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THORIA'S DIARY


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 *SADE'S STORY*

Only if i had known that staying in the  hostel with the 3 ladies I met in the  room was a journey into another world, I would have avoided them.

"Hey S.U, you think any guy will love the way you are".... " You have to learn how to dress attractive "...." This your make up is too cool, do something flashy" these are their words to me each time I am about to go out but I smile softly to them, thank them and walked out.

Shortly, did i know their words will come to pass. Something happened, it was unusual and i started noticing anytime we all go out. I will always be the only one left out. No guy will ever approach me and I began to think something was definitely wrong with my dressing but I don't dress like S.U. I dress moderately with my normal cool make up. Unlike them, they dress expensively and wear revealing clothes.

The same thing happened again one day we all went to the eatery. At night, I couldn't stop thinking and I began to ask myself questions... "Is there anything wrong with my dressing? Or am I not beautiful enough? Why am I always left out among my roommates? Or does my dressing, truly makes me look old? After asking myself with no responses, I told myself that I know what to do.

I woke up early the next day before anyone else in the room, had my bath and picked up Cynthia's dress and I wore it. When they woke up and saw me, they were all happy and surprised as they started praising me with their words. They also sat me down and did my make up. Though I wasn't feeling comfortable in her cloth but I wanted to know if truly its all about me or my clothes. As I stepped out of the room, everyone in the hostel began to look at me differently.

No one has ever commented on my dressing so much since I have been staying in the hostel. Getting to the class, the most unexpected of all happened. Bob, my crush in the class called me and said " Sade, you look different and beautiful". I was surprised and I couldn't stop myself from smiling all through the day.

Immediately, I got home I shared my experience with my roommates and they saw how happy I was and they promised to get me more cloths and also take me out. Gradually, I became addicted to their lifestyle and my interest in kingdom advancement reduced drastically as i got several calls from the fellowship. 

Not only that, I became a tool to the guys and my roommates. I began to enter places I was supposed not to be recognized with forcefully. It took me several months before I realized how the mistake of one day misled me. Though I know I have  gone far but I want to reconcile back to God. 

During those days, I never knew I had people who admired and aspired to be like me silently. When they all began to talk to me, I couldn't do anything than to cry. I want to go back to my identity in Christ, can I still be accepted?

To Sade, Yes...God is ever ready to accept you and I believe during those moments, you have surely learnt something's from your actions.

Learn to guide your heart diligently, know the kind of people you walk and associate with. Let God's opinion matter and not man's opinion. Also remember the world will give you a standard but remember, our standard is in God and whatsoever that glorifies God will not be accepted among those that doesn't glorify God. Always remember, your dressing attracts your kind.

You cannot be among those who dresses to expose themselves and won't be accepted as their kind. Don't be carried away, people will call you different names and say different things to distract you but you must hold unto your identity and believe in yourself and whatever you wear.

Not every S.U is an S.U. The world will call you that because you don't dress up to their standard. Be careful and beware

God bless you!
I love you...

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*
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