*THE KISS*
*Episode 27*
Her results for both semesters came out and she had Bs, As, Cs with F. She cried so much, and she could understand what Tara felt the other time when she had F.
"God, what is happening in my life? I need your help" She cried out. Tara understood how she felt, and she urged her not cry but instead have faith in God, miracle could still happen. Tolani held unto those words though, she was unstable in believing that.
She made sure that did not affect her fellowship with God, and was more committed to her works and assignment.
Tolani was a blessing to the church through her worship, God worked in her concerning music. Her understanding about songs was enlightened and whenever she was called to minister, she sang as being led by the Holy Spirit and with all her heart. She could not understand what God was doing and anytime she was been called on, she never went to the altar faking everything about her. It was real and her school father was glad, as she was growing into the stature of Christ but he didn't give up in prayers about her life.
He became closer to her, as he would go to her house to pray with her concerning every aspect of her life, play and sometimes, sleep over.
Tara asked her "I hope nothing is going on between you and Pastor Michael"
She smiled and replied "No o, nothing but can I tell you something, I think I am in love with him. You know he has been my crush for a long time but it’s now love…I do not know but I am just guessing".
"Hmmm, that's why I asked you, just be careful" Tara said
"Yes ma" she said as she smiled.
Few weeks later, he came to her house as usual for retreat. That night, he started teasing her, as she ran to the sitting room and he followed her. While playing, he paused as he looked at her and he kissed her unexpectedly. She was surprised and ran into Tara's room, leaving him alone in the sitting room. She was uncomfortable and she felt she had sin.
Moreover, she felt she had broken the promise she made to God. Tara noticed her looks but decided not to ask any questions.
In class, Tolani wrote in a piece of paper about what happened. Tara smiled, as she guessed right about the reason for her mood swings. She told her to be calm and to ask him, why he did that and where it was leading to. She got home and realized he was still around, she thought he would have gone. She could not talk to him, during the day as he was busy and she had been avoiding eye contact with him but it was necessary they discussed. She knocked the door as she carried his food inside the room and before she could step out, he called her back to sit down.
She sat at the tip of the bed and before she could ask what was going on, he said "I know you are disappointed about what I did, I am sorry. It just happened and I hope you didn't discuss it with anybody" Checking through her phone chats, she was embarrassed as she lied "No".
He drew her closer as he hugged her. She left the room and went straight to the sitting room to pray to God for mercy and forgiveness.
After the semester, instead of going home, Tolani lied to her parents; they were giving two weeks break. She planned to read books, pray and study more. Also, for Personal retreat. She and Pastor Michael, sometimes meet in church or school to discuss and ask questions concerning her encounters and her life.
One evening, she was with Tara when her phone rang. It was Pastor Michael and he told her, to come over to his house as he wanted to discuss with her. As usual, Tara advised her to be careful and present herself well. The next day, she went to his house in the evening. They talked, made jest at each other and watched movies together that she almost forgot she was going back home.
"I need to leave now" she said urgently.
“Its late and this place is dangerous for ladies. You should have left earlier but we were carried away by the movie. You sleep over and go back very early in the morning”
"Hmmmm, okay" She said as she messaged Tara she won't be coming home. That night, Pastor Michael went for an activity leaving Tolani alone in the house. He told her to lock the door and he would knock, when he was around. She locked the door and went back to sleep. He came back around 12 am, as he went to ease himself and lay on the bed beside her. Few hours later, they became as close as their lips met and it happened again. After a while, they came back to their senses as they separated from each other.
Very early in the morning, Tolani left as he escorted her, but she could not stand to face him. She felt useless and cheap. She cried as she got home, not telling anyone what happened.
"Sister in the lord, going to a guy house that you have feelings for alone. These are things you don't need to pray about, you just need wisdom. *Ecclesiastes 10:10b* says wisdom is profitable to direct.
Then whenever we are praying, we should pray to God for wisdom because they are some situations we need to operate with wisdom. Also, the bible says in *Luke 11:35 and Mark 13:33* that we should take heed.
One thing about our amazing father is that, he is so merciful and lovely. He will never forsake us, if we run back to him" Bola said.
"Hmm...true" Everyone chorused and Miss Abosede continued.
Nobody talked about it, and they were doing fine. They later, settled every dispute between them and she followed him to his other events.
He told her friend, who was also close to him that he would do whatever to win her heart, if it including waving every other ladies and he begged him, not to tell her.
"Hmmmm, I hope his plans won't change"
The School went on strike, as Tolani packed her luggage and went home but Pastor Michael didn't go home. Everyone was present at home, except David because of his school distance. Her parents could see some difference in her life, concerning the knowledge of Christ. A month after she got home, her parent was ordained with a new post in their church.
Tolani and Tara were still much in touch as they call and chat, but the communication between her and Pastor Michael reduced. After several thoughts and advice from Tara, she decided to ask him the question "Can you define our relationship?
Stay with me as we journey together.
*Part 28 Will be posted tomorrow by 9:00am*
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