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 *MODUPE'S STORY*


Over the years, I have been battled with lots of things. Mixed feeling, lack of self determination and so on...


At first, I thought it wasn't really a big deal until I realized I tend to follow the path of whosoever I met not forcefully but willingly.


The most painful of it all was when I realized I was in the battle with my mind. I was jealous, desirous, and so on. I wanted the flashy things and I also want to be unnoticed.


I got to realize all I wanted is to enjoy myself but I can't because I came from a Christian home and my parents will be disappointed to see the life I was living because it was opposite the life of being a Christian but I enjoyed myself that way.


I thought I was in a cage and they were stopping me to be who I wanted to be but I got to realize I was the one who got distracted and my parents are only leading me in the way of God.


Whenever I got home, I behaved like the saint but whenever I am not with them but I become something else when I am not with them.


I got to realize the desire started the moment I began to walk with people who understanding were not enlightened. Then, I began to desire their flashy lifestyle, forgetting the way. Jealous set in because no matter how I tried I just couldn't meet up probably, it was God's doing. I began to wrestle in my mind, not knowing which way to go.


I wanted to enjoy my flashy desires and I also want to be the Lady my parents thought me to be.


Hmmm... MODUPE


The journey of breakthrough start the moment you know who you are. Not just your purpose but the reality of who you are in Christ and what the word says about.


This world is full with a lot of things and it start with your desire and decision. You desire and decide who you want to be. Most importantly, who to hand over your life to...World or Word.


The way to put our mind in order isn't by thinking, praying, etc. It's by studying the word. Bible made us realize we study to renew our mind. The mind is powerful and that's why we need to daily renewal it.


Yesterday studies, can't guide you today. You need to constantly study to build up your mind and knowledge against whatever is ahead.


God bless you!


 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

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