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MY STUGGLE


*PRISONER*

Why do I feel like no one understands?
Why should I feel like someone should understand?
I know it's not God's master plan?
Because,
I am a prisoner of my thoughts 

Am I supposed to feel so alone?
How do I get off this mentality?
Do I just let it be?
I am incarcerated by my own thoughts
There's no escaping the darkness 
There's nowhere to run or hide, 
I see the happiness glowing, but it is always short lived.

What more does life want from me? I've given all I can give.
No one told me it would be this hard just to live.
I started with a zealous heart but now,
I feel trapped in my own thoughts,
I really want to continue but,
My zeal is dead...

This is not how I used to be?
How did I become this?
I really want more for myself but,
I keep thinking I might not be able to end it well
I have belittled myself with my thoughts...

Dear Sisters,
It's normal to have negative thoughts flowing in your mind
It's normal to get carried away but, it all becomes abnormal,
If you allow it rule you
 
That's why the book of Joshua says,
The book of the law should depart from you. 
Meditate on it day and night
To guide what follows through your mind. 
You can't stop it but you can guide your mind by meditating.
It keeps your thought in check.

Don't give in to those negative thoughts,
The more you allow it sink into you,
The more you become a product of it.
You can break out, when you guide your mind in the right place.
You are a reflection on what you think and feed yourself.

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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