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THORIA'S DIARY


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Welcome to Thoria's Diary.
Stay with me as we journey together.

 *BORI STORY*

"I am strong, i am balanced and nothing can happen" My usual anthem that got me into trouble.

I met Dahunsi at the ATM stand, under the scorching sun. We were both on the queue, contributing to the discussion a sister from the back raised. After that, we both withdrew our money and he requested for my number but I refused. 

Though, he was my kind of guy but i didn't want to look cheap. I was forming hard to get. So, we waved to each other and left to our various destination.

Getting to church on Sunday, as usual as the Head usher. I was standing at the entrance of the door, when I saw him approaching. I was surprised and I asked myself "Is he stalking me now? As i welcomed him with a broad false smile and handed him the offering pulse.

After the service, he came to meet me immediately I was through with my band meeting and I bombarded him with series of questions which he answered. He also said, he has been attended the church for a long time and he knows me even before we meet at the ATM stand.

I apologized to him and then he requested for my number again and I gave him. That was how the journey started and before I knew it, we were in a relationship. We started visiting each other.

One day, I visited him again but this time, it was already late and I couldn't go home. Though he advised me to stay in one of his friends room, a lady who stays next door but I refused. I said to him, I *am emotionally strong and nothing can happen* but the table turned around. 

Something happened that night and I couldn't resist it. I didn't know how it happened. I couldn't just stop him and then, the next morning, I broke up with him even before he could say anything because I was ashamed of myself. A whole head usher and Evangelist daughter.

I started avoiding him even in church which he noticed. Then one day, after service I saw him talking to a lady. I couldn't hold myself as I went to meet him and dragged him out. He was surprised and he asked me what I wanted. I told him I still love him and I can't stand him talking to another lady. I also can't stand his presence. Before, I knew it he took me it into arms and kissed my forehead. Then our love journey started again.

He told me to put the past behind and invited me to his house. Though, I told him I won't stay long and he agreed. So, i went to his house but I was so engrossed with all the discussion and fun that I didn't desire to leave again. Finally, when we checked the time it was late. We both looked at each other and we made promise not to cross the lane but what do you think? It happened again and this time, something unplanned happened. He apologized again and I left angrily.

After some days, I was feeling tired and sick. I decided to go to the hospital and i had some test. When the test come out, it shows that I am pregnant. Now, I am with his child, I don't know how to tell him and I don't want to tell him.

I told my friend after several thought of aborting the baby because of the shame I have brought upon God, my parents and myself. My friend looked at me and she said, "Hmm, Bori...I taught you used to say I am emotionally strong and nothing can happen. So, you don't need to set boundaries. Can you see what you did to yourself?

Hmmmmmm...my dear sisters. Never believe in your ability. Never believe you are too strong to be tempted. Bori, set the pit with her self believe.

Learn to set boundaries in your relationship. No matter who you are with, remember you both are humans and it will always want to demand especially when you are with the person you love. There is always a feeling you get.

To every Bori....Yes I know you have made the mistake and now, I am sure you have learnt from it but abortion is not the next step. Don't think of killing the innocent child because he/she knows nothing about it. You invited the child so, you have to take the responsibility.

Confess to God, your parents and pastor. Though, it's going to be a shameful situation but you have to carry the cross and trust God to lead and guide you right. 

I believe someone has learnt something from my diary today

God bless you!
I love you!

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*
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