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Where did it go? The question I ask myself, I don't understand, How did I lost it? How did I lost that passion for God How did I lost that hunger for God? My God! Yes, I still speak in tongues But, there's no vibe That zeal like I use to have while I was in campus That zeal like the first encounter with Him My God! Where did it go? That Hunger and drive, I can't find it anymore... How did I get here? How did I get back? Someone help me..."NIKE said as she cried... Dear Sisters, In this noisy world, don't lose your voice If there's one thing you should do, is to help yourself become a better person each and every day Remember, our standard is not measured by what we have in this world but how far we have gone in touching lives, helping soul and fulfilling God's assignment. I pray God grants us the grace. Happy new month ADENIKE, this month💃🏾💃🏾. Anticipate! Anticipate! *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *Light Lamp*

"I know there's something great in me,  Something I struggle to find. The days and months keep passing As I lie here, stuck in my own mind. Always looking for ways to improve myself,  But I struggle to take that first step. I often wonder if this is it for me Or if I'm stuck in my regret. I try to hide my insecurities  Because the worry is just too much, But they wind up shooting out of me with every passing touch. I'm really trying all my best to move on but, I'm still stuck Sometimes I tried doing things a different way but, I still go back to my old ways, I just hope I'm okay or  Probably, there's something about the past I can't let go" Ada said being worried "Don't allow your past get the best side of you and your time I know you are trying to let go, but if care isn't taken, You will find yourself going back Don't hold unto memories, It's okay to reflect but don't dwell on it for too long.. To be completely free, You ...

"I have no idea why it's this way. It switches from one thought to another. I feel like I am being smothered. I can't finish just one thought. I'm under so much stress. There are things I should confess, Some people say I am so strong, But in reality, they couldn't be more wrong. The outer part of me puts on that smile While the inner me has been dying for a while. From a great mood to a silent mood Most of the days I can push through. Today I don't know what to do. It comes with no known trigger. It's not going away; it's only getting bigger. I want to cry, but I don't know what for. I get these terrible pains in my chest Will these feelings only last for today? 'Cause it feels like they will never go away. In reality it seems it is a life sentence is what I got. I wonder if people truly understand What really goes on in my space. How could they when even I don't? How could they when they simply won't? This not only takes a toll on me, ...

"Have you ever find yourself not enough? Have you ever found yourself not good enough? Have you ever found yourself in a tight corner and all you want is space? Have you ever found yourself regretting so many things? Like Oza, all I want is to be left alone, I don't even understand how I'm feeling " Ifeoma said "Ify, why am I getting this feeling that all these, is because of Chinedu What has he done this time or said to you? Oza asked "Why are you always quick to judge? Did I mention anyone name to you? I don't like this and you need to stop " Ify said angrily "Be deceiving yourself, You can deceive everyone but you can't deceive me, This is not the first time of him downgrading you and you are still in the relationship What happened to keeping your mental health stable? You are here brooding over someone who is probably enjoying the best moment of his life. Why exactly is the reason you are still in this relationship? Oza asked "Oza ...

"I wish I can explain something's but, How do I explain it when I don't even understand There are something's I wish to do, Places I need to go, Thing's I'm dealing with, Pressure I'm passing through and lot more.." Janel said "I see the pain in your eyes and feeling like you do. I wish I could take it all away and skip these years for you"Ada said  "Being a teen is so very hard, it really isn't fair To go through all of this and still feel like no one is there" Janel said "You don't have to tell me how you feel, I see it every day, Like nothing you ever do is good enough, or you're just in the way. If you could see through my eyes, how confident and true You becoming a young woman, but still somewhat a youth. I can't make this feeling go away, I can't fix all of your tears, But I can tell you that I know the feelings and the fears. If you ask me how I know all that you are going through, I will answer simpl...

"Tomike really, can you stop all these drama, Are you out of your sense? I can't believe this is coming from you, How can you belittle yourself this much, Over what?" Ifeoma said furiously "You are beginning to annoy me, Is it because I told you, I knew it,  I could have just kept it to myself and  I'm not complaining, how is it your headache? Tomike said "Oh you think I will just watch you ruin your emotions like that, Over my dead body You know what you need to come back to your senses Can't you see this is a one sided love? How can you be in a relationship so glaring that you do more than you receive Is this how desperate you are Tomi?" ifeoma asked "I don't expect you to understand, You are married and heavily pregnant, Look at me Ify (short form of ifeoma), I'm 31 years old and the one relationship that seems to last, You want me to give up on it, never" Tomike said as she was teary "Really Tomi? Look at you,  You look un...

We don't know the truth anymore because, Everyone is trying to say something, Either in the right way or not? It's amazing how you can do well for someone and, You will end up getting betrayed by gossiping about you, People you trust can be the one, Carrying rumors about you to someone else, Just to make jest of you Don't depend on people, Don't listen to the rumors, Don't join the crowd to make jest of people or, Carry rumors you don't know about. It has become the habit of some ladies, To ruin the life of others by carrying fake rumors to people closer to the victim just to ruin the relationship  If you are in this stage you need to stop, Get serious with yourself and other things, There's no gain in mocking someone based on what you heard even if you confirmed it or not  It has not difference  Live your life and free yourself from every gossip, You don't have to talk about someone to be noticed There are better ways to gain attention but not through g...

"How do I explain this pain me, Everytime I try to rise, I fall Why do they keep deceiving me? Why are they playing with my heart? Flora said as she was in tears "Flora, what's happening?  Speak out to us, We share our life experiences here, You never can know who has passed through your situation" Claira said "It was a deep situation, He even said I was the will of God for him, Yet he got married to someone else, After 5 good years of my life When did I stop being the will of God for him, There's nothing I haven't thought about, This same guy deceived me to fulfil his pleasures, After all these, I was still dump I'm done with this so called relationship They are all deceit" Flora concluded "Fear those spiritual brothers, not to talk about Men generally" Bimbo shouted from behind Hmmm... I know some ladies, have seen shege from Men, Believer/unbeliever Some are still trying to cover up every sin because they love Him and respect Him bu...

Why is everyone blaming me? Many at times, people carry a lot of assumptions without hearing the story, We are also passing through a lot, There's a lot to say" Dupe paused to check their reaction. Knowing fully well that I'm they don't understand what she was saying, she had to come out plain "Off course, I'm a single mother but why do people look at me like shit, an harlot? I had instances where I was in serious relationships but after hearing I'm a single mother, They flee Yes I accept I made mistakes but why does everyone keep seeing me as a mistake. Even at work, it's either men make sexual advances or everyone just assumed I am a loose/cheap lady Nobody even wants to listen, why? Why does it look like I'm the only one that has the greatest sin in the whole world? Why don't they blame the guy too? It amazes me, how fellow women can take up the judge position but fails to blamed the guy too I often hear statement like,. Nobody want to marry...

*T.F.D(The First Daughter)* Many words left unsaid  Many things are unseen But, who can relate What we see most of the time is the result Nobody knows how you got there" Pedro said as she was sharing with the ladies but most of them couldn't understand as she wasn't clear with her words "Sometimes you might thinks, it's easy to be like someone but, Most people don't see the sacrifice, struggles that comes with it. Hmmm" Pedro sighed as she continues "Off course, I am the first daughter and I'm expected to be a role model. Behind the role model, There are some struggles to put a smile on your siblings There are some unhappiness you want to break free but you can't because you want to sacrifice There are some moment you also want to act like a baby even in the midst of every situation but you need to pull yourself together because you are the older one and you have to lead There are moments you starve yourself just to put smiles on your younger...