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There are going to be several moment in your life and this is based on your response to what life throws at you. For some, it's a sad moment and for some it's a joyful moment. There is a saying that... " *When someone is crying, at that same time in that same day, someone else is rejoicing"* but sometimes, we can create a moment in our life, based on how we choose to respond to it. Some of you are even tired of people telling you, God is in control and He sees it all because none of these words have you experienced but I tell you today, that is true. They were moments in my life where I was scared because of my past failures and I kept asking myself "Can I really do it". My parents and people around kept motivating me but I couldn't see it or feel it. I wanted something that I could feel or experience and say "Yes, I can do it" More like, I wanted God to give me a confirmation that, He is truly with me. Fine, words from people were quite true a...

"Sholly (short form of Shola)...Do you think, you are doing the right thing. Isn't it obvious what this guy wants? Yinka asked  "Yinka....don't tell me you are jealous o. Now, I understand you" Shola said  "Hmmm...jealous of what? I am just surprised on, how you are blindfolded by your feelings. Shola, isn't it the same guy that you complained to me was harassing you with his words? Yinka asked "Yes and how many times will I have to explain to you that He is a changed being. He isn't who you think He is, he has apologized to me. What then, are you now seeing? Shola asked "Shola this guy is playing on your intelligence. How can you not see it? Someone you corrected not quite long, just starting sending you bible quotes suddenly and he became interested in the word. Someone, he told you not to talk to him about it.  So, tell Him what changed Him. Have you confirmed it and are you sure about it? Probably he has a hidden plan for you, do you ev...

God help us to be patient, even in the midst of our craving. Amen! Smiles, seriously what you are about to read, might sound funny but trust me it actually taught me something's. I remembered one day, I actually craved to drink Pepsi and knowing the fact that it's was going to be a chilled one was an additional bonus and I didn't want to miss it.  So, I went to fridge and took the drink without the consent of my mom. I knew I had drank some before so, it was likely i wouldn't get any drink or I thought she might not allow me take one. That was why I decided to do it silently in my own way. Then the next day, my mom told me to take a drink even without informing her. I was suprised, I even taught she knew I took a drink and wanted to ask me about it but instead she gave me the opportunity to take a drink. I felt bad and I told myself, only if I had wait a little while. The same way God wished someone somewhere had waited a little while. Sometimes, in our craving for thin...

"Adebimpe...I can't do it anymore. I am tired, I don't know what I have gotten myself into. I got carried away and now I have to bear whatever comes after it" Adebola said. "Adebola...can you explain yourself well so that I can fully understand you because I do not know what you are talking about" Adebimpe said "I also don't know how to say it. I am even ashamed of myself and I am about to break the trust of those who trusted me. I think I shouldn't bother you with my problem" Adebola said. "Bola, it's fine and i am not complaining. So speak up, I am available to listen to everything" Bimpe said  "Thank you sis. You might not like what I am about to say because you have warned me about it but I didn't listen. I got carried away by those honour and names. I was blind folded by my feelings. The butterfly feelings and my actions were based on it" Adebola said. "Hmmm...go on, am still with you" Adebimpe sai...

"Ahn Ahn...Deborah. What's happening to you? Do you know nowadays all you do is to complain and yet I don't even understand you" Mary said "Don't bother Mary. It will be fine. It's just a phase and it will be over soon" Deborah said as she frowned her face. "I insist, tell me what's going on. Say it anyhow, I will understand. Just let me know what's happening in your life" Mary said "Okay, I will. Actually, it's about the position given to me 6 month ago. I don't think I can continue again. I am tired and I want to do something else with my life. It's taking most of my time and many things are happening in my life now. I need breathing space, I feel choked and i also want to grow" Deborah lamented as Mary laughed. "Mary...why are you laughing? It's not funny o. I am serious. I can't continue again" Deborah said angrily. "Seriously Debo (short name for Deborah). I am sorry but I don't ...

Dear readers, I know you have learnt one or two things from every episode. To every mother, it is not just enough to train your children with materialistic things. How often do you pray with/ for them? It's not just praying once in a while. How well do you know your children? Do you spend time with them? Do you share their pains together? Are you sensitive to them, not just their needs? Mothers are blessing to their children, you are the first person they know at birth, before their fathers. You should help them build their foundation and not destroy their foundation. You have the greatest impacts in their lives. I believe we all learnt from Mrs Alabi mistakes. To every father, God has given you the responsibility of being the head; do not misuse that opportunity by battering your wives. Both of you have your roles in the family; to you have been given the ministry of the head. Also to her, have been given the ministry of a helpmate not a beat mate. The two of you are joined togeth...

 *THE TESTIMONY*   *Episode 29*  Finally, the level she was expecting arrived. 400 level, the most challenging level of her life. She faced a lot of storms that caused her less time for herself and she shed tears almost every time secretly. Project works, church assignment as she was appointed as the Sisters coordinator. Her relationship was going well with Pastor Dara. She blessed God for leading him to her. Sometimes, she would want to give up on her relationship but the conviction she had, kept her going. Tolani could not stop praying for her family, especially her brother. After some days, she received a lot of calls from her parents concerning the salvation of her brother. He had an encounter with God and also, the testimony about her sister and dad's life made her believe, God surely hears the cry of the righteous one. God restored love and unity admits her family and they all forgave Mr Alabi. She thanked God and she never seizes praying to God, to make her fa...

* THE MEETING * * Episode 28 * "You know we are one family" That was the statement she could remember out of everything he said. She became very angry at herself, after everything. She told Tara and within her, she knew it would end soon, because of the revelation God showed her and she encouraged herself by saying “Tolani, whatever would be for me, would not pass through the fence. The revelation she got, strengthened even before the break up and she didnt cry. She was just pained because of everything that happened to her. Their relationship was just an emotional relationship based on a crushing level. He had someone else in mind alongside with her, but he does not know who to go for. They fell in emotions, not in love but she thanked God they don't end up being together and she still respect him. * SCHOOL * 300 level was the worst level ever as she had 4 Carry over. "How am I going to cope" she said as she was crying. "Why is it that, the h...

 *THE KISS*   *Episode 27*  Her results for both semesters came out and she had Bs, As, Cs with F. She cried so much, and she could understand what Tara felt the other time when she had F. "God, what is happening in my life? I need your help" She cried out. Tara understood how she felt, and she urged her not cry but instead have faith in God, miracle could still happen. Tolani held unto those words though, she was unstable in believing that. She made sure that did not affect her fellowship with God, and was more committed to her works and assignment. Tolani was a blessing to the church through her worship, God worked in her concerning music. Her understanding about songs was enlightened and whenever she was called to minister, she sang as being led by the Holy Spirit and with all her heart. She could not understand what God was doing and anytime she was been called on, she never went to the altar faking everything about her. It was real and her school father was glad...

 *THE REVEALED PERSONALITY/ENCOUNTER*   *Episode 26*  Tolani became uncomfortable, due to what Tara said in the afternoon. She picked her phone and browsed on low self-esteem. She found all the characteristics of someone with low self-esteem and immediately, she knew she was struggling with it. She was dependent on people's words. She doesn't believe in herself. She placed her esteem on what people say about her. The most painful thing was that, she does not look at mirror because she believed she was too fat, she does not have perfect brows and figure. She waited for the praises of men, [male and female] on whatever she does or wears to feel good. As she was reading them, tears were flowing down from her cheeks and she blamed her parents because they were the cause of whatever was going on with her. That was her unknown personality which was not clear to everyone, especially herself. She believed she does not have to tell Tara because she knew about it; she only nee...

 *DAVID ATTROCITIES*   *Episode 25*  Tolani's break for the first semester was over, as she returned back to school. She attended Gcf (Global community fellowship) where her knowledge about Christ was renewed, as she came out of living a doctrine and religious lifestyle. She joined the church choir, which increased her knowledge about music. One day, the church organized a program, where they invited ministers from their headquarters. While the program was going on, one of the ministers who prayed for her had a revelation, telling her to end her relationship that there is a greater one waiting for her. She felt bad and if affected her mood throughout the day. She did not know what to do, as she told Tara and Mr Tomiwa [her school father]. She met him during their orientation class in 100 level and she seeks for their advice's before taking actions. He supported what the minister said, as he wanted her to be focused on her growth into the knowledge of Christ. For days...

 *THE SCHOOL JOURNEY 1*   *Episode 24*  Tolani introduced herself to her bunk mate, as she climbed the bunk to stay on her bed. Tara was given Pharmacology, a gentle Lady and always on her own. She loved her privacy so much, as she and Tolani hardly had time for each other. She was a Muslim by birth but she claimed to be a Christian, as she attended a Christian secondary school which increased her knowledge about Christ. How they started talking to each other, was a miracle. Tolani and Tara became close as they attended lectures together and they understood each other. Though she was older than her but, it was not obvious as they relate with each other without minding the age differences. 100 levels was stressful due to the registration processes, trekking from the hostel to the lecture room under the hot sun, waking up early to sit at the front row but, it was the best level ever because of the allowance and foodstuffs her parents always send without requesting for ...

 *THE ADMISSION*   *Episode 23*  Tolani could not stay long with a guy, as the thought of having sex with him would reflect. It occurred whenever she talked with Ayomide but thank God, it was a long distance relationship. He was in Lagos and she was in Magboro. Every day, she prayed to God and she stopped visiting those sites often, as she believed recovery is a gradual process and she was on her way there. Her Waec result came out and it was good as she had E8 in English language and her Jamb score was 180. So, she had to combine her GCE and Waec result for her admission processing. Iremide and others were also processing their admission, as they choose different institution. Tolani graduation was awesome as she enjoyed herself and also, the thought of missing her class mate, kept coming to her mind with various memories. She stayed at home for a year because of her result, as she had to write GCE and Jamb again. Iremide was the first person to gain admission among ...

 *ADDICTIONS*   *Episode 22* Rebecca was also not getting it right in relationship. The first guy she dated, their relationship lasted for 3 years and she was older than him but she doesn't care, as love was involved. She was a pretty girl and she got men at the tips of her hands. Tolani had two other friends apart from Rebecca, and they were her church member. Mostly, they come to meet her at home, because Tolani had to stay in shop and assist her mom but, they never saw it as anything wrong. Iremide was the baddest and craziest among them. Followed by Busola but they both have a nice attitude. Rebecca, the Jesus baby among them and Tolani was in the middle, not knowing where she belonged. She moved with anyone or anything that flows, since she was struggling with an unknown personality, low self-esteem. Tolani encounter with Iremide caused her to be a Pornography addict which led her into sexual urges. It all started, after a glorious service. Iremide called her to see ...

 *FALL APART*   *Episode 21*  Mr Alabi lost his job. A week later, Mrs Alabi dropped her resignation letter, as the company she worked with was about to be sold out and she could cope with their new offers, rules and regulations. David became a professional thief and the leader of cultists, as he began to initiate new members. “Why are all these happening? Could it be as a result of a non- prayer life, lack of unity and love" Bola thought After the morning devotions, Mr and Mrs Alabi asked their children to sit down as they explained everything necessary to them. "I want you all to know, I am jobless for now till I find something to do. I want you to know that, things might not go the usual way but I want you all to be focused on your academics" Mr Alabi said Tolani kept wondering what happened, while David and Ibukun were not bothered, as part of them still hated him and was happy for his downfall. Mr Alabi tried many businesses, but there was no profit. So, he deci...

 *NEW BORN*   *Episode 20*  The punishment Tolani received was three days of fasting and prayers in church, with cleaning of the environment. She gladly received it, as she felt she needed it. After what she had been through, she decided to give love a break. Rebecca pitied her, because every of her love story was bad.  Mr Alabi forgives David as he asked him to return home, everyone was happy as they missed him. He prostrated, as he begged his daddy that he would turn a new being. Some month later, Tolani sat in the room, and was checking through some of their recent pictures. She couldn't stop smiling and at the same time, she was crying as she remembered her past mistakes and how life was treating her. Then, the face of her mum got her attention. For the past few months, Mrs Alabi had being behaving differently. She had been so energetic and hardworking though, there was house help at home but she virtually does everything at home, and Tolani kept wondering w...

 *THE BREAK UP*   *Episode 19*  Mr and Mrs Alabi, does not know about Tolani's relationship, only Rebecca knew about it because she knew it was not right but she felt she needed it. Tolani began to feel among. Everyone in the class knew, but her group friends were shocked because among them, she was the least person they expected to be in a relationship. Tolani was enjoying the new phase of her life, her relationship with Opemipo. She downloaded love messages application and send him texts at night as she dare not receive calls, during the day because of her parents. So, she was always online with her phone in silence and having secret night calls inside her wardrobe, where no one could hear her. It was not really a problem as love was involved. He knew everything about her secret calls, etc. Things were really going fine between them for months, even though his love could not solve every of her problems but she loved him. Despite her unknown personality, he still lo...

 *THE RELATIONSHIP*   *Episode 18*  Opemipo could not stop thinking about Tolani. Every night, he stared at her pictures to behold her beauty with amazing curves. One night, he checked through her Facebook profile, to get her number since she refused to give him her number. Though, she desist people that does it but he didn't care about what she could say. He really loved her and he needed to speak with her urgently.  Tolani was with Rebecca when her phone rang. Sometimes, Rebecca sleeps in their house. She checked the time; it was 10:00pm. "Who is this? Why is this person calling by this time? She said as she reduced the volume of the phone and hanged the call to avoid daddy's trouble and unnecessary questions. Rebecca was about to sleep, but she got distracted by the call as she stood up and said "Why didn't you pick your calls? I understand you are scared of daddys actions, if he finds out but there is a way you could speak without him hearing you" Tolani ...

 *SENT OUT*   *Episode 17*  David became worst every day. Not only was he stealing, it was also mixed with discontentment. Mrs Alabi kept wondering where she had failed as a mother.  "Is it not because of my children I am working, all I want is the best for them. I want them to look good and wear the best. I also pray for them" She said as she talked to herself.  She wanted to pray but she couldn't, as she expressed herself in tears. Mrs Alabi always prays and anoints her children anytime they begin a new session. Also, when they are about to start their exams. Opemipo and Tolani started chatting on 2go and Facebook. They knew virtually all about themselves, but Tolani never discussed about her family. Few weeks later, he wooed her. Tolani became scared and wished he never wooed her; she loved him as a friend.  "I cannot believe he could say that, I don't want a relationship and I am not ready for one" Tolani said as she was discussing with Rebecca. "D...