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THORIA'S DIARY

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 *OYINKANSOLA'S STORY*


"Fire woman,

Mama I want to be like you,

We tap into this grace,

More anointing ma,

More grace ma,

Deborah of our time,

Mother of isreal,

Role model,

Prayoo

My mentor...."


These are some of the words I hear everyday but nobody knows what is going on. Nobody knows the real me


If you are reading, don't assume you know what is going on with me until you read to the end.


I weep after every prayer meeting and wish the meeting shouldn't end because I am going back into another life. Sometimes, I wonder what is wrong because I have tried to make it right but nothing seems to work.


I pray like a lion in every meetings but when I am alone I am a lamp. Can you see all those names are not  who am I. I am a public prayoo but not a private prayoo.


I am lifeless in my place of fellowship but I am full of life in public. Oh God....some people even envy me but they don't know what I am fighting and struggling with secretly.


I will be the one to call people and lead them into prayers for hours but I can't pray for 30 minutes alone, I will be sleeping yet people who don't see from within (beyond the surface) will envy me.


More works and assignment were given to me because I am very active. I had all my encounters in public but none in secret. Someone please help me, I have tried every means I know.


I enjoy the group prayers but personal prayer is nothing to talk about. I don't want to tell the pastor or anyone. I don't know how they will see me. I don't want any false interpretation. Most of it all, they will be disappointed because I am not who they think I am.


To every OYINKANSOLA'S,

You need to understand that if you don't help yourself, nobody will. You need to be serious minded in your decision.


See beyond the praises and whatever people think of you and seek for counsel because it's obvious, you are still conscious of your reputation instead of seeking solution.


Speak out to your mentor, pastor or spiritual father. Let them know what is going on in your life. 


Also, you can set days or weeks aside. It is not the time to be surfacing the social media. It is not the time to be gisting. It is not the time to play. Shut the door behind you and play a song that minister to your spirit. Be silent for a while and pray to God(speak in tongues) 


Tell everything to Him, be open before Him. Tell him to restore your altar of prayer. Pray genuinely and sincerely. 


Read spiritual books (Notable ones), listen to sermon and make sure you constantly prayer even if it's for 30minutes everyday. From there, I believe you will move to hours.


Don't give up on your spiritual life. Desire to stretch and grow daily.


God bless you!


Watch out for 3rd Edition of Voices🤗🤗🤗


 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

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