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THORIA'S DIARY

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 *TIWALADE'S STORY*


I am sick and tired of everything, I can't keep going I am tired. I am trying to be more than this but things aren't going well. I look like a failure and I know deeply that people are mocking me behind.


Everything isn't just falling in place like I wish it will be. My tiredness is affecting every aspects of my life. I wish I can run away and go somewhere far but I realized, no matter how I keep running, more still keep coming to me.


I am so hurt,

My spiritual life is no where to be found. The weight of challenges and struggles has tied me down.


My financial life is hanging and many things are attracting me, to shift my focus.


Hmmm...my home is not a resting place. A lot of things to think about with the noise and argument going around the house.


My Relationship life is a pitiful one. I keep transferring all the aggression and pain to him. I am even confused about my love for him because everything going around me has taken over my mind. I can't think well.


I have cried too much secretly yet I still need to smile to make people believe everything is fine but seriously, nothing is fine. I gave up on myself. Reading, studying, praying, etc became boring to me.


All I do, is to watch movies and movies yet deeply within me I know it shouldn't be but that's the best way to make me stay happy. Still, the happiness is just for a while. I don't know what to do, help me. There's no one around who can help me.


Even still in my discomfort zone, I still find some people which my words still reviving them. Then, I know it's the lord doing. I know He is still with me even when I messed up and too far from Him.


Hmmm, to every TIWALADE'S,

I know it hurts,

I know things aren't going well,

I know everything you envisioned is not what you are seeing,

I know you wish you can change the situation and do something by yourself,

I know you are tired of everything,

I know you've cried too much and you are still crying secretly but the question is for how long?


For how long will you get depressed because of everything going on around you? Yes, I know you want to be more but you can't be more when you become less of yourself daily and you can't fight the battle to overcome yourself.


Why don't you give the battle to God? I know you have tried and you seem far from Him but His hands are not so short to save you. Go to Him, with all brokenness, pray to Him. Just like Hannah did, after several years of mockery from the other wife. She has being holding all the words and acts but one day, she prayed to God. The prayer of a woman in pains as she was weeping bitterly. She was praying in her heart yet her voice was heard by God (1Samuel 1:10, 13).


Go to God and make your request known, He has seen you. Don't give up on yourself, your family, etc. God is waiting to receive and rescue you.


 *I Samuel 1:1-28*


God bless us!


 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*

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