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THORIA'S DIARY


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 *REBECCA'S STORY*

I never believed anything was wrong with me until I noticed I wasn't who I used to be. What could have happened? How did I get myself here? These are some of the questions flowing through my mind.

As a new student in the flat, my flatmates invited me to their church and it happened to be the church I attend at home. I was so happy and I embraced it and thanked them for deeming it fit to invite me to church, as I anticipate my first Sunday service in a new environment.

Finally, the day arrived as expected and I was waiting patiently for them to open their doors but it happened that as I opened my door, they also opened their doors. "What a coincidence", I thought as we greeted each other and proceeded to church.

Getting to the church, I felt at home and enjoyed the service. After the service, I went to greet the pastor and I introduced myself to him. He welcomed me and was very happy to have me in the church. Susan, one of my flatmates is in the Choir department and Lilian, is in the prayer department.

Also, the pastor encouraged me to be attending the weekly programs too and I began to follow my flatmates to church. Then, the struggle begins...Susan and Lilian were always assigned to take up something's during the service and I get none. I thought probably because I am still a new member but does that matter, at least I attend the same church at home. That should be one of the reasons I should get engaged in the activities.

Lilian and Susan also encouraged me to join a department which I humbly did with the expectation of leading or doing something in the church but no, I wasn't still assigned to take anything. So, each time Lilian and Susan steps on the the altar to lead us in prayers/praise and worship. I feel bad and angry within me. My mood get changed and I feel down. I also want to step on the altar to lead the church. 

Unknowing to me that Lilian and Susan were noticing everything. They called and explained things to me. They made me realize it was 2 weeks before I came they started stepping on the altar after 4 months of attending the church. I was surprised and speechless after everything, I thought it's about coming early to church,  attending all the services. I never knew how I was so engrossed with stepping on the altar and everyone seeing me. I thought it was love for things of God, I never knew it was all about satisfying my selfish desire. Though, I am willing to serve but I have forgotten service to God comes with patience and sincerity.

My dear sisters,
Don't compare the service of others to yours.
Don't struggle to be known or seen.
Let God announce you and show you to the person

Never think coming to church early, attending service, etc has automatically guarantee you the right to step upon the altar to lead the congregation. Your heart must correspond to your service and not your punctuality, attendance or actions.

Don't rush,
Don't be rude, 
Don't be angry,
Don't be depressed,
Don't be frustrated.

Let God's will be done and not your will.

God bless you!

 *Alokan Temilade Victoria*
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