotten you have a guy. This guy just collected your number. It doesn't mean he wants to date you, what if it's just friendship. Girl, you have a guy, don't think outside the box" Adenike said as she was talking to herself. She didn't realize how lost she was until her phone rang and it's from Ayoola again "God, I don't even feel like talking to him now, I don't even know why I feel like this" she said to herself but she picked up the call "Hello Ayo, how are you doing?"  "I'm doing fine. Why have you been avoiding my calls?. What's happening to us? He asked as he was really worried "I'm sorry, I couldn't pick your calls. Just getting home, I haven't even entered inside the house yet" Adenike said as she sounded tired "Ooh... sorry. Well, I don't think I will be able to call back. Remember, I told you to give me space for 6 ...

EPISODE 11 " Hey Nike, I'm sure you are going towards akute? Owolabi said as he walked towards her. It was closing hour "Yes, i do. Hope no problem? She asked "No, remember I told you, we will be going home together. I observed and I have seen you twice at akute so I thought we might/should be going home together. If you don't mind" Owolabi said "Okay, it's fine but you might not know, I don't go home....." She couldn't finish her statement as Stella was shouting her name "Na here you dey and I dey find you for office (you are here and I was looking for you in the office)" Stella said "Me, I thought you have gone sef. That's why I came outside hoping I will see you at the junction" Nike said "It's fine and thank God I saw you oo" Stella said as she noticed Owolabi "Hello, good evening bros" Stella said "Good Evening sis. My name is Owolabi but you can call me kudi". He said as he...

EPISODE 10 Adenike got so busy and she doesn't even have time for herself. Her routine has been work/home. She is a committed person and she gives her all into whatever committed to her which has always reflected in her work. A month after, she got promoted which was quite challenging to her because she was moved into another department and she has to start getting close to new faces and interacting with new people "Congratulations" the voice from behind as she turned to see who that was. "Excuse me, I don't know you" Adenike said as she turned to face him "Oh.... That was an attack" he said as he held his chest Trying to hide her smile "I'm sorry if you feel attacked but sincerely, I don't know you. Can you just introduce yourself or do you work in this company too" "Well, yes i work in this company. It's a pity you can't recognize me. You are the lady that helped me at the staircase where thousands of people couldn...

EPISODE 9 It was the beginning of in and out in their relationship. I guess it should be a phase and they will get back together. Adenike has always thought the guy wasn't understanding her and Ayoola has been thinking probably she needs a break but what's happening?. They both started the relationship as God's will. What's going to happen to them? Well, nothing..... I think so. The only time Adenike has for herself is Saturday and it's a day to cover up a lot of work she couldn't do during the day and it's more like a busy day for her even Sunday, she still has some work assigned to her to do. Many times, she wish to resign but when she look at herself, her home and background, she can't even though she knew it wasn't the best job for her but it's just so that she won't be sitting down at home but to also bring something to the table. After her laundry, she decided to have a chat with her sister before resting for the day "Sis, how are ...

EPISODE 8 She finally got the courage to pick up the call after she realized and confirmed she was all alone in the room. "Hello, good morning. How are you doing? Sorry I missed your calls" Adenike said "Adenike, good morning. I have been good and you? Sincerely, I don't know what is happening to us? Ever since you started this job, you have not been yourself. You don't even have time for me. If I call you, you won't pick and you won't call back. If I text you, I get late response from you.  Honestly, it's not been fair and I don't think you can take half of what you are doing to me. Is it because you know I love you so much. We don't even have time for our personal prayers and Bible reading. What exactly is going on? I can't concentrate on anything. I'm worried about you but it seems I'm the only one feeling this same". Ayoola said as he poured out his mind  "Sincerely Ayoola, I don't know what to say. It's not a...

EPISODE 7 Adenike couldn't join the family for morning devotion because of time. So NLP(Next level prayer) became her morning prayer dew as she listen to it from the bus till she gets into the office. Most time, she get to the office early before anyone else, so she keep herself plugged and pray. This was all her plans to keep herself inclined and revived for long but how long can she continue with this? "Good morning Nike" Gbenga said as he got to the office early today. Nike in shock, remove her ear plugs and replied "Good morning Sir".  "You are quite early today, is your place not far from here? Or you are also among the early birds? He asked as he smiled "What is he looking for?Nike thought before she responded. "Actually my place isn't far from here but due to the traffic, I leave home early to arrive on time but to my greatest surprise, the road was free and that's why i'm here early"she said "Ooh...okay. Sorry, are yo...

EPISODE 6 "Ever since she started this job, she hasn't given me a full attention. She hardly even respond to my message even if she is online she doesn't reply frequently. What's happening? Has she seen another person because she has changed" Ayoola said to himself as he picked his phone, called her but she didn't pick up again. By the time Molade got home, Adenike was already sleeping. The next day this time Adenike set alarm an hour before work time. So, she got up and prayed. She was feeling very much better but within her she feel she is drifting apart but at this moment, it was late to back out because she has decided to give it her all and make sure everything comes to pass. "Aunty Molade ..... wake up" Nike said as she knock on her door. Her sister was surprised as she picked up her phone and check the time.  "Nike is that really you? Can't believe you can get up by this time" she said as she open the door. "Me i'm serio...

EPISODE 5 "It was really a stressful day for Nike especially knowing her job comes with an expected target. She couldn't stop but think all the way from office till she got home. The traffic has it's own side effect. A journey of 30mins became 2 hours. She hasn't been close to anyone in the office. She choose to stay alone to avoid office gossip and to subtract additional headaches. "You need space it's too early to get attached to anyone" she always remind herself. "Ahhh .. thank God" she said as she got home.  "Kilosele (what happened)" Her mother asked "Nothing o, I'm just tired and I'm having headache " she said looking extremely tired "Pele (sorry), aren't you going to eat? So that you can rest after" her mother said "Mummy, I don't feel hungry. I just want to sleep and the fact that I have to be present tomorrow at work....Arrrghhh" she sighed "If you don't want to go, you ca...

EPISODE 4 "Hello Nike. Bawo ni (How is it). Are you fine? Is everything okay with you? Are you sure you can cope there? If you cannot please be coming home" her mother said  "Oh Mother! I'm okay. I'm not a small child, if I wasn't convienent I would have gotten home. By the way, I just started I guess I shouldn't be tired now" She said "Okay. Agidi yi nani (it's this stubbornness)" Her mother said "You know what mummy, work is about to start. I will call you back" Nike said as she ended the call Truth be told, she isn't convienent with the job but she can't sit at home and keep begging her parents for money instead of giving them. She has being that kind of person right from the beginning. Even though her sister is working but she still feels the whole financial burden is on her and she just need to do something to help not just at home but to the ministries she is committed too. Did I just hear someone say "I und...

EPISODE 3 Adenike alighted at her bus stop and waved to her sister as the bus left. It was the first day as an official staff of the organization. She was a little bit scared because she didn't know if she will meet up because she has no experience being a customer service rep.  As she was trekking towards the office gate, she began to speak in tongues till she got to the gate. She was following the Morning prayers with Pastor Bolaji Idowu(NLP) "New staff? The security man as he was expecting her to point her card. "Yes" she responded "Okay" He said as he allowed her entered The NLP prayers was still going on so, she connected to it as she was walking towards the office main door. She got there and was surprised that the door was still locked and people were outside waiting for the HR. She wanted to be sure she was in the right place so she approached someone "Hello sis. Good morning, is this KITE COMPANY? She asked gently "Yes. Hope no problem? D...

EPISODE 2 It wasn't the usual way for Adenike. Two months ago, she finished her NYSC but she couldn't get a job with her discipline not because she didn't graduate with a good grade but because there wasn't any job. She got her job through her Elder sister, though it hasn't been easy for her but she just had to do it to avoid sitting down at home and also to assist her retired parents in terms of bills. Being a customer care representative wasn't part of her dreams but it is what it is as people says. "Aunty Molade, I'm done o" She shouted from the room as she arranged her bag "Just come to the sitting room, I'm waiting for you as usual" Her sister replied. Some minutes later, she came out looking well prepared for the day even though she had a short night rest. Adenike is a Christian as well as her family. She is the most spiritual one amidst her siblings. She is the 2nd born and fondly called "Mummy G.O" because of how she...

EPISODE 1 "ADÈNÍKÉ, Omo Oba There's so much you can do You are made to be a queen You are crowned,.. Live long queen of the kingdom.." Suddenly, a strong slap was felt on her left thigh "Wake up! Can you imagine, sleeping like a log of wood" Molade her elder sister said as she continued until she saw her make some moves Adenike, shifted her legs and sat on the bed.  "Aunty Molade, can't you wake someone up in a gentle way must it be in vawulence (Violence). I was having a very nice dream but now, it's all gone. Why are you always like this? "Hmmm, it's like someone has forgotten it's Monday. You will wait tire for bus. Just dey play, if you like go back to sleep. I'm going for general prayers (Morning devotion with the family)" Molade said as she stood up, looked at her for a while and went outside "Oh God! But to be sincere why am I always having this dream and I'm always interrupted. I don't even get to know wher...

Where did it go? The question I ask myself, I don't understand, How did I lost it? How did I lost that passion for God How did I lost that hunger for God? My God! Yes, I still speak in tongues But, there's no vibe That zeal like I use to have while I was in campus That zeal like the first encounter with Him My God! Where did it go? That Hunger and drive, I can't find it anymore... How did I get here? How did I get back? Someone help me..."NIKE said as she cried... Dear Sisters, A lot is embedded in the Novel, ADENIKE and you should not miss out Stay with me as we journey together next week.

Trapped with nowhere to turn,  Everything is changing, Life is changing beyond my control,  causing this deep ache in the bottom of my soul. Someone else is pulling the strings, I want to dig myself out,  filled with despair, filled with doubt and uncertainty. I have been mute not able to express,  this gnawing pain and feeling of relentless distress. Tears that are not visible to the naked eye,  Silent screams that no one can hear. I try to speak but nothing can express,  this feeling of sadness and worthlessness. Emotional pain,  Walks with me through the day,  and sleeps with me through the night,  leaving me depression with no strength to fight. Anger for not having the courage to turn things around,  keeping me anchored to this remorse,  Not able to untie the chains and change my course. Tempting words, Always there to whisper in my ear. Time wasted, Lots of hurt,  Lots to repent. Solace, please come and calm my soul,...

  I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here. I do so much for everyone.  Why don't they show their care? I met this guy who said he loved me,  something I haven't heard in so long. He used me for my money;  What a ride he took me on. There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside. Sometimes I wish my dad were here, but to me he's not alive. I have no one to talk to. These drugs seem to be the only way. Turns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and every day. I know outside I'm smiling; it's the face I fake for you, But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do. I know my family loves me. I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor. I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing here. Can I wake up from this dream? Can I please just disappear?  My dear sisters, There are some situations in life we just need to learn from Life is a training ground and there are many questions we wil...

BATTLE 44 *BONDING* Sometimes, I feel left out I don't know how to express my mind I don't just feel loved enough I think I'm not capable of you You all won't understand I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling right now I just want to feel special I just want to feel loved...Rukayat said Dear sisters  You are special! Created by the hands of God himself! Awaken by His breath! Filled with His spirit! Redeemed by His blood! I hope you find peace in your battles I hope you find light within the darkness I hope you find comfort in your storm I hope you find your smile within the tears I hope you experience the kind of love that stays I hope you find someone who welcomes your broken pieces home. For none on this earth could be measured equal to you! So live as what you are supposed to be! You are the masterpiece of GOD!. Hope in the Lord Romans 5:5 *Light Lamp*

I don't understand why there's pressure inside,  but the pain that comes from it brings a tear to my eye. I haven't talked about it but, I still feel pain inside of me. Is it a heart attack, or is my heart trying to put itself back from the years of being used, broken in pieces, quarters, and even halves When I finally have the courage to look at myself well at the mirror, I see I growth but I have aged. You're so beautiful; you look like an angel to me,  but by now I know wouldn't be receiving such compliments  Who am I to blame? But I guess,  I have a lot of work and time put in,  but for some reason all my attention were about the point  At this point I feel lost. I had inspiration to sing and write,  but now, I can't do anything  I know I must learn to forget,  practice ignorance, pretend to not exist,  I want to forget everything  Before I push the reset button for my heart,  there still a chance for a start. I miss myself...

There are moments, Where all you just want to do, Is cry out your mind because,  Words are not enough to justify how you feel... There are moments, Where all you do doesn't seem right, Even the things you use to do before... There are moments, Where it seems you are all alone You don't even know how to pray and Nothing seems to work... There are moments, You don't know the answer or reason why life treats you in an unfriendly way Everything seems to be going well but, All of a sudden, things changed You lost so much interest and, All you want to do is to be alone. Alone with your emotions  Alone with the struggle Alone with the burdens Alone and away from people Alone and away from social media... Dear sisters, There are going to be moments in your life Even Jesus encountered some moments in His life but, How prepared are you? Do you wait for the moment to come? Or, Do you prepare and gather enough strength for the moment? Either you like it or not, There are going to be mo...

I have an invisible friend Who guides me through dark and pain. He always tells me not to give up As he believes in me when I don't believe in myself  When my paths are not clear And I am surrounded by fear, He holds my trembling hands and says, "Oh dear, don't you worry, good days are near!" Even though all I see are my struggles One day I finally asked Him, "How can you be so positive about everything?" "Just like after dark night comes bright day, Just like after every storm comes the calm, Through ups and downs, life always goes on." He said  He made me believe in miracles, Gave strength to my wings. No matters how impossible things may seem, He always make me see positivity  He is the reason I always smile. I never give up, I never blame  Because I have an invisible friend, And Hope is His name! Do you feel down, Do you feel lost Do you think nobody love or want you There's a friend that sticker closer than everyone. His name is Jesus and ...

Sometimes, I feel left out in everything I go to places and I feel I don't belong there I just feel I'm not needed or people pretend like they need me.... Are they just assumptions? I think I deserve better, I definitely do, I'm trying all my best to feel okay. I'm trying all my best to please them but it's not working I keep hurting myself again and again I feel left out I think after all, I don't matter and nobody cares too Yet, I Keep hurting myself and I just think the only way to be free is to run away from everyone around me who doesn't need me and just stay low. Dear sisters, You need to be strong first, Believe and love yourself Don't live your life like a nobody or like someone who has to please everyone When you came to the world, you came alone and wasn't escorted so, live your life in accordance to God purpose and not according to pleasing people. *Light Lamp* *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

BATTLE 43 *GET YOURSELF BACK* Some days ago, I was feeling bad about me not attaining a certain goal because I had been occupied with many things I guess I have been feeling lazy or No, Laziness isn't the right word... I have been feeling tired about taking the next step But, just when I opened  an app and I saw the opportunity I missed out on, I had a reset and I realized I had opportunities but I didn't make use of them. I was focused on one thing and I forgot the main aspect of me  But guess what, The girl is back Revival is back Dear sisters, Whenever you realize you  have been doing something but you stopped That moment is not to wallow in self pity but, Get yourself back in order. I know sometimes it might take time to realize but, The moment you realize, Don't just feel bad. Sit up Dust yourself Pray to God for strength And focus on it. Ensure a day don't pass before doing something related to that which you have once abandoned Have you stopped writing? Get back ...

Some many times, I feel cursed I feel prisoned I feel I'm in a bondage Why? Nothing works for me? Even when I see people that doesn't worth it and I see how things go with you, I wonder why is mine different? Why do I have to live the blame of someone else I don't even think I have the right to myself anymore" Romoke said hurtfully  Breathe in the fresh air,  Put your mind at ease.  Let your eyes wander To all the beauty to be seen.  If those toxic thoughts you still do ponder, Then let out a scream.  Scream until the pain is gone, Until you no longer feel afraid.  Open your eyes to a new dawn, Let the darkness fade.  No longer compare yourself Or your flaws to others' perfections.  Take the negativity off the shelf. Focus on your direction.  Close the door on self-hatred. Never let it back in.  For the lies it would often tell you, You will no longer agree.  Happiness and love are what you should hold onto. They are whom you should...