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THORIA'S DIARY

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 *ENITAN'S STORY* 


It was all my fault, I could have stopped him but I didn't. I can't believe we both indulged in such act for so long. Oh God! I am ashamed of myself.


We are both ministers child in the same church. We met in church, we became friends and fortunately for us, we got to realize we attend the same university. That boosted up our morale and we began to gist about campus and how we are coping in our various department.


Gradually, when our parent's realized we both attend the same school. They trusted us and allowed us go to school together on our own and from there, we became closer.


Our friends called us couples and we both disagreed, not knowing their words were eventually going to come to pass. Every moment spent with him, made me happy and glad. I was happy I was finally going to be in a relationship with a Christian guy. Knowing his family and everything. We were simply the best but after we started dating, I saw in him some traits that was opposite to the mentality I had about him.


Instead of me to end the relationship, I continued with the hope that things will get balanced. I assumed I was in the hands of a believer but after some months of dating, he slowly became a changed person. He started by requesting for a kiss, sex chat, oral sex which I totally declined.


Then, he moved on to sex, I also declined and I told him it's best we end the relationship because i wasn't ready to give everything he wanted from me. When he noticed I wasn't ready, he apologized and stopped his usual request. Some days after, we were together in his room. We watched movies, played together and had some discussion. Then suddenly, he brought in the suggestion of us having anal sex since I was scared of losing my virginity. 


No, I screamed and reminded him of our position both in school and at home. He pleaded and started confessing his love to me before I knew it, I could not resist it and I gave in. After everything, I could barely feel or understand myself. I felt pains all over me. He gave me some drugs and I rested for a while before leaving.


That lead to the journey of a year of anal sex. It became a normal thing every time we meet and I had to endure all the pains thinking everything will be better. I wasn't myself anymore. I could not think straight and he never saw anything bad in what we were doing. It was later I realized, he never even cared and wasn't a genuine Christian. I broke up with him and he was able to move on with his life while I groan in pains and regret. Especially when I realized I have failed so many people while he keeps forming like a saint anytime he is at home.


Our parent's realized we weren't as closed as before and they tried to bring us back again but it was to late and we told them it's best we stay as casual friends. No more going to school together, etc. It was easy for him to move on but why isn't it easy for me?


To every Enitan,...

Thank God you have realized your mistakes but no matter how ugly it is, you still need God to mould it. He is ready to remould you and bring you out of that pit. Learn from you mistakes and pains. Make a decision not to ever go through that way again.


I want to direct you to read the 2nd edition of voices. You can learn from our dear sisters life experience. Get your copy, it's free by clicking on the link


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Don't let anyone cajole you that anal sex, oral sex, etc is not part of sexual immoralities. It is, as it involves you defiling your temple (body).


God bless us!


I love you!


 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

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