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DON'T LOSE YOURSELF


"I have no idea why it's this way.
It switches from one thought to another.
I feel like I am being smothered.
I can't finish just one thought.

I'm under so much stress.
There are things I should confess,
Some people say I am so strong,
But in reality, they couldn't be more wrong.
The outer part of me puts on that smile
While the inner me has been dying for a while.

From a great mood to a silent mood
Most of the days I can push through.
Today I don't know what to do.
It comes with no known trigger.
It's not going away; it's only getting bigger.
I want to cry, but I don't know what for.

I get these terrible pains in my chest
Will these feelings only last for today?
'Cause it feels like they will never go away.
In reality it seems it is a life sentence is what I got.
I wonder if people truly understand
What really goes on in my space.

How could they when even I don't?
How could they when they simply won't?
This not only takes a toll on me,
But it affects my friends and family,
Especially those days I cannot hide
The deep dark depression I feel inside.

Some days I'm just not strong enough.
Some days are just too tough.
But most of the days I seem to manage
To get through them without serious damage.
Things aren't usually this bad,
But you won't know which I have had
I can't keep that clear though in my head.
I wish I'm done with this depression" Janet said 


"How can you bottle all these up,
How did you allow these thoughts weigh you down and now you are depressed
Janet, I already told you,
You need to be intentional about your life
It even looks like you have accepted all these shit about you,
This is not God's plan for you,
He didn't create you to be depressed 
You need to snap out every negative friends, vibe and thoughts
Everyone has what they are passing through but we just make sure we don't lose ourselves in the process" Chidinma said

Depression can steal wonderful moment from you,
Ensure you don't find yourself there,
You will know and feel the signs,
Don't wait till it gets worst,
You need to learn how to speak out and seek advice from trusted fellows.
Your mentor, role model, pastor, parents, etc

I love you and I care about you, to everyone reading!

*Alokan Temilade Victoria*
*Light Lamp*
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