*ADDICTIONS*
*Episode 22*
Rebecca was also not getting it right in relationship. The first guy she dated, their relationship lasted for 3 years and she was older than him but she doesn't care, as love was involved. She was a pretty girl and she got men at the tips of her hands.
Tolani had two other friends apart from Rebecca, and they were her church member. Mostly, they come to meet her at home, because Tolani had to stay in shop and assist her mom but, they never saw it as anything wrong. Iremide was the baddest and craziest among them. Followed by Busola but they both have a nice attitude. Rebecca, the Jesus baby among them and Tolani was in the middle, not knowing where she belonged. She moved with anyone or anything that flows, since she was struggling with an unknown personality, low self-esteem.
Tolani encounter with Iremide caused her to be a Pornography addict which led her into sexual urges.
It all started, after a glorious service. Iremide called her to see something on her phone, as she was lonely. She stood up with a glad soul to see, but what her eyes met made her screamed as Iremide cover her mouth. She knew it was wrong but she kept watching it, not to satisfy herself but Iremide. Getting home, she kept on thinking about what she saw and she suddenly desired to see more of them. Iremide would sometimes; send some to her phone, whenever she was around and they watched some together.
Her grades in school kept reducing, as her mock exams was nearby but she was busy discovering sex sites and she became addicted to them as she masturbated. Also, she would sneakily send some from David's phone to watch. Nobody knew about all these, including Rebecca and nobody suspected her because it did not change her look. She knew it was bad, but it was hard for her to stop.
"Oh God, see what life and lack of parental care caused her" Kikelomo said.
Tolani could not tell her mother about her addictions because; she knew how she would reply and what she would say. She kept it within herself. Sometimes, she asked herself if her mother truly gave birth to her, or she was adopted
“What then, is the role of her mother in the family? Does she think its all about providing for them alone? Now that she is not working, she ought to get closer to them" Kikelomo said out of anger, tears and pain.
Everyone did not understand, what was going on with her but it seems every of the story, had something to do with her. Miss Abosede took a deep breath and she continued.
Tolani later realized that Iremide wanted her to be her lesbian partner. She rejected it, and told her how far she has spoilt her life. She also told her to stay away from her.
Months later, Iremide begged her and told her to stop watching them and be normal friends without anything attached.
"Ooh, you think its easy for me to stop watching it just like you" Tolani said as she was crying.
Later, Tolani accepted her apologies but she could not quit watching pornography by her strength. She needed someone to talk with but, there was nobody as she cried out and prayed. Not only was she addicted to pornography, she was also addicted to Romance novel, which was introduced to her by her aunt. She began to build her home on the novel fantasy, and she sought for more novels to read.
"Tolani, you are getting lean o and I am sure, its because of the books you are reading every day for your Waec [a West African examination] Pele [sorry]" Mrs Alabi said because that was the only thing she noticed and thought it was because of exams.
Tolani smiled faintly and stood up to her room to cry, as no one understood her.
Finally, the days for her Waec exams arrived as she prayed to God for assistance. Also, Mrs Alabi laid her hands on her head and anointed her as she prayed for her.
The exams had been great, and she had people who assisted her. After each paper, she waits in school for extra tutorial among the students and mostly, she studied with Victor who was her secret admirer in class and he was one of the brilliant students of their sets. Whenever she was with him, she always had this sexual feeling which was as a result of the pornography she had watched. Whenever those feelings showed up, she would excuse herself from that environment but and she never stop praying to God. She was determined, as she stayed away from everything that raises her sexual hormones and prays to God to strengthen and help her as she overcomes.
Also, during the exams period was the most embarrassing moment of her life as she was caught cheating with a jotter. She was only trying to copy her friends, who were strong but she ended up being caught. The supervisor begged on her behalf and she was pardoned but, she was so ashamed of herself as everyone couldn't believe she could do such things. After the exam, she ran straight to the toilet and locked the door as she began to cry. Her friends followed her and begged her to open the door, so that they can go home. She managed to open the door and they held her as they walked out of the school compound.
Stay with me as we journey together.
*Part 23 will be posted tomorrow by 9:00am*
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