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Some of you have list of things you ought to do before the end of the year, but you couldn't. And as you are entering into the year of 2023, you need to ask yourself this question, Are you ready?  Are you ready to take a step into the vision God has given you?  Are you ready to be intentional in every aspect? Are you ready to move from that stage you are to where God wants you?  Are you ready to launch that idea God has given you?  Are you ready to leave that relationship that has always lead you to sexual immorality? Are you ready to leave that adulterous attitude?  Are you ready to start reading those books?  Are you ready to take chances in your academic career?  Are you ready to take God's will and die to your will?  Are you ready to stop comparing yourself and family to others?  Are you ready to leave that bittered and depressed zone?   Are you ready to adhere to corrections?  Are you ready to add values to yourself? Are you re...

*PRISONER* Why do I feel like no one understands? Why should I feel like someone should understand? I know it's not God's master plan? Because, I am a prisoner of my thoughts  Am I supposed to feel so alone? How do I get off this mentality? Do I just let it be? I am incarcerated by my own thoughts There's no escaping the darkness  There's nowhere to run or hide,  I see the happiness glowing, but it is always short lived. What more does life want from me? I've given all I can give. No one told me it would be this hard just to live. I started with a zealous heart but now, I feel trapped in my own thoughts, I really want to continue but, My zeal is dead... This is not how I used to be? How did I become this? I really want more for myself but, I keep thinking I might not be able to end it well I have belittled myself with my thoughts... Dear Sisters, It's normal to have negative thoughts flowing in your mind It's normal to get carried away but, it all becomes ab...

*WHAT DO YOU SEE?* People only see what I allow them to see Outside me, lives a girl with a smile that will brighten up the room, yet inside hides a girl with a frown full of despair. To them, my eyes of joy bring them to ease, yet inside hides a girl shedding tears of sadness. A beautiful laugh that's contagious, yet inside hides a girl screaming her lungs out in unwanted anger. Outside lives a girl with the personality everyone envies, yet inside hides a girl full of insecurities and shame. They see a girl who is fearless and tough, yet inside hides a weak girl who lives in fear. A girl full of pain, wanting to die. I am the girl with a perfect image, But within hides a girl with regrets and mistakes. A girl of innocence, yet inside hides a girl with tremendous guilt. People envy me because I am a girl with goals and aspirations, yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion on how to fulfil her goals. What you see on the outside is my personal disguise. What hides underneath, you ca...

*WHAT MORE CAN I DO?* I am going through a dark phase of my life I feel far away from God and his people Sometimes, I act like everything is fine And mostly, like I understand but, I remember all His promises to me but, None has come to pass How am I supposed to trust Him, When He feel so far away? He gave me so many promises, And none of them have come true. I am still knocking on the door And asking and seeking for Him  I thought it was His desire To fill me with living water, I am thirsting for You, my Father. It has been a whole year, Lord, And I still cannot hear Your Word. I have this terrible growing fear That I might have been forgotten  God, my faith is so low and, My spirit is completely dry. I don't know how all this fits in, And I don't understand the reason why. I hate feeling separated from You And this frustration in my heart. I do not know what to do Or where to even start. Is all my seeking in vain? Am I too confused to find You? The only thing I find is pain ...

*MY FEARS* Being left behind, Not being loved With no one to understand and care I had a dream but, I was lost Yet, no one tried to  Find me No one listened Or understood I feel left out, Feeling like no one understands Feeling like no one  Seems to care about me No one, can hear me When I'm screaming  Yet, I want to be heard Sometimes, I wish i could change things Wishing I could make it better I wish for another chance Wishing for someone who  Will come and save me From myself. My fear's Not being heard Being left behind Not being understood No one caring How can I disappear and make people understand. Disappear from this world Show people what It's like to worry,  misunderstand and not being cared for. Yet, I have deepest fears, People laugh People tease me, People misjudge me People misunderstand  me. Behind my back, they laugh, and it hurts, so I can't see them. It hurts. Now, I have learnt to hide  My pain In my heart, No matter what and making s...

*THE REAL ME* Why do you stand around and watch me cry? Don't you see me? I'm in so much pain, don't you see? Nobody knows me; I feel so alone. They don't see what talents I've shown. Why doesn't anyone truly understand? I just want to be part of something. Nobody cares that I always cry. It makes me feel like I want to die. I just ask one question of you. Why do you do the things that you do? I just want to make people smile, To stop the pain and sadness for a while. Nobody sees the things that I do... Nobody knows the real me I guess, I will have to stay forever hidden. Everyone says the real me is weird. It's like the true me has been shattered  Why do I feel the way that I feel? Because of those who make my nightmares real. My friends and family don't know at all Right now I just want to be alone. Dear Sisters, Always remember nobody can stop you, you can only stop yourself by allowing the words of others get into your mind. You don't need to hid...

*WHAT ABOUT ME?* My brother gets all the love And support he needs He has always been first In your mind and heart My Sister gets anything She wants even when she Doesn't deserve it at all Because she's the baby But what about me? I'm the one you can Count on to watch them when You go somewhere I'm the one that is the Last person to know What's going on in the house and The last one you consider What If I want to go With you when you go  Why don't I get the same Kind of love and support That they get, aren't I important as they are? What about me? Don't I deserve the same Kind of love and support Am I not your daughter Don't I deserve the same As your other daughter Or your son Or aren't you my parents? If I try to tell you how I feel you get angry and Upset that I feel this way Why can't you understand? I can't understand why My feelings make you Angry and why I am the One that always gets left behind Have you ever thought, What about me...

*CAN I STILL GET BACK?* Once upon a time,  I used to be loved I used to be my parents pride but, A little mistake, Changed it all I felt lonely I needed help but there was nobody to care for It seems the whole universe has turned Their backs against me. Yes, I know I made a mistake I had a baby out of wedlock, To them, I brought shame and embarrassment but, It was just a mistake. Why is it taking too long to forgive and forget, Why do I have to get the blame alone, Now, I look like the bad child because, I had a baby, What if I had done abortion, Will I still look like their precious child? I know the DIGINITY of a woman is gone but, It was all a mistake I thought keeping the child will mean something But, I was wrong People look at me with Disappoint, Shame, Please how do I recover from this I am still the good child but, One mistake changed it all Dear Sisters, The question to ask yourself, When I recover, what will I do? When i recover, will i still be the same? Will i be strong...

*HOW DO YOU DO IT?* Tell me how do you do it? How do you stay happy even in the midst of it all? Tell me how to respect someone who doesn't deserve my respect. Tell me how to trust someone who betrayed me so badly. Tell me how to care for someone who never cared about me. Tell me how to speak nicely to someone who only spoke down to me with bad words. Tell me how to get along with someone who brought me nothing but endless tears. Tell me how to get close to someone who caused me so much pain. Tell me how to forgive someone who hurt me so severely. Tell me how to open my heart to someone who broke it to pieces too many times Tell me how to deal with pressure  From everything Teach me how to stay happy How do I so hopeful in This hopeless situation" Boriola said as she cried Dear sisters, Nobody can teach you how to stay happy or overcome hard situations.  They can only tell you how to deal with it and Not to affect your day to day activities. You can't fully depend on Men O...

*FOR YOU* It's Emma, I don't know if there's also anyone here Who feel Helpless Hopeless Lifeless Yes, I have been living around this circle. I thought my life will improve but,  Nothing has changed Everything still seems to be the same I can't find my bearing anymore The world has changed, Nobody seems to care You just have to bear it alone A lot of fake pretense A lot of people act like they care The truth is, I am alone Living Hopeless I am tired because, I am at a point where I can go for anything Dear Emma, This is for you all Who hide/living in the dark, For those who feel hopeless, For those with a broken heart. This is for every child  Who is trying to flee from their fears, For those who cry themselves to sleep, For those who drown in their tears. This is for people who hide their scars I want to remind each of you There is a reason you're alive. You are here for a purpose; You are needed  You are special, you are beautiful. It doesn't matter what size,...

*MYSELF* Standing in a crowd screaming, Screaming high but no one seems to hear, And if they do, they only hear a small piece, They don't feel the pain They don't see the hopelessness, How can't they see me? See me begging, Begging to be saved from myself. I am running, Running from the past,  Everyone always saying its just the past and that the past can no longer haunt me, But its destroying me, Bringing me down I keep feeling I am always worthless, No matter how hard I try the past will always be chained to me, I am a prisoner to my past. I hear a voice,  A voice telling me to get over it, That its not that bad. How would they know what I have been though? How could they understand what its like? What its like to be abandoned,  What its like to not be wanted,  How do they know what its like to be forgotten?  Forgotten by someone dear to me  Then they say that I'm better off, Better off without them How can I be better off when I'm the one carrying his sh...

*START AFRESH* For a very long time, I have been finding it difficult, To let go To find myself again I have belittled myself So much I feel like a loser now but, I don't know how to go about it. Deeply within me, I know there's more to me but, How do I start? I still remember the words from people, That hurts me I have many experience with people, That they look down on me There's no morale  How do I start?  To everyone going through this, Forget the memories that make you weak and sad, but not forget the memories that are an anchor to your strength. Forget the people who caused you pain, but not forget those who were with you through the storm  Forget your past, mistakes, and regrets, but not forget the lessons you learned from them. Forget the days when you cried silently, not aloud, but do not forget days that make you strong. Forget the old you, find yourself and explore, and emerge and shine as never before... YOU ARE MADE FOR MORE. YOU ARE MADE TO SHINE. If you kee...

*I DON'T KNOW* Everyday of my life, I keep pushing Sometimes, I don't even know who i am anymore Everyday comes with A new struggle and Challenges It's making me give up On myself I don't think I am worthy? Life hasn't been fair to me I am gradually losing the sight of Who I am I don't know if I can still believe There's hope for me... Dear Sisters, Never give up and Never give in. Keep fighting that fight So the devil doesn't win. Through the hurt and the pain, The sorrow and the shame, The one thing you need to remember is that tomorrow is never the same. Hold unto your hopes and dreams, For your fears are less than they seem. You might feel, there is no hope in sight, Take a minute to look at the sky And remember that there's something Out there bigger than you and I. Just like today, The sun will shine again. Through the clouds and the rain, The sun still remains, And all the darkness will fade away. So hold your head high, Hold unto your dreams ...

*IT WILL END* Just keep on walking, Don't be scared, Don't dare look back. Yes, so many things have changed. It's not the same, even as you have arranged it? Be strong and brave. Calm your fears. Dry your tears. Yes, love hurt you and broke your heart. Keep your head, I know it hurt This will be tough, but time will heal. Perhaps a new life will reveal it. The hardest thing there is to love someone, Who does not love you. So is it worth it? What's to gain, when you love someone Who brings you pain? Dear Sisters, Don't longer compare yourself or your flaws to others' perfections. Take the negativity off the shelf and focus on your direction. Close the door on self-hatred and sadness. Never let it back in, for the lies it would often tell you, You will no longer agree. Happiness and love are what you should hold onto. They are whom you should give the key. Pay no attention to the toxic thoughts, Listen to those who adore everything you are. Overthinking was what y...

*I WISH IT CAN BE BETTER* "Ever since I was young, I wanted to be older. At that time in life, I thought it would be easier, Once someone is old, but Life starts to throw different shit from  Different angles As i slowly progress through, I start to feel what the weight of life is like. All the finances, I have to pay attention to, All the friends that come and go, And the ones i later find out are shallow. Family that leave you in life, But will never be forgotten. To me this is a tough feeling. I believe it is a strong feeling, everyone feels. To some they say it’s the weight of the world, On their shoulders. To me it feels like it's a lesson  As life slowly moves on. The struggle of day to day life increases, Turns into struggling month to month, Than year to year Dear Sisters, To me the only way to loosen this pressure Is to slowly start looking up to Jesus  Build up yourself, taking life’s pressure and turning it for the best. Don't doubt yourself, with time you will...

*IT WAS A MISTAKE* I don't understand why you chose him over me, I was there but you just did not see. I would have done everything right, Instead you chose him, and to stay and fight. I may have been little, but I will always remember the tears. I haven't forgotten it Not even after all these years. In and out of homes,  What kind of kid's life is this? What more could I expect; it's only going to get worse. I was born a mistake, so I guess I'm forever living in a curse. Bottled up inside are the words I've never said to you, The feelings that I hide, You can see it in my eyes, But in my silence it will forever lie. My daddy was meant to love me. He was meant to be there, But he was the one that was my biggest fear. He bought nothing to me but all my tears. Everytime I try and forget you, I can't get you out of my mind. I hate to think that others went through what I did After all I was only a kid. It's a new home, one after another, Will it ever get be...

*CAN I BE WHOLE?* My eyes filled with tears, But not yet fallen. I'm crying, but they're silent tears. I'm crying on the inside so you are unable to see All the pain running though me. Can I ever be whole again? I never sleep, For fear of what tomorrow might bring. How can I be so lost In a place I know so well? How can I be so broken In a family we've been together for long? How can I be so confused Surrounded by so many? Sometimes I walk past everyone as if I were invisible. I tell myself that everything's going to be ok, But it's seizures. The time it took to change me. The life I had, I can't have it back. Yet I can't see why all these tears feel so unreal. I'm not the same, my words are still unsaid. So instead, I write them on paper. So many tears I have shed in the dark, Hidden away in the privacy of my own thoughts, Because of no courage to speak of my pain. And it hurts to know that I'll never be the same, Knowing I'll never be the g...

*CHOICES* Life is full of many choices, What you choose to see, Determines how far you are ready to go. Sometimes you don't need to make a choice, As lot of options are waiting for you. In whatever ways, Always hope for the best. Many are struggling because of a wrong choice While, some are happy Because of the right choice. The platform might be given but, Make sure you prepare for the stage "I see people laughing and joking all around, but on my face there is no smile; instead there is a frown. I don't know how to laugh anymore; instead I cry, and I never stop to ask myself, "Why?" Bintu said Dear Sister, I heard we live and die by the choices we make, and there's only so much a person can take. So just remember life goes on and it hurts when someone leaves and is gone. So always remember, keep your head up, because another door is opened every time one is shut. Don't give up! It might take year but keep pushing. I love you! *Alokan Temilade Victoria* *...

*I AM SICK AND TIRED* Have you heard? Oh, I know you have... Sin kills, Kill the Soul and spirits Kills your mindset Rub you of your identity and your entitlement I’m sick and tired of every killer taking away another’s last breath. I’m sick of sexual orientation, I’m tired of alternative lifestyles I’m sick and tired of being told I’m a too religious because of my standard  I’m sick of the pornography, I’m tired of the sexual deviant I’m sick and tired of the courts being progressively lenient. I’m sick of all the abortions, I’m tired of the slaughter of innocent souls I’m sick and tired of killing God’s future sons and daughters. Lord,  I am sick and I am tired, of sin of every single kind but, mostly I’m sick about . . . what Satan’s done to man’s mind! Folu said as she paused Dear Sisters, There is immorality, of every type and kind with new identities for people to find. Devil doesn't have any work than to destroy, kill and steal. The hatred is real, gone is brotherly lov...

*I AM ALSO ABLE* These are the words I scream everything I see people looking down at me...."l am also able" Why can't people just look beyond  I’m disabled not foolish I 'm disabled, Not Stupid Some people can be so ignorant I know they're not to be blamed They see me in my wheelchair And say “Aw, isn't it a shame”? Some even make it too obvious by point and staring... “Hello, I’m fine” Just because I am disabled, Don't mean my brain is disabled. I know there are many thing you do but I can also do it in my own way I'd like to go on holidays But I stay at home instead Because no matter where I go I will still need an assistance  I am sick and tired of the trauma I go through everyday It's annoying even the people you think you trust, Still say shit behind me It's not my fault I was born this way. Everyday I wish I wish can do things normally and not, Differently... My legs may no longer work But my brain power is perfect So next time you see m...

*THIS IS NOT ME* Sometimes I wish that you could see the real me The scared girl inside of me. I'm not really who you think I am I'm not tough, strong, or mean. That isn't me. This isn't the real me. I fight every day just to reveal it, Yet cry at night. No one can see through My false identity, isn't glaring. Yet, I don't know what to do  I've been hurt, As you can see, So I created A fake me. No one ever tries To get through my shield. All I want to be is me. How do I show, What I've kept hidden for years? How do I show All the silent fears? What would you think If I showed you me? What would you say Without my false identity? Remi said  Dear Sisters, Many people are like Remi, living a life that isn't for them. Living in fear. Wearing a skin that isn't theirs. Yet, they don't know how to pull it off because people are use to their old skin. There's no joy hiding behind your fear *Psalm 56:3*. When you are afraid, put your trust in Him....

*I AM NOT THERE YET* I need help I don't think I can continue anymore I am tired of everything I am not who I look like I am far behind what I do I feel I am stagnant but yet, I don't look like it I am just a media influencer I am not a life influencer I am a status motivator I am not a life motivator I am active in helping people life medially but, I am not active in my relationship with my Maker. I am tired of living a real life socially and yet, My life isn't progressing. I need help I am tired of being active on social media yet, My life isn't active with the move of God My relationship with Him, Isn't the same I am behind the plans of God I want to go back and stop living a life that looks real on media" Tinuke said and gave a huge sigh Dear Sisters, We need to check ourselves daily and Monthly. What's going on with you? A lot of people are okay looking real on social media yet, you needed revival behind the Media. It's not a must you do something ...

*FINDING HOPE* "I've always viewed life from the side lines, Just watching it passing me by. Also, too afraid to just let go and live, And lately too tired to try something new. I have envied the people around me. Their progress and consistency So invested in living each day, While I spent my time hiding out from the world And searching for ways to escape my belittling thoughts. For most of my life I truly believed I was here to help somebody else, But now it's so clear it was just an excuse. To avoid living life for myself. It's sad that the pain we endure, Can weaken our strength to move on, But if we get lost in the scars of our past, Without knowing our lives will be gone. It's true, people are disappointing, But we can't avoid hurting each other, When we all want a chance at this life. But there's something I've learned, A truth about all of our lives, And that is no matter what path we take, In the end, we just want to survive and met needs" ...

*LOST IN MY LOVE* I gave all my love to him, but what did I get in return?    A broken heart. I gave him my heart, and he stomped on it like a mat. I gave him my time and he took advantage of my heart and played with my emotions. I gave him all the trust, but he misused it. I gave him the benefit of the doubt, and he proved everyone right. I gave you my soul and he killed me day by day. I want to pull my heart and tear it piece by piece so I no longer love him. I want to lose my memory so I no longer think of him. I want to go so far so I no longer have to access to see him.  I want to cry, but I no longer have any more tears to fall down I want to sleep, but my dreams are haunted by him been there I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do? How do I get out of this mess? How do I stop this misery? How do I solve this mystery? I can't seem to find anyone to make me feel the way he do, The way he looks at me, The way he calls my name, The sound of his voice when he tells...

*HIDDEN* Hidden from a lot of people, Is the shame, embarrassment and pain Hidden from a lot of people, Is the secret heartfelt prayer Hidden from a lot of people, Is the secret sin and disgrace I bring to myself... Tola said as she continued " I struggled to have a meaning in this world. I tried all my best but yet I wonder, where I should go. Hidden in my soul is the life I try to hide before it ruins the life I have made, I release those dark secrets, and the memories will fade. Hidden in my lives are stories left untold of the things I didn't want people to know, but once i tell somebody, it makes my feelings known, the struggle will be over and I will finally be back to myself. Dear sisters, You can't continue to hide those feelings or secret act. You need to release them so that you can break the bondage I know some times, you really want to stop but you find yourself going back again your determination Some times, you want to back out but you don't know what peo...

*WHERE WERE YOU?* I do not want your counsel and advice. Where were you all when I was enduring hunger? You were not there when I was thirsty and searching for someone to quench my taste When I was having financial problems, You did not assist me in my hour of need. I thought I could depend on you, When I was in pain but, You were not around to sympathise with me. I needed the comforting words of a friend but, I did not see you... I felt that I was going to succumb to my illness. And I had nobody to call out to for help. You did not even try to find out about my condition. I knew that you could not cure my illness, But your presence would have lifted me. Now, I see you do not really care about my well-being and yet, you make me think you will always be there You led me on that, I should depend on you but you let me down This is not the right way to treat someone... Dear Sisters, I know how you feel and I understand you. I know you might feel disappointed because those you think you can...

*LET IT GO* Sometimes, it might not be easy Sometimes, it's hard to accept Sometimes, I regret my actions Sometimes, I feel I should have done better but.... The past is the past for a reason, That is where it is meant to stay, But some cannot let it go. In their heads it troubles them That you cannot change what happened, No matter how hard you try, No matter how much you think about it, No matter how much you cry. What happens in your lifetime Happens for reasons unknown, So you have to let it go Let your story be shown and your healing process Dear sisters, Don't get wrapped up in the negative thoughts. Be happy with what you have been given. Live each day prepared  Get up, get out, and start living, The past is the past for a reason. It's been, and now it is gone, So stop trying to think of ways to fix it. It's done, it's unchangeable; move on! Find Love Find Joy Find Happiness, Find Peace... All these is possible. I know it might not be easy but don't dwell...

*IS IT OKAY?* I don't know what's happening? I been crying since day one, I have tasted my tears to the extent that I don't know what it taste anymore  I been crying and fighting all these while But, I guess it’s okay to cry out loud  It’s okay to let people see me cry I been crying because it hurts I have been crying because, i never thought I will be stabbed at my back I been crying because I know I still have people to love me  I have been crying to forget away all my shame I have been crying because my trust has been chattered many times  I been crying to get stronger from now on and forever I have been crying to survive; I have been crying to train myself not to give up Dear sisters, I believe it’s okay to cry with pride I believe It’s okay, to cry at night I believe it’s okay, to cry away your pain I believe it’s okay, crying isn't a shame Nothing last forever and neither does crying makes you feel better  It’s okay to feel pain, crying sometimes might bre...

*I AM LONELY* Single ladies, Be happy for everyone and yourself, Singles are sometimes blessed because life's not so messed. Everything has a lesson Embrace it for some reason. Singles, Don't be mad and sad, Single life is somewhat not that bad, Be very happy because life is always so lovely and it doesn't mean you are lonely. Singles, being alone is not a hell, So cheer up and celebrate Single life means living alone, There are times we can't hold on Yes, a touch and a hug from someone can be a solution but, not for everyone. There are times, you feel you need to be alone even when you are in a relationship So, love your single life Dear sister Stop worrying and overthinking because you feel you are alone and lonely Single life is exciting, full of fun, adventure, and a learning stage. Yes, I know you have come across people who ask and say, Why are you still single? Smile may sometimes a reply because you can't even explain it. People may or will tell a lot of thi...

*PASSING THROUGH A LOT* I have done many bad things in my life. I have made poor choices and I have put myself down. I have never seeked help because I felt like if I did I would feel less. Friends come and go Right before you, You lose someone you love Yet through it all you still love your life. People leave you to fight alone You put on a fake smile to hide all your pain Yet someone still knows your hurt. You still try to satisfy those around you Thorough it all, you wouldn't change a thing Through it all, you wouldn't trade your life for fame and show. Struggles meet you in the face to watch you slip up Yet through it all you wouldn't change a thing. Through it all you wouldn't trade your life for fame. Dear sisters, There is someone who loves you and cares about you and also outside there. I promise you that. Don't fight what ever you are going through alone. It is hard and it might be frustrating and look miserable. Seek guidance and be happy. Jesus loves you ...

If you read the pages of THORIA'S DIARY. Trust me you wouldn't want to miss out on this ... My struggles is another part where we share friction stories and I believe it will help the those passing through the same story. Don't forget to read, share and drop your comments.. *CAN YOU HEAR ME?* "Can't you hear my silent screams? They are so loud and behind this face that carries a smile, Lies a mark that goes on mile after mile. My silent screams have been going on for years, But it always falls on so many deaf ears. How can they hear these silent screams in my mind? They can't hear my thoughts if I keep telling them I'm fine. What can I tell them? These silent screams has no words. It's just feelings of sadness and darkness. How can I explain, so people understand this? It's like walking around without any direction  I can't explain how this feels; it's so extreme, So I hold my mouth shut to cover my silent screams and let nobody know about i...

Some ladies are like a bird sitting on the ground and too afraid to fly. They have beautiful wings(talents and gifts) that could make them soar, but the pain of past failure is the cry of their hearts. Yet, God has said unto them, "Trust and have faith in me, for I will carry you in your flight. The miracle of life is waiting for you to see." After the assurance of God, there is still some doubts in them that says, "But I can't fly. I am weak, I am a failure! I will fall and feel pain. It's happened before when I tried to progress. I'm afraid of being hurt again." God said again, "I created you, and I will protect you. Your cry I have heard. Have faith in me. That's all you need to do. Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right h...

I remembered, I was telling some group of people that "I can't go to a place I wasn't invited to". Many people said several things, giving their opinion on what I said but I stood firm on what I said and I wasn't bothered. While I was brooding over some people opinions. I got to realize something's. Bible says, "Ask and it shall be given unto you. Knock and the door shall be open unto you" Asking Him, is inviting His presence into the situation. Dear Sister, You have been going through a lot, the Lord sees it all but have you invited Him for Help? You feel because He is God and He sees it all, He should be able to do something but the bible has asked you to "Ask" Ask,  Call upon Him and invite Him into that situation. If you don't grant Him access through the confession of your mouth and the sincerity of your heart, there is no how He can come in... God sees it all but He still want us to ask Him.  Just like I saw the invitation card bu...

Life is unpredictable... Don't live on past events or in regret. Never live your life trying to please anyone who isn't your creator. Live your life according to God's standard and plans for you. Life will push you over, kick you while you're down and even hit you when you try to get back up but remember, not everything can beat you or knock you down. We have victory in Christ Jesus. Things will come to change you but you have to choose which ones you let change you either the good or bad. Listen to your heart and follow your dreams. Let no one tell you what you're capable of. Push the limits and enjoy every minute of it. Smile all the time and Live for as long as you can. Love all, but trust God. Believe in yourself and never lose faith in others. Settle for nothing but only the best and give 100% in everything you do.Take risks, live on the edge yet stay safe and cherish every moment of it. Life is a gift from God. Appreciate all the rewards and pray and seize opp...

Does everything have to go this way.  I am trying and putting in my best everyday yet, nothing seems to be new about me. Would I ever be heard? Is my life meant to go on this way? I know there's something great in me, Sometimes,I struggle to find myself for days and months keep passing. As I lie here, stuck in my own mind. Always looking for ways to improve myself but I struggle to take that first step. I often wonder if this is it for me or if I'm stuck in my regret. Something I don't know, if that's the right thing and I can't still see the right thing. I try to hide my insecurities because the worry is just too much, But everything end up going by, without having to achieve anything. I don't even know what I live for. So today I am tired of this life routine because it seems I am at dead ends and I don't know where to go again. Any words of wisdom Could help my soul someway. I need to find myself" Doris voiced out. I know life can be challenging, cou...

I know you can be in a situation where you don't understand what is going on or don't know the right words to pray with. I know it can be overwhelming and sometimes, you just find yourself crying and telling God to help you, whispering the words "Help me lord", with tears dropping from your eyes and you feel sometimes, you can't go on Sometimes, the words feel heavy and you just wish that season can pass away but nothing changes. You can go further and tell Him, Jesus, some days my world seems to be spinning out of control. There are days where I long to just say, "Enough." Where can I turn? Who can I talk to? You're the only one I know who will truly listen, Lord and I know you have the answers but, i can't seem to find them. I long to see a little clearing in this tunnel. I need a little hope, Jesus. Your Word tells me I can come to you for that hope and you won't disappoint, that your load is easy and your burden light. Give me a new persp...

Welcome back to Thoria's diary.  Page 63  *OLOLADE'S STORY* Sometimes, I wish I could cry and scream loud but i can't because I am preventing my voice to be heard by others. Mostly, I don't really understand myself because I find myself crying for too many reasons. Reflection about my life in the past always bring tears to my face. Reflection about what I have been through. Reflection of not getting enough and walking yet in that vision I pictured.  Reflection of seeing the things I admire coming to fulfilment in the life of another. Yes, I am a Christian and i am trying my best to stop dwelling too much on many things because the outcome will only be tears that wouldn't change anything. It can be tears of regrets about something's. It can be tears of failure. It can be tears on not starting well like others and so on. I have also noticed my tears don't move anything. It only touches those things I admired for that moment but its determination, faith and act...

Never compare yourself with everyone  Never compete with anyone Never compare your progress with your neighbors Never envy your friends growth Never wish to be  someone else Never stop praying Never stop singing melodies praises and worship Never stop believing and trusting God Never stop appreciating each other progress Never seize to seek knowledge about issues that aren't clear Never stop being obedient to God Never think you are alone in the journey of life Never think your problem is the biggest among all Never think there's a struggle without an end Never lie about your present state Never live a fake life Never stop giving Never stop appreciating other efforts Never criticize anyone because you don't know what they are passing through Never be the judge Never stop to rise after you fall Never stop believing in yourself Never hide those tears in the presence of God Never get tired of waiting on God Never stop growing in all areas of life Never live your life trying to...

When trials and temptation seem to weigh you down  When the pressures of life seems so much that you feel choked and you can't get answers when you pray, Just have faith and trust God is in action to changes things. When you're discouraged and feel sad, Everything seems to turn out bad, Sometimes, you even feel cursed Keep believing and trust God  When the night seems so very long, When the day seems so short, And it seems it will not turn to night  Praise God in your heart with a song. Give thanks and still trust God When you can't get any peace of mind, When you wish God can just change your present position, Even when you never cease to pray, And answers you can't seem to find, Look up and trust God anyways. Remember God's timing is not ours, And the answers will come one day. Nothing is too hard for God's powers, So cheer up and trust God anyway! You don't have power to change things, Why don't you leave it to the person that has power to change thi...

"I feel so empty and everything seems so dull. I can barely breathe on my own. The light is gone and dark is back which covers me in endless black, My heart broken on the floor. I cry sometimes and just wish I can feel His presence again.  I need you Him; can't you see? It's obvious, He completes me. I lay on my bed crying all night, praying for things to be all right. For everything, I'm to blame. Remember me forevermore, Please don't erase me from your agenda. My heart will never be the same. Don't remove me from your plans. I knew I loved you from the start but I accepted you" Louis wept "Who is that? And what's his name? Because I feel the love is surreal" Yemi the counsellor asked "My everything, His name is God. These days, I feel I have been so far from him. I have lost my way as Sin as dominated me. I miss His presence and His inspiration. I pray every day for the Spirit of restoration. I want Him back" Louis said in tears a...

It's alright to cry.... You get negative vibes from people around you, You feel the weight of anxiety is much over you,  You feel the wall are closing in on you and the roof is caving in. Just be calm and know it's okay to cry. You have been bottling up those emotions, You have been strong enough and nobody seems to notice you need consolation, You have been neglected by those your called friends and it all seems you are all alone and know one cares. It's alright to cry.... When that situation looks tight and it seems you have lost your voice, It's alright to cry.... When you don't get results, even after putting in so much strength into it, It's alright to cry... When your back is against the wall and it looks like it's all over, It's alright to cry... Dear sisters, Crying is not only a sign of weakness. It also helps you release emotions you have been covering up. There are times you don't have the right words to say and all you can do is to releas...

"He is so selfish. He doesn't even think of me. Am I not His daughter? I mean, why must my life be like this? My life can't just keep going on this way? Something has to change" Words of Sade as she talked like a frustrated christian Dear Sisters, I know you have been holding up and still holding up well.  I know it's not easy and sometimes, you feel there is no Favor or Miracle anywhere because you haven't experienced yours. Hmmm...I remember how I used to claim the testimonies of others in church and it got to a time, I was tired because the previous ones I have claimed, I haven't seen the manifestation and sometimes I wondered if they are really real or maybe, they are not the testimony God prepared for me.... Hmmm, at a long run I stop being bothered and I learn to be happy for those who shared their testimonies because I believe mine is on the way. What am I trying to say? I know someone somewhere has given the testimony you wished you shared but why ...

What do you know about Pain? What experience do you have concerning shame, struggles, etc. It's so painful that most people, are passing through pains, difficulties, etc and they have refused to let it out but, who can we blame, when we are not God that sees the heart of people.  Except God touches the heart of the person to speak to you or unless He reveals it to you, who can know or see it all? God What exactly are you clothed with?  Dear sisters, Don't hide your pain beneath the cloth. Some of our sisters, are clothed in pains but the spiritual mind, won't allow them speak out. What are you clothed with? Struggles. Some are struggling in every aspect of their lives that they don't know who they are anymore because they are clothed in pain, struggle, disappointments, heartbreaks, etc. I know you are a star in holding unto pains but for how long do you want to keep doing this and hoping that someone should notice you? It's time, to fight for your freedom, don't...

He sees it all, those silent tears and unending circumstances happening to you He sees it all, those struggles and pain you have been holding unto for a long time.  He sees those moments when things seem difficult, miserable and even life is turning away from you He knows how it feels, remembering those moment you had lost with your beloved ones. Thinking of how beautiful and caring they were and leaving without saying goodbye He knows about those lonely moments and how you wished you could find someone close to you. To understand you and to talk heart to heart matters with, without being misunderstood. He sees how you wonder life can really be unfair to honest and good people like you but all you have to do, is go off to focus on how to mend your life He sees how you try to be strong even in the midst of the circumstances and how you wish for a miraculous help. Dear Sister, I want you to know that every circumstances is not there to stay forever. I know how you feel and hope for a...

A lot of things are going on in the world and trust me, it is taking the self esteem of some people gradually. To some people they know and to some people, they don't know.  Some are living in depression knowingly and unknowingly (because, they don't know). Nothing in this world seems happy or pleasant to them because there is no joy. Trust me, the storm and pressure of life will come but who you are and what you stand for, is what will hold you in the face of it all. To some people, Christianity isn't real. To some people, faith is scam. Some are not who they are anymore because of what they are passing through. If you can't hold unto your faith in the midst of the storm, what do you want to hold unto? The Word or the World? I know some people are thinking..."Ah, it's not what you think. The storm has different levels. Maybe, she hasn't faced anyone because if she has, she won't be talking like this".  Dear Sisters, Don't be deceived everyone ...